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pairing: aaron hotchner/fem!reader + emily prentiss
w.c.: 5k
a/n: this is for all of you bisexuals ily alternate title of fic was cuck chair
summary: Aaron finds out you like to be watched and Emily is an enthusiastic volunteer.
c.w.: 18+ MDNI, exhibitionism/voyeurism, threesome adjacent, established relationship, bisexual reader, dom/sub undertones, possessive!hotch, f oral receiving, unprotected p in v, f masturbation, aftercare, open relationship adjacent
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Youâre starting to think that Aaron knows you a little too well.
He knows you like your coffee with more sugar than milk. He knows that it takes at least five different alarms on your phone to force you out of bed in the mornings. He knows that sometimes, after certain cases, you like to drive home in silence with the windows rolled down.
Now, you think he knows that you like being watched.
Youâre perched on the edge of his desk, Aaron standing between your spread legs, and your sleek pencil skirt bunched up around your hips as he had two fingers plunged deep into your pussy.
You had thought everyone had gone for lunch and that you had plenty of time to flirt with your boyfriend a little, tease him after he had teased you this morning.
You didnât expect amusement to flash across his face, nor the way his eyes slightly narrowed as he beckoned you around the desk with a tilt of his chin. You were already soaked, your panties uncomfortably wet all day, so it didnât take much convincing for you when his hands trailed up your thighs to shove the fabric of your skirt up.
You have your back facing the door, your head tilted back and your mouth open around a strangled moan because you were right on that fucking edge, so you donât notice somethingâs amiss until you hear a familiar voice.
âHotch, I found thoseâoh my god!â
Your head snaps up, your legs immediately closing around Aaronâs wrist where he pauses, and you barely crane your neck around in time to see the door slam shut. Thereâs the quick click-clack sounds of someoneâs, Emilyâs, boots down the hall that grow fainter and fainter with each second. It eventually disappears, and the only sound that fills the room is the thudding of your pulse in your ears.
âShould weâŠ?â You whisper after a beat of silence.
âShould we what?â His breath fans hotly over your face, his hand spread wide over the sliver of skin from your shirt being hurriedly untucked merely ten minutes ago.
âShould we go after her?â Youâre distantly aware that his fingers are still inside of you and your panties were dangling from your ankle. You squirm in his hold.
Aaron notices, pausing. Thereâs the tiniest flicker of interest in his eyes before heâs shoving your thighs apart with his arm, stepping further into your space until your knees are propped open by his hips. The action causes his fingers to shift inside of you and you make a small noise. You adjust from where youâre still perched on the edge of his desk, the surface slick from a lewd combination of your sweat and wetness.
Youâre dripping, soaking his fingers and the insides of your thighs, and your face burns and pulse stutters when Aaron slowly and curiously begins fucking his fingers inside of you. Your eyes flutter shut as the filthy noise of your cunt fills the room, your head dropping back between your shoulders as he grazes that spot inside of you that has your thighs trembling.
âI think youâd rather stay right here,â he says, voice infuriatingly even despite the obvious shape of his hard cock through his slacks, precum starting to leak through the fabric.
And heâs right; you would spend all day here if you could. The voices outside grow louder, footsteps thudding outside his office door increasing, and Aaronâs hand quickens as you get wetter. You knew if you glanced down, youâd see the evidence of your arousal smeared all over his thick fingers, and your clit throbs when you hear Derek and Spencer walking past while arguing about something.
He whispers something against your ear, breath hot against your warm skin. You come harder than you ever had in monthsâyour teeth digging into your bottom lip to keep from crying out and your back bowing, forehead nearly bumping into Aaronâs shoulder as he keeps your thighs propped open as his thumb grazes your clit. Your ears burn, breath stuck in your chest as his words rattle inside your brain.
âMaybe someone else will walk in and see how pretty you take my fingers.â
When you make your way back to your desk, you resolutely ignore Emilyâs gaze. Youâre secretly glad that there wasnât a case today, not sure if you could deal with being stuck on the jet sitting across from her or sharing a hotel room. Youâre more than happy to avert your gaze and pretend like you were focusing on your paperwork for the rest of the day.
You and Emily were close, but certainly not that close. Sure, youâve told her and Penelope all the raunchy details of your sex life after a drink or two, but her stumbling upon you in a compromising position, in the office, was a whole other thing entirely. Â
Youâre grateful that things seem to have gone back to normal, the incident quietly brushed under a rug, when Emily gives you that bright smile and says good morning to you the following day. Aaron brushes his fingers against yours when the two of you make your way into the conference room, silently telling you I told you so and there was nothing to worry about.
Until one day, you get home from running errands on your one free Saturday to find Aaron standing in the middle of the bedroom and Emily sitting in that comfy armchair neatly tucked in the corner.
