My Story !

I've truly never had a first love at all. I've had crushes but thats about it. I wish i had someone, that love me for who i am, loves me no matter what. I want a relationship like the ones i see in the movies ( disney) someone that will cheer me on when im feeling low, tells me that he loves me & he means it. Someone that loves going to new places and makes me face my fears. Wants everyone know im his gal, is respectful to my family and me., Love's going to church, wants a family, doesn't matter we live.

My name is amber lynn rennie, im 21 im a leo. i love hanging with my friends. I love going to the bars and the zoo's, my all time favorite animal is a polar bear. I swear if anyone buys me a stuff polar bear i would love them to death. I have blue eyes and blonde hair, i love watching SVU , NCIS , Reba and many more show's. My favorite type of music is contry. Oh im a mormon and no we dont believe in many wives ( yuck) and i love it so much , its been a blessing in my life. Im the nursery chior teacher and its been awesome. I have a few friends, but my cloest one is NIcole and man i just love her to death as a sister and she has a baby. I absoulty fell in love with that child since day one. Nicole and I have been friends for about five years now, and i count her more like my sister/ other half Im truly glad i have someone in my life that i can count on.

man i just love snuggling up and watching law n order, (:  Like i have this sick addiction to it. ive always like Benson an stabbler like come on, divorce you wife and date benson (:  Im wishing really big. (: 

Right at this moment, i can rip someones face off and it dosnt help, that im watching househunters, and the buyers are soo damn stupid that i just want to smack the hell out of them, no joke!  the wife is so friggin annoying like are you kidding me . Ugh 

This is awesome my mine wont shut off and its 12;33am and i need to get but i dont think im able to tonight, not until late because if i go to bed now i might just lay in my bed and cry my eyes out like no other. Since today has been terriable since i woke up..,...  with my father screamin and yellin at me, telling me im a worthless piece of shitz and i wont make in life at alll...Like whose father tells their daughter that, ive been hearing that since ive been the age of at least 14... And i wonder why i just cant anyone close to me because i have some damn trust issues really bad. I run away from people, that want to me or even help me through anything., I run before they can hurt me... I run from everyone and everything. 

I can use a 3 packs of cigs today. But I don't smoke but today I might have to start ... I'm so frigin frustrated so bad lately I just can't even look At people or even talk .

It's going really bad all I want to do is just cry my eyes out. My whole body frigin hurts head to toes... Love being told that quite my job and shit like wtf . More to come later on ....

Fuck life , fuck everything , fuck everything in life.