when stupid ideas work, they become genius ideas.

if you're reading this, guess what? your favorite rp partner is officially a college graduate! my commencement was earlier this week, and i couldn't be more proud to finally be done with my higher education. i officially hold a degree in digital art, two minors in psychology and music performance, and the dream of working in the video game industry (with one finished game under my belt!). what's up next? i don't know!! please stop asking!! /silly

truly, thank you all for being so patient with me while i finished out this past year. it was...a bit hectic, to say the least, and you guys have been super supportive. i really appreciate it. this is also a super cool milestone for me personally, because i started braving the wilds of tumblr rp four years ago, in the spring before my freshman year – and four years later, here i still am! i've had some scares, but for the most part everyone has been so sweet and amazing, and i'm so happy to have found my little niche here; playing funny lil guys and writing with all of you.

so what's next...here? a much better question! my current plans are to catch up on all the threads across my blogs that i've neglected since the semester started! i'll be filling up my queues until i'm out of replies – as well as catching up on some of my starter/meme calls that i haven't completed...whoops. i also intend on cleaning up some of my blogs, perhaps doing some graphics updates, and maybe combining a few (that's a big maybe. i've found that the sideblog vibe really works for me.). bouncing off of that, this blog here is likely going to function as a hub blog. the slice-of-life muses that i've housed here (but never actually written with...um...) will eventually live on a separate sideblog, and i'll let you guys know when that's up and running. might take a while though. we'll see. i'd also like to clean up / update my rules, and maybe combine some of my many carrds together so my information is more centralized. considering doing a google doc instead of carrds as i Cannot afford the subscription and carrd is a pain in my ass anyway </3. i don't know. plans are a little up in the air right now. long story short, there will be some changes coming to the mayli you know – but only organizationally!

where can i catch you right now? i'm so glad you asked! my activity is highly variable, as i tend to go where the wind takes me – my apologies. however! currently, i've been most active on frcmblood (simon from iron lung), troublemqkers (hal and thjazi fang from critical role campaign 4), and amaz3 (rocky and grace from project hail mary – and perhaps some other goslings if i get my act together?). i'll leave a full list of where you can find me and their current statuses below the cut!

lastly, thank you all for sticking with me. it's been a long road to get here, and i don't plan on stopping any time soon. thank you!!

[ @amaz3 from rocky! ]

⠀  ⠀  ⠀you   cant   seem   to   feel   anything,   at   a   constant   of   feeling   numb   due   to   the   amount   of   times   you've   smelt   burning   skin   emitting   off   your   neck.   aboard   the   hail   mary   your   sat   wrapped   in   a   blanket   on   the   cold   floor   as   the   ship   spins   to   keep   the   gravity.   loud   thumping   from   the   jagged   ball   rolling   toward   you   he   spoke   out   toward   you   -   seeming   to   snap   you   out   of   this   dissociative   state   that's   been   a   constant   ever   since   you   had   been   well,   rescued,   from   the   hell   of   AT   -   5.   why   were   you   even   let   up   on   the   first   place?   do   you   really   deserve   to   live?

⠀  ⠀  ⠀a   blink.   leaking?   (   if   anything,   that   would   mean   you   would   be   bleeding.   )   a   hand   quickly   reaching   for   skin   contact   to   only   be   met   with   a   wet   feeling   against   fingers,   realizing   instantly   moving   to   wipe   eyes   with   a   sniff.   you   didn't   even   realize   you   were   crying,   giving   a   look   toward   rocky.

⠀  ⠀  ⠀“   you   mean   crying?   yeah   i   uh   ...   i   don't   know   about   that.   “   slightly   leaning   to   the   side.   ”   it   just   happens,   i   guess. you don't have to point it out.   ”

"OH." I shift slightly inside the ball, legs tapping around the different faces of its walls, trying to decide where to go with this. Grace has warned me about speaking with the human already; that he might not want to, or that he might get angry. I want to do it anyway. I'm curious! His situation was strange. Maybe he is strange too.

› prompts from rachel gillig's novel the knight and the moth (2025). feel free to tweak as you see fit , bartholomew.

❛ you don’t have to be good, or useful, for someone to care about you. ❜

❛ when you do the right thing for the wrong reason, no one praises you. ❜

❛ we all want to be special.”

