Family don't end with blood

We had just finished a hunt in Florida, and I was able to convince him into going to the beach and watching the sunset. I love taking a moment to breathe after a hunt just to remind myself that I am still alive. At first Ketch was complaining of course. He was always so focused on doing his job but after watching me closely for a few moments he gave in. I don’t know what it was, but I could see his eyes soften. Arthur even gave me a little smile when he agreed. I was so happy that I simply hugged him. He seemed surprised about it, but I guess we were both as surprised as he hugged back.

We got into his Bentley and drove to the closest beach. I simply sat down in the sand while Ketch started rambling about his suit getting dirty. I honestly didn’t pay much attention to him. I enjoyed the sand underneath me and the wind that was softly blowing through my hair. I closed my eyes and took a deep breath. I love the smell of the sand and ocean. It gave me peace. As I opened my eyes, I saw that Ketch was sitting next to me. He had stopped talking and was watching me closely as if he was trying to figure me out.

“Why?” he asked.  “Why what?” I responded confused.  “Why haven’t you left me yet? Why aren’t you scared of me? Why don’t you hate me like the Winchesters do?”.  I was surprised by his questions. “Should I be scared of you? Arthur, yes you have done some bad things in the past, but you changed. I can see it. I remember when we first used to hunt. Your whole demeanour was different. Now, you are more kind, you are trying to be a better person and I can see that. Yes, Sam and Dean might have a grudge against you, but can you blame them? After what you did? Not that I judge you, but I believe in second chances and you haven’t given me a reason to mistrust you” I answered. Ketch looked shocked by my answer. He adjusted the cuff links of his suit, a habit which I noticed he was doing when he was insecure. “I don’t deserve you. You are everything I’m not. But still I can’t get you out of my head. I want to change, I don’t want to be this cold-hearted monster because I want to be with you. You had me intrigued the first second I laid my eyes on you. You ...” Ketch rambled on.

“Arthur” I interrupted him. He looked as me, scared about what I would say next. I studied his face. Arthur was pouring his heart out, what he had never done before. Ketch looked completely broken. I took his face in my hands and pressed my lips to his. The kiss was everything I wasn’t expecting. It was full of passion. Arthur moved his lips softly against mine.

That night we slept together for the first time.  It was the start of our relationship or at least that’s what I thought…

Now I’m sitting here in my room in the bunker, in one of his shirts and I’m crying again. I thought by now my eyes would be completely drained. You don’t even deserve my tears but still I can’t help it. That night at the beach was a month ago. I was happy and I thought he was too. I thought I knew him but apparently, I didn’t.  Two weeks after the beach Arthur turned into his old self. He became cold and distant and I don’t even know why.  I tried for another week but then I had to face reality. Arthur never really loved me. He just played with me.

One day I confronted him in the library and tried to get some answers. He just looked at me with his emotionless eyes. “You’re right. I never loved you. It was all for fun but then you had to turn it into something serious. Love, you should know that that’s not who I am. But I guess that’s your personality. Your kindness will kill you someday” Ketch shrugged it off. I wanted to punch him so bad in that moment. I was balling my fists. Of course, he noticed it and just smirked. “You can punch me if it makes you feel better, but it won’t change anything” he said. “How…How can you be like this? I thought you changed. I believed you, trusted you! You really are a cold-hearted monster. Just so you know, you will regret this, but I don’t care. If ever see you again… I will kill you so stay away from me Ketch!” I screamed at him with tears in my eyes. I turned around to walk to my room. I didn’t care if Sam or Dean heard us.  But also, I didn’t see a heartbroken Ketch as soon as I left the room.

 *Ketch POV*

It hurt me so bad to see her break down in front of me. But it’s for the best. I’m no good for her. I’m doing this to protect her. Or that’s what I’m telling myself. I had to keep my cold emotionless face on so that she understood that I was serious. “… I will kill you so stay away from me Ketch!” she screamed at me. She turned around and left the library. And I just let her walk away even though it hurt more than any other torture I had suffered before.

“Give me one good reason not to kill you right now” I heard someone say from behind me. I turned around to face an angry Dean Winchester. “You have every right to, honestly, but it had to be done” I answered him. He glared at me. “You had to break her heart? Oh no, you son of a bitch. She’s a good person and she deserves the world. You don’t get to swoon in and hurt her.” I can understand him. Y/N is like a sister to the Winchesters and I hurt her, badly. “Well, I guess you heard her, I’m going to leave because otherwise she will kill me herself. Now if you excuse me Winchester, I have to go drown my sorrows in the next pub” with that I made my way toward the staircase.

“If you love her why did you do this to her?” I heard Dean ask me. I turned around to face the older Winchester. “I’m no good for anyone especially since the British men of Letters found me here in America. They want me dead and if they find out about her… I can’t risk it Dean. I love her too much to sign her death sentence so even though I love her… I have to let her go.” Dean looked shocked by my explanation. “So, if you excuse me, I have to leave the country and get as far away from her as possible” I said while making my way to the door, “Oh and Dean, I would appreciate it if this would stay between the two of us. I don’t want her looking for me” with that I walked out the door with the intention of never coming back.

 3 Months later…

*Y/N POV*

“Do you remember when we took that trip to the beach? I remember it as clear as it was yesterday because it was the day you told me that you would never leave me.”

I sent the message to the number that was still saved as Arthur Ketch in my phone. I never expected an answer. I knew better than to think that Ketch kept the same number. I didn’t get my hopes up, so I put my phone down and got back to researching for the case that I was working. It was in the middle of the night when I heard the notification sound of my phone. I fell asleep on the book that I was reading so I picked up my phone, probably just Dean asking me to come back to the bunker.

“I always will, Love. “

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