âOh,â you say, setting your bag down by the door. You donât hide your confusion well, glancing back and forth at them. Thereâs a respectable distance between them, both of their bodies angled towards you, and you know neither of them were those types of people, but you couldnât help it when your heart begins to thud just a tad bit faster. âEmily, I didnât know you were coming over.â
Emily casually leans back against the chair, the stretch of her jeans over her thighs and the low cut of her top briefly catching your eye before meeting her gaze. Sheâs smiling, all cat-like and languid. If you didnât know her so well, you wouldnât have noticed the slight nervous furrow of her brow. âItâs supposed to be a surprise.â
You frown, feeling spectacularly like you were missing out on some kind of inside joke. âSurprise for what?â
âFor you, sweetheart,â Aaron finally speaks before heâs stepping into your space with one long stride.
What happens next has to be the surprise because he does something that he very rarely does in front of people, much less the rest of the team.
He wraps an arm around your waist, hand ghosting over the small of your back, leaning in and capturing your lips in a kiss so hungry that you began to debate whether you imagined Emily there in the first place.
But sheâs still there at the corner of your eye, glowing softly underneath the golden hue of a lamp while Aaronâs soft lips move against yours, his hand drifting lower until his pinky finger is dipping underneath the waistband of your shorts and setting your skin ablaze.
âWhat do you mean for me?â You manage when you separate, your hands tensing around Aaronâs thick forearms. Youâre not sure whether you want to push him away or pull him in closer.
âAaron told me you liked it when I walked in on you the other day.â
Youâre stunned into silence, realization dawning on you as your cheeks catch on fire and your chest tightens as if all the air had been zapped out of the room. Sharp embarrassment curls up your spine at the fact that not only was she bringing up what you were secretly hoping carry to your grave, but Aaron had noticed and actually brought it up to her.
âUhm,â you say intelligently, feeling stuck to the carpet.
You were mortified to realize that, not only were you seconds away from sprinting out the house, but you were also aroused. You can feel the heavy weight of Emilyâs eyes on you; can sense the way warmth snakes rapidly down your spine until it settles wet and sticky in the thin fabric of your panties.
Aaron must mistake your shock as hesitation because he takes a half-step back, hands placed politely on your hips and thumbs pressed into you, grounding you. He presses his mouth against your temple, breath warm against your face. âWe donât have to do anything you donât want to.â
Aaron has always been a generous partner; always making sure to take care of you first, that youâre comfortable, and clearly willing to try anything at least once, so you know heâs right. He wouldnât care if you said no and would most likely just politely walk Emily to the front door and pretend like nothing happened. As if he didnât just proposition your coworker and friend to watch the two of you have sex.
You love Emily and youâd be lying if you didnât find her attractive. Her big, brown eyes and the hypnotizing sway of her hips. The way sheâs currently sitting in your bedroom with her legs spread and cherry red lips, trying to appear nonchalant. You want to say no, that you donât want to ruin what you have with either of them, that everyone at the office will find out eventually, butâŠ
âOkay,â you breath, your pulse quickening when Aaronâs hands tighten around your waist. âI want to.â
âAs long as youâre sure,â Aaron says, voice careful despite the enticing press of his cock through his sweatpants. He seems to enjoy the idea almost as much as you do.
Emily shifts in her seat, sitting up a bit straighter, and blinds you with a devastatingly soft smile. âWe can go as slow as you want.â
You nod, your hands nearly shaking as you run them up Aaronâs arms, his biceps, until youâre looping them around his shoulders and your fingers are tangling in the slight damp hairs at the nape of his neck. Thereâs a matching sheen of sweat gathering at your hairline, the temperature in the room suddenly notched an additional ten degrees, and youâre already itching to take your clothes off.
âI got you,â he mutters, lips brushing against the shell of your ear as the low timbre of his voice soothes your anxious heart.
You nearly jump when the telltale creak of that armchair reaches your ears and you let out a surprised noise when he begins to press kisses to the corner of your mouth, your jawline, and then to the soft, exposed skin of your neck.
Your eyes flutter, head tipping back to allow him easier access to nip at the hollow of your throat. His large hands freely roam over you now, as if a thread had finally snapped, leaving licks of heat along your spine as he grabs at your ass to pull you closer into him.
You gasp when the heat of his cock presses into your hipbone, instinctively looking over Aaronâs shoulder and catching Emilyâs gaze.
Her dark eyes are intense as they roam over your body, licking her lips as she watches the two of you. Her chest begins to heave, breathing growing harsher, and you swear you could see the stiff peaks of her nipples through her shirt.
You have to squeeze your eyes shut at the absolute throbbing of your clit, the slick fabric of your panties now rubbing uncomfortably against your thighs. The incident in the office pales in comparison to now, knowing that Emily actually wants to watch you, craves it, was getting turned on by it.
âThere she is,â he coos, fingers toying with the hem of your shirt. âAre you going to let Emily see just how good you are?â
You swallow nervously, opening your eyes and noticing the way sheâs leaned back further in the chair, something smug tugging at her mouth. One of her hands was placed precariously on her inner thigh, the other splayed out on the armrest. Making herself comfortable, as if she was watching a show.
You nod, blood rushing through your ears as your shirt comes off, your shorts immediately crumpling to the floor with a quick flick of Aaronâs finger, leaving you in nothing but a very plain and mismatching pair of bra and panties.
You donât have to reflect on your poor decision any further as Aaronâs hand swiftly comes around you to unclasp your bra. Thereâs a soft thud as it hits the carpet, then a sharp inhale across the room and a familiar low groan as your breasts are freed. Your nipples have probably been hard as soon as you noticed Emily in the intimate space of your bedroom, and you shift nervously in place as you could feel the weight of two pairs of eyes on your chest and soft skin of your thighs.
An intoxicating haze falls over your thoughts, slowing them to thick honey, as you realize that you were nearly completely bare in front of the two most attractive people youâve ever met. They were still clothed, staring at you as if they were mere seconds away from devouring you whole.
The fog grows heavier, your knees nearly buckling and your breath punching out of your lungs when Aaron steps back and says, âIsnât she pretty?â
You shiver, goosebumps rising on your arms and heat humming underneath your skin, when Emily speaks, voice low and warm. âYeah, sheâs gorgeous.â
The praise hits you hard, settling warm in the pit of your stomach, and you think youâre going to go insane if you didnât have someoneâs hands on you at this very second.
âOn the bed,â Aaron orders after taking in your wide eyes and your tense shoulders. âWe have to give our audience a good view, donât we?â
The way theyâre both talking to you, about you, has that ache between your thighs growing stronger, your teeth digging into your bottom lip harder. It was heady, the surge of compliance pulsing through you, as you silently perch on the edge of the bed.
Now you were directly facing Emily. You feel a flush rising up to your face as she stares at the swell of your breasts and the softness of your belly. Shyness prickles at your neck as you tuck your knees together, the barely there friction of your thighs doing nothing to quell the arousal sticking to your panties.
Aaron steps in front of you, and youâre about to whine about him blocking your view of her, before heâs prying your knees apart with those broad hands of his and kneeling between them.
You blink at him, stunned, as you spread your legs further to accommodate the broad shape of his shoulders. The sight of Aaron on his knees for you never gets oldâthe way the soft light hits his eyes just right, the dusting of pink on his cheeks just barely visible, and how he just seems sweeter, gentler, when heâs where heâs claimed is his favorite place to be.
But you realize he isnât that nice tonight as he glances up at you, pressing a chaste kiss on the inside of your knee. He kneads at your thighs before pushing them up until your feet were propped up on the edge of the mattress, effectively spreading you open for anyone to see.
A choked noise escapes from your throat when he puffs his warm breath over your clothed pussy. The fabric sticks to your folds, your wetness nearly seeping through and leaving a visible stain, and your hands fists the soft cotton of your sheets as you hear a sharp intake of breath from the other side of the room.
âAre you going to show Emily how pretty your pussy is?â
âFuck,â you whisper shakily, your thighs beginning to tremble from anticipation.
He studies you as his fingers hook into the waistband of your panties, eyes earnest despite the widening of his pupils. Checking in with youâthere was no going back now.
You swallow and wordlessly raise your hips up.
Aaron tries to suppress a proud smile, leaning in to kiss the underside of your thigh as he slides the flimsy piece of fabric over your legs. He tosses them aside, somewhat in the vicinity of the rest of your abandoned clothes, and then youâre completely on display for the two of them.
Aaron sits back on his haunches, large hands wrapped around your thighs and thumbs pressing dangerously close to where youâre aching for him, when thereâs a shuffle of clothes on the other side of the room.
Your eyes flit to Emily, your throat going dry when you notice that sheâs slid her pants off, the black lace of her panties visible as she spreads her thighs apart. Her nimble fingers toy with the waistband, her shirt riding up until itâs bunched around underneath her breasts, and her head lolling onto her shoulder. Thereâs a pretty flush rising up her chest and neck, red lips parted around a gasp and eyes half-lidded as she stares at the wetness clinging to your folds.
You wonder if sheâs just as soaked as you were, whether there would be an evident wet spot if you were able to dip your head between her thighs and look close enough. If she would taste as sweet as she smelled, the way traces of her perfume would linger when she would stalk past you.
Your attention is brought back to the man on his knees for you as he nips at you, his warm breath fanning over your core and causing you to squirm. You wonder if he was going to tease you, wringing you out until you were begging for more.
âEyes on her,â Aaron rasps before heâs leaning in and licking a broad stripe up the seam of your pussy.
You gasp, heat shooting up your spine as your thighs immediately tense and your back bows, your arms threatening to give out until you were lying flat on your back. But Aaronâs command echoes in your brain, loud and clear even through the fog that threatens to cause your eyes to slip closed.
He hums at the first taste of you, shuffling closer to get more of you. Itâs almost cruel the way he languidly licks between your folds, gathering your wetness and spreading it around with a flick of his tongue. Heâs adamantly avoiding your aching clit, but the way heâs devouring you, as if he had all the time in the world, has you whimpering.
Emilyâs studying you, nearly smirking at the way your jaw drops when you notice how her fingers have begun rubbing slow circles over her clothed clit. You could barely see the way her finger come back slick, evidence of her arousal, and you whine when she tugs the crotch of her panties aside to expose her swollen pussy.
You know Aaron glances up at you, that heâs satisfied that youâre obeying him, because heâs laving hot, open-mouthed kisses up your folds until heâs wrapping his plush lips around your clit and sucking hard.
You moan brokenly, your hips canting up, as if you could get more of his perfect fucking mouth on you. The slick sounds of Aaron buried in your pussy fills the room, and if you strained your ears hard enough, you swore you could hear how wet Emily was.
Her eyes roam hungrily over you now, her fingers quickening over her puffy clit, and that coil in the pit of your stomach grows tighter when she dips into her own cunt to spread her slick around. Sheâs soaked, nearly dripping onto the upholstery of your armchair, and the sight of her has your mouth watering.
âAaronâŠâ you pant, your thighs straining against the tight grip he has on you, keeping you spread and on display for your guest. âIâm gonna comeâŠâ
âYeah, sweetheart?â The low pitch of his voice as he mouths against you nearly melts down your spine. He pulls away, causing you to let out a needy whine, before two of his thick fingers begin to circle your entrance.
Your voice breaks on a moan as he slowly slides them inside of you, stretching you open so deliciously your hips tilt up so you could take more of him. You could nearly taste how close you were, the tension in your belly threatening to snap. âPleaseââ
âYouâre going to come for us.â His thrusts grow faster, hitting deep inside of your cunt as his other hand keeps you in place, not letting you squirm away even if you wanted to. âAnd then youâre going to show Emily how well you take my cock.â
You sob his name as the pressure in your stomach finally snaps, your pussy clenching desperately around the thickness of his fingers. Aaron works you through it, drawing it out as he suckles on your pulsing clit and lets you grind against his face, his nose digging into you and causing sparks to run up your spine.
Youâre breathless, panting as you use all of your strength to keep yourself on your elbows, just to get that exhilarating thrill that buzzes through you as you watch Emily work herself harder. Sheâs staring hard at the way you thrust into Aaronâs open and eager mouth, content with drawing out her own orgasm a little bit longer as her fingers slow down.
You shudder as Aaron leaves one last kiss on your pussy before heâs standing up with a groan, no doubt his knees aching. He clearly pays it no mind, the lower half of his face smeared in your wetness, as he surges forward to kiss you.
The taste of yourself on his tongue has you sighing into his open mouth, and when he cradles your chin, thereâs the wet drag of his fingers against your cheek that has you preening.
âReady, honey?â He mutters against your lips, and only then were you aware that he had already shoved his sweatpants down until they were bunched around his thighs, just enough to let his thick cock out. The swollen head was already dripping in precum, drawing a pearly string from his shirt where it bobs up against his stomach.
You nod, not trusting yourself to give a coherent answer, and then youâre biting back a squeal as Aaron tugs your hips down until your hips were hanging over the edge of the mattress.
He pushes your thighs back and crowds into you, kneeling onto the mattress so your knees were hitched around his waist. He fists the base of his cock, notching it at your entrance, and you know Emily is getting an eyeful of your spread cunt, but all your focus zeroes in on your boyfriend.
For a brief second, itâs as if it was just the two of you. His hair is tousled and falling into his eyes, thereâs still the evidence of your orgasm on his chin, and youâve never felt so safe in your entire life.
âI got you,â he repeats softly, just for you, and it causes your heart to swell almost painfully as you give him a watery smile.
You throw your arms around his shoulders as he begins to push inside of you. You let out a long, drawn-out moan as your cunt stretches around him, the slight burn unrelenting despite the thickness of his fingers.
You cling to him as he pushes his cock deeper, until heâs buried to the hilt inside of you, and Aaronâs chest shakes with a groan as your walls clench and flutter around him. âChrist, honey, youâre always so fucking tight.â
Heâs still for just a moment, just enough to let you feel like you were getting used to the sheer size of him, before he begins to move. He starts slowârocking his hips into you, dragging his cock out at such an agonizing pace you felt sparks of heat along your flushed skin.
âEyes on her,â he pants in your ear, and you will your eyes over his shoulder, to the corner of the room where Emilyâs nearly completely slouched down in the chair and has two fingers knuckle deep in her pussy.
You moan freely at the sight, eyes rolling back into your skull as Aaron begins to fuck you faster, hips snapping against yours, and she does the same.
âFuck,â Emily mutters, spreading her legs impossibly further. Her pretty pussy swallows her fingers up completely, the shine of her slick visible even from here. Sheâs staring, almost unblinkingly, at the way your pussy stretches around Aaronâs thick cock, the lewd slapping of his balls against your ass with each deep thrust.
Aaron always fucks you so hard you usually canât speak, canât even think about anything besides the way heâs splitting you open and the white-hot pleasure that buzzes through your veins. That sensation fills you now, making you feel spectacularly drunk, and the added element of Emilyâs undivided attention has you nearly overstimulated, worn thin, like you were burning alive under the intensity of her stare.
âCan you hear how wet you are for us?â Aaron seems to be just as dazed, high on the unrelenting clenching of your needy pussy, as you could barely discern the shake in the low pitch of his voice. âYou like being good for us, sweetheart?â
You nod slowly, jaw slack as he continues to fuck weak noises out of you. He has to grab your limp thighs, shoving them towards your chest, and the new angle has his cock driving into you so deep you swore you could feel him in your stomach.
You were already embarrassingly close, the repeated drag of his cock coaxing breathless, pleading sounds from your mouth. You were absolutely soaking his cock, could feel your slick smearing your inner thighs and sliding down the length of him until it dripped down his balls.
âLook at me.â His hand comes up to grip the base of your skull and it hardly requires any effort for you to immediately tear your eyes away from the sight of Emilyâs hips thrusting up into her own fingers, signaling to you that she was equally as close, to Aaron.
His eyes are dark, hungry, and the hold he has on your screams of his secret possessive nature. Heâs breathing hard, broad chest heaving, and his hard thrusts have you teetering on the edge. He must feel you clenching erratically around him, must know the way your breaths skip over each other before your words get caught in your throat. âAsk Emily.â
You must effectively convey your confusion because thereâs a smirk tugging at his lips the next second, painting him to look like a devil in disguise. âAsk Emily,â he says, âIf you can come.â
And then he speeds up, pounding you so relentlessly your body jolts in his arms with the force of it. You can feel your pussy gripping him like a vice, thoughts dissolving into nothing but sparks of heat, as you begin to babble almost intelligently.
âFuckâplease, Emily, please can I come?â You drop your head onto your shoulder, eyes glassy and wet, to direct your gaze to across the room.
She looks just as wreckedâeyes wide, lips parted, two fingers fucking steadily inside of her and two others rubbing erratically over her swollen clit. Itâs as if she doesnât know where to look, eyes flitting around to where you and Aaron meet, the repeated bouncing of your tits, or the pure bliss etched across your face. âYeah, yeah, baby, you can come.â
Your mouth drops open in a silent scream as waves of pleasure crash over you. Aaron has to hold onto you tighter as your body convulses, your needy cunt spasming around him. You think your vision whites out, barely able to discern the shuddering breath from across the room, but then Aaronâs burying his face in your shoulder and groans lowly. He ruts into you a handful of times before heâs spilling inside of you, grinding his hips against yours as if making sure you took every last drop.
You whimper softly, the twitching of his cock bordering on both overstimulating and euphoric as he fills you up, claiming you in front of your best friend. Itâs possessive, nearly animalistic in nature as aftershocks run through you and your legs begin to tremble where theyâre still hiked up around Aaronâs hips.
Thereâs a brief pause, the silence in your bedroom broken only by the three of you catching your breath. You knew that feeling of anxiety was just around the corner, dread at the thought of having to face Emily tomorrow morning in the elevator. Youâd have to sit across from her at the round table, knock knees on the jet, and not think about how she was knuckle deep inside her own cunt when she gave you permission to come.
But you donât think about that nowâcanât think about that now, especially when Aaron pulls out of you with a grunt, stepping back enough for Emily to get a good look at the way his come oozes out of your spent cunt, twitching as it drips onto your grey bedsheets.
You finally flop back onto the bed with a groan, your legs giving out and dangling over the edge like a ragdoll. Immediately, there are two pairs of eyes hovering inches above you and Aaronâs warm, slightly sticky, hand cradling your cheek, his own silent form of praise.
And then thereâs another hand. Softer, more slender, brushing a stray lock of hair away from your forehead. When you blearily blink your eyes open and meet Emilyâs, thereâs a strange surge of emotion in your chest that you were too afraid to name.
âYou still with us?â She asks, tone slightly playful. When you glance down at the rest of her body, she has her jeans haphazardly pulled up around her hips, the zipper and button still undone. Thereâs a sheen of sweat over her chest, on her upper lip, and you almost donât want her to go.
You swallow dryly, nodding. You felt frazzled, not only from the onslaught of ecstasy and attention, but from something more intense.
Emily smiles at you thenâgentle and warm. She leans in to press her warm lips to your sweaty temple and you catch a whiff of her sugary sweet perfume.
The hum of the air conditioner and the tender strokes of Aaron wiping you down with a warm towel nearly lulls you to sleep, nearly melting into the mattress as that dull type of exhaustion only a strong orgasm could bring weighs down your limbs.
The distant sound of the front door clicking shut wakes you. The lights in the bedroom were shut off, leaving only the soft glow of the bathroom light to seep through the crack in the door. Youâre tucked underneath your duvet, unbearably tight the way Aaron always does, and youâre about to unfurl yourself to sit up and stretch out your lower back when heâs tiptoeing back into your bedroom.
âHey,â he whispers, not wanting to shatter the little cozy haven heâs built for you, and quickly moves to slip himself underneath the duvet with you before you can silently stretch your arms out.
You immediately tuck yourself into him, chin digging into his firm chest, and silently thank whatever god was out there that you had a furnace for a boyfriend as you tuck your chilly toes underneath his calves.
You know he can tell you had something to say, the words itching to spill out of you. He taps his fingers against your shoulder blade, a silent reminder that he was there, and you take a deep breath before mustering out what youâve been wanting to say as soon as you came into your bedroom earlier today.
Summary: When Spider-Man offers a surprisingly unconventional alternative to an ice pack, you find yourself agreeing, only to discover there's more to his touch than just superhuman strength.
CONTENT WARNINGS: 18+ MDNI!! This fic is intended for adult audiences. Mentions of bruising. Dry humping, oral (f!receiving), multiple orgasms (f!receiving), mask kink, just the tip, bondage (with his webs), squirting, unprotected P in V (haha don't do that irl pls!!), creampie (still hate that word help), anddd I think that's it but of course please feel free to let me know if I missed anything :)
Pairing: TASM!Peter Parker x fem!reader/afab!reader (but honestly, you can imagine any Peter)
A/N: First kinktober fic YAYYYYY (after being almost two weeks late I'm so sorry LMAOOO)!!! I've missed you guys and I've missed writing so much, but my brain has been actual soup sooo again I do apologize for the hiatus but I'm back now :) I hope you guys enjoy this as much as I enjoyed writing it, and of course if you DO enjoy it please feel free to give it a like, reblog, drop a comment, whatever your little heart desires because I'm not picky and I love to see what you guys think <3 Next Kinktober fic will be posted either tomorrow night or the next okay I love you all so much MWAHHH <3
Becoming Spider-Manâs favorite person was⊠an adjustment.Â
It only took one wrong turn down a sketchy alley after a girlâs night filled with too many drinks for things to go sideways. That is, until the masked vigilante swooped and beat the absolute shit out of a group of wannabe muggers before they could even lay a finger on you. Once the last guy was webbed to a dumpster, Spider-Man took a look at your flushed cheeks and dazed eyes and decided without hesitation that it was now his personal mission to keep you safe.Â
He walked you home, steadying you as you clung to his arm (not that he was complainingâphysical affection was in short supply for him), and even tucked you into bed with the patience of a saint after you somehow managed to trip three times on your way into the bedroom.Â
After that night, sightings of the hero became more and more frequent until he eventually dropped the pretense of subtlety and started showing up whenever he felt like it.Â
At first, heâd walk you homeâwaiting outside after your shifts like it was the most normal thing in the world, insisting that heâd feel better knowing you made it home safe, or popping up after a girlâs night out and teasing that he couldnât risk another alleyway incident. Then he started showing up on your fire-escape after patrols, secretly preening under his mask at the attention youâd give him while patching up his cuts and icing his bruises. Finally, nights of playing the role of Spider-Manâs personal nurse melted into nights of sharing secrets with the masked man until you couldnât keep your eyes open anymore.Â
Over the next few months, the two of you learned almost everything about each otherâeverything except for his name and what he looked like under the suit, that is. But honestly, that only made it easier for both of you to be so open with each other. There wasnât another soul alive that knows you as well as he does, and vice versa.Â
Which is exactly what led to your current argument.Â
âSeriously, Iâm fine!â A huff leaves your lips as you cross your arms and lean back against the armrest, glaring at the exasperated man throwing his hands up at the other end of the couch.Â
You were not fine and he knew that.
âFine? You call a massive bruise across your hip and thigh fine?â He scoffs from behind his mask. âOne that you wouldnât even have had you just waited for me to get here and help you!âÂ
Okay⊠maybe trying to put together your new bookshelf on your own was a bad idea. So what? You were bored and he was patrolling later than usual. How were you supposed to know turning around for half a second to grab the screwdriver would mean the entire shelf tilting forward and falling onto your leg?Â
âItâs not my fault that you decided to show up late,â you counter, rolling your eyes. âBesides, itâs not even that big.âÂ
That was a lie.Â
It was actually one of the biggest bruises youâd ever gotten and it hurt like a bitch. But did he need to know that? No. Because then heâd never shut up about being right.Â
âOh really?âÂ
A yelp flies out of your mouth as his gloved hand grips your ankle, yanking you towards him until your thighs sprawl across his.Â
âNot that big, huh?â He quips. Before you can respond he leans forward, placing his forearm onto your exposed skin and lining it up beside the bruise.Â
Youâd changed into shorts and a tank top earlier, needing easy access to the bruise so you could ice it. However, youâd barely had the chance to shut the freezer before Spider-Manâthe silent bastard that he wasâhad waltzed in unannounced (you knew giving him unlimited window access would bite you in the ass one day) and startled you so badly the makeshift ice pack youâd made flew into the air, smacked the ceiling, then splattered onto the floor. Thatâs how you ended up on the couch being lectured by a grown man in a spandex suit. A skin tight, incredibly distracting spandex suit. Â
His fingertips graze your waist, barely slipping underneath the fabric of your top, reminding you of the compromising position you now found yourself in.Â
âY-yeah.â You swallow, eyes locked on the hand now pressing lightly into the edges of the purpling skin. âNot that big. Maybe you need to get your eyes checked, bug boy.âÂ
A chuckle rumbles low in his throat, his head cocking to the side as his thumb gently swipes across the tender mark, a hiss falling from your lips at the pressure. He straightens, humming before responding. âMaybe you need to get your eyes checked, sweetheart. Because that bruise is almost as big as your mouth.âÂ
His cackle fills the room as you swat at him, grumbling under your breath about him being the one with the big mouth before you shift, pulling your legs back with a âhmphâ and crossing your arms. The movement causes a twinge of pain to shoot through you, and Spider-Man immediately clocks the wince you tried (and clearly failed) to conceal. His entire demeanor softens, and with an exaggerated sigh he stands, making his way into your kitchen.Â
âWaitâwhat are you doing?âÂ
âMaking an ice pack so I can ice your gigantic bruise. Duh.âÂ
Your heart flutters even as your eyes roll. Smart-ass.Â
âYâknow⊠I kind of like the idea of you being my nurse for once,â you muse, turning to watch him over the edge of the couch.Â
His back muscles flex as he shuts the freezer door, a pang of heat shooting through you at the sight. Shaking his head with a chuckle, he glances back briefly.Â
âKeep thinking youâre Miss Independent and Iâll be doing it every week.âÂ
âIf I could aim, this pillow would be smacking the back of your stupid head right now. Just thought Iâd let you know.âÂ
He laughs loudly at that, sealing the Ziploc bag heâd packed with ice before wrapping it in a small towel. He makes his way over to you, sitting back down and pulling your legs across his lap. But he doesnât place the ice pack on you yet, instead holding it just out of reach.Â
âSay I donât have a stupid head and Iâll ice your boo boo.âÂ
An indignant scoff leaves your lips as you arch a brow. âMy boo boo? Seriously? Am I five now?âÂ
Spider-Man doubles down, putting on an exaggerated baby voice. âDoes the princess not want me to make her boo boo feel better?âÂ
You laugh despite yourself, biting your lower lip to stifle it as you shake your head. âShut the fuck up,â you giggle, shoving his arm playfully. âFine. You donât have a stupid head. Fix my boo boo.âÂ
âThrow a please in there.âÂ
With an annoyed groan, you toss your head back against the arm rest before sitting up and pointing an accusatory finger at him.Â
âYouâre insufferable.âÂ
âIâll help you sound it out. Puhhh leaseee. Câmon, put it together nowââÂ
Both of you are cackling now, unable to hold it in any longer. Your shoulders shake as you wipe a tear from your eye, grinning like a madman.Â
âPuhhh leaseee ice my boo boo, oh mighty Spider-Nurse.âÂ
Finally, he relents. His hand rubs up and down your thigh once in a soothing gesture, pushing the fabric of your shorts higher before placing the ice pack over the tender mark. A small moan falls from your lips at the feeling of the ice pressing into your bruise, immediately providing relief for the throbbing youâd been trying to ignore since he got there. Â
Spider-Man stiffens at the sound, the ice in the bag crunching together as his hand lightly clenches it.
Your eyes dart down at the sound, your lower lip tucked behind your teeth as the cold slowly eases the soreness. The sight of his hand practically engulfing the makeshift ice pack has you squirming, pressing your legs harder into his lap unintentionally. Since when were his hands so big?
He clears his throat, moving the ice pack higher up your thigh.
"Does that feel good?"
You're so distracted by the sight of his hand that you don't hear him. It isn't until his fingers grip your chin, lightly tilting your head up to face him, that you realize he'd even spoken. Heat floods your cheeks, a nervous laugh bubbling out as his thumb strokes your jaw.
"I uh⊠I'm sorry, what did you say?"
You can practically feel his eyes boring into yours through the mask's expressionless lenses. The feeling of his gloved hand cupping the side of your neck has your pulse racingâsomething you're sure he's more than aware of with his advanced senses. The ice pack lays forgotten on your thigh, numbing the sore flesh underneath.
"I asked if it feels good, sweetheart."
Something about his voice has your breath hitching. Gone was the teasing lilt from earlier, replaced with something low and laced with hunger.
You nod, leaning instinctively into his touch. "Mhm."
His restraint was already hanging on by a thread at the sight of you in those pajamas, but now? With you melting into his touch like some spoiled house cat? Yeah, he's done for.
Before he can stop himself, he's gravitating forward until his forehead presses against yours.
"Can I make you feel even better?"
The question hangs in the air between you, thick and heavy, like a held breath. His thumb is tracing slow, rhythmic circles just beneath your ear, making your skin prickle. Every inch of you is buzzing, alert and aching in the best possible way.
"Please do."
That's all it takes for the last shred of his restraint to crumble.
He pulls away just enough to lift his mask below his nose, going to remove it completely before your hand shoots up to grab his wrist.
"Wait! Can youâuh, can you keep it on for now?"
Embarrassment crashes into you like a wave the second the words leave your mouth. It wasn't that you didn't want to see him. God, no. You'd been dying to finally see New York's very own hero without the mask. But something about the idea of it staying on, at least for a little while longer, had heat pooling in your lower stomach.
His lips quirk into an amused grin, his brows twitching beneath the mask with the faintest flicker of surprise at the request.
"What? You think I'm ugly under here or something?" He teases, chuckling softly.
Your annoyed groan catches in your throat as his nose brushes against yours, taunting you with what was to come. "The ugliest," you tease back before your voice lowers. "I just⊠I don't want it to feel different. Not yet."
"And you think the mask is hot."
Of course he'd pick up on that. You should've never indulged him when he pestered you about the last book you were reading (one that just happened to include a masked character).
"âŠAnd if I do?"
He studies you for a beat before leaning in again, his voice a breath against your lips.
"Whatever you want, princess."
Then he kisses you.
It starts slowâexploratory, reverent as you familiarize yourselves with the taste and feel of each other. His lips are warm and slightly chapped, moving over yours with a dizzying mix of hunger and tenderness like he's trying to savor your first kiss and hold himself back at the same time. His hand glides from your neck to the small of your back, hefting you into his lap with an ease that leaves you whimpering against his lips.
The forgotten icepack tumbles to the floor with a soft thud, though neither of you flinch. Right now, all that exists is you, him, and the molten tension threatening to consume you both.
You shift, settling into his lap with your thighs bracketing his hips while your fingers curl into the fabric of his suit. The feeling of him pressing against youâhard and deliciously thick through the thin cotton of your shortsâhas you grinding down, chasing friction to ease the throbbing between your legs.
His resulting groan has you sighing into his mouth, his tongue brushing your bottom lip in a silent plea for more. You grant his wish, the kiss turning from tentative to ravenous in a heartbeat. He grips your waist with one hand, letting the other drift across your bare (uninjured) thigh towards the hem of your shorts. The movement is careful, deliberate, like he's still giving you time to change your mind.
As if that would ever happen.
Your hips rock down into his, needing to be closer to him. Needing to feel him. More of him. All of him.
âSpideyââÂ
âPeter,â he exhales against your lips, pressing another bruising kiss to your mouth before resting his forehead against yours. âCall me Peter.â
âPeterâŠâ
The name settles on your tongue, and when you repeat it he groans before crushing his mouth back to yours.Â
"'M notâ" He breaks the kiss once more, his hands slipping beneath your thighs the only warning you get before he rises from the couch. "I'm not doing this on your couch. Not for the first time."
The promise of a next timeâeven though you already knew it was inevitableâsends a thrill rushing through you. A breathless smile plays on your lips as your legs tighten around his waist, your bodies pressed close as he carries you through the dim hallway. His hands are firm beneath you, the tension almost palpable as your bedroom door comes into view. The warm glow of your lamp spills out from under the door, casting a golden trail across the floor.
He keeps you hoisted up with one hand while his other reaches for the doorknob, his effortless show of strength making you duck your head into the crook of his neck. The door pops open with a soft click, the sound punctuating the surreal silence. This was real. After months of longing and fantasizing, it was actually happening.
Once inside, he kicks the door shut with his heel before pressing his mouth to yours in a gentle peck. His forehead rests against yours again, grounding you both as you breathe each other in.
"Still want this?" He murmurs, his thumb stroking the skin of your thigh while he waits for an answer.
Your nod is immediate, the motion small but certain. "Of course I do. Do you?"
The hint of insecurity creeping into your tone shatters him. How could he not want you? You were everything he didn't know he was still allowed to hope for after being used as the Universe's personal punching bag for the past several years. He wanted this and so, so much more with you. He has from the moment he met you.
"I've never wanted anything more than I want you, sweetheart."
Gently, he lowers you onto the bed, his mouth finding yours as soon as your head hits the pillows. His fingers skim your sides, like he's comitting the shape of you to memory. Like he can't go more than a few seconds without touching you in some way.
Mindful of your bruise, he hikes your legs further up around his waist before he's pressing his hips down, letting out the most delicious grunt into your mouth at the friction the movement provides. The two of you stay exactly like that for a few minutesâtrapped in a searing push and pull of grinding hips and open-mouthed kisses as your hands roam the span of his suit-clad back.
Hands tug at your shorts, managing to push them down despite his weight on top of you. He huffs out a laugh when you wriggle around, breaking the kiss long enough to help you slip out of them before tossing them carelessly to the floor. Without the barrier of your shorts in the way (not that they were blocking much anyways), the friction of his aching length grinding against you feels even more intense, the rough fabric of his suit rubbing against your clit in just the right way.
Finally, after your airy sighs have escalated to helpless moans against his lips, he pulls away to drop his head into the crook of your neck with a soft groan of your name.
âYou trust me?âÂ
His breath is warm where it pants over your ear, his voice a low rumble.Â
âYou know I do.âÂ
Your reply came out breathier than youâd intended, causing him to chuckle as his lips trailed down your neck before he leaned back.Â
âThen put your arms up for me, baby.âÂ
Your brows furrow as you follow his instructions, letting him guide your hands exactly where he wanted themâwrists crossed and in line with one of the posts of your headboard. A sharp thwