Dilek

if you’re still team jeremiah(idk how you were in the first place) BUT if you’re STILL team jeremiah … pls get mentally checked out. PLEASE. conrad loves belly soso much. he’s finding solutions for her, for her and jeremiah’s wedding. he’s fixing up the house for her, he is doing everything he can to make her happy. he is literally sacrificing everything he’s working towards for her, he yearns for her. he needs her. he has healthy food in the kitchen. he went to michael’s with her. he’s doing everything he can just for belly. belly is such an unreliable narrator so seeing what conrad sees… i am so proud of conrad. he’s in med school, he is in therapy, he is working on himself. he is TRYING. i’m so happy to say i’ve been team conrad since i watched season one, then i listened to the books. this man loves belly more than himself. the fact that he tells belly he doesn’t love her, and that she can be with jere… all so he can see her happy. conrad fisher, you are an angel. you are so loved. i would kill for you. jeremiah fisher, you are an evil blue eyed demon.

the most recent episode killed me in ways that i can’t even imagine. belly is so so beautiful in conrad’s pov(which she always is) but this pov? she was golden. for conrad, belly is the sun. for belly, conrad is the moon and stars. they’re soulmates, they’re equals. her inner child comes out around conrad, she doesn’t have to mother him. no one is parenting in their relationship. my heart breaks for conrad, he does have a hero complex but because he is the older sibling. he had jeremiah to deal with and take care of. he can’t help it, being the older sibling the hero complex comes naturally.

jeremiah DID NOT love her before she ‘turned pretty’. conrad has loved her since he didn’t even know what love felt like. it’s always been Belly and conrad. he sees her in such a beautiful light and always has.

i will always defend conrad fisher with my life. a man who yearns is a man who earns.

anyways…. when she was on top, his hand.. the “Oh, conrad.” when he bit her bottom lip. when he flipped her over, EVEN WITH HER MOM IN THE NEXT ROOM. the peach scene? he untucked his shirt to wipe her face. the intimacy in that scene alone? truly the man who can’t be MOVED!