a victim to change

You can joke around with your headmates

You can (AND SHOULD) make little groups and discord servers for you to chat with your headmates

You CAN dress up to look like yourself better

You CAN make art of your headmates

Margaret Atwood, from The Door: Poems; “Poetry reading”

Can we talk how frightening is to derealize?

You start dissociating for one or another reason, and in the moment you less expected the dissociaton gets that hard that you enter in a derealization state

Derealization can feel and present in many ways, once you enter in that state everything starts to lose sense... The world around you starts to feel unreal, this can be in many ways

Feeling that's just a dream

Feeling that it's fake

Feeling like every things is distorted

Feeling that's too fantastical

Feeling like it's too bright or dull

You can't even describe in a correct way how it feels and it's scary, because it feels unreal

Maybe my things aren't real, maybe my envirioment isn't real, maybe the people around me aren't real, maybe I am not real, who knows? Definetly not me

It feels so fuzzy, strange and terriffying, but at the same time can bring a calm sensation of anything being real or important, a calm that scares me

Derealization is a very frightening experiences, and I can't quite describe the whole dissociative experience this states brings me