❛ what is right and wrong depends entirely on the story you’re living in. ❜

❛ which is more intricate? the designs of men, trying to reach gods, or that of gods, trying to reach men? ❜

❛ people who love you for your usefulness don't love you at all. ❜

❛ you want to throw me down. ❜

❛ i, prideful, disdainful, godless. ❜

❛ i want to drag you into the dirt with me. ❜

❛ you know this story, (name,) though you do not remember it. ❜

❛ to tell a story is in part to tell a lie, isn't it? ❜

❛ it's hard to see who i am when i am lost in what's expected of me. ❜

❛ fear not, (name!) every day has its dog. ❜

❛ if you only ever look up at something, can you ever see it clearly? ❜

❛ it is easier, swearing ourselves to someone else's cause than to sit with who we are without one. ❜

❛ take my hand, you strange little creature. ❜

❛ it sounds awful when i say it out loud. ❜

❛ you are more special than you realize. ❜

❛ i would do anything for you. ❜

❛ i cannot decide which i like best. the sunrise, or the sunset. ❜

❛ i was losing my faith in everything. ❜

❛ the two of us meeting… it felt almost divine. ❜

❛ i think her quite the bitch. ❜

❛ how undignified. ❜

❛ did anyone see me fall? ❜

❛ i want someone to see me. ❜

❛ i want it to be you. ❜

❛ no honor among thieves, and even less among gods. ❜

❛ i’ll do anything you ask of me. ❜

❛ if i were beside myself, there would be two of me ❜

❛ oh, (name.) he's dreamy. ❜

❛ do you want to know how it ends? ❜

❛ does it end? ❜

❛ it ends when you kiss me. ❜

❛ why do we do these things to ourselves? ❜

❛ you’re an incomparable fiend, (name.) a truly accomplished asshole. ❜

❛ i’d like you better if you were on your back again. ❜

❛ it is not like me to be the bearer of bad tidings. ❜

❛ am i all that you imagined? ❜

❛ your hands are marked by the blood of my metamorphosis. ❜

❛ whatever my soul was made of was frail. ❜

❛ violence is a craft. so is compassion. ❜

❛ no is a sufficient answer. ❜

❛ anger is a fine weapon. ❜

❛ now have some soup. ❜

❛ i will shoulder any weight you give me. ❜

❛ would that things were different. ❜

❛ i think i would like to stop promising myself away, or else there will be nothing left of me to give. ❜

. . . you just need to find someone to be brave for.

Grace Rocky save stars.

they've suffered enough.

i have seen the worst that humanity has to offer... and yet i'm still standing.

the world can keep knocking me down, but i'll get back up.

i don't give up.

i just want to live a peaceful life.

i don't want conflict.

there were nicer ways to ask that, you know.

i don't want to hurt anybody.

i still don't hate you.

i want peace at all costs.

if you would only try and see the world from my point of view.

i don't want to fight with you.

things always get better.

this isn't the end.

you have to stand tall.

the world is cruel, but i won't be.

i believe in you. i always have.

my morals are firm.

there's no harm in a little kindness.

just be gentle with them.

i mean well.

there's too much pain in this world. i don't intend to add to it.

i don't want to fight anyone.

don't you believe in yourself?

i'm not leaving them.

there is enough hate in this world.

i try to lead with love.

it's the right thing to do.

this doesn't have to end in violence.

why don't we talk this through?

maybe he's having a bad day.

i'm going to try again.

there has to be another way to do this.

this isn't the time to quit.

i've seen too many things go wrong. this has to go right.

i'm not giving up just yet.

kindness is not weakness.

you can do better than that.

i try to see the good in everyone.

you can't just give up!

you're a special person.

i deserve better than this.

you deserve happiness.

it costs nothing to be kind.

there's no need to be so mean.

if only you could see yourself the way i see you.

it's still a beautiful day.

there's always tomorrow.

are you asking me to quit?

tomorrow will be better.

you didn't mean that, did you?

maybe we should talk this out.

i will always choose to be kind.

despite everything, i just want to be good.

i do my best to see the good in everyone, no matter what.

you didn't have to do that.

that wasn't very nice.

do you have to be so rude?

a nice word goes a long way.

try smiling at them. see what happens.

you could try being nicer.

i deserve a happy ending.

don't beat yourself up.

don't talk about yourself like that.

i see the goodness in you.

. . . you just need to find someone to be brave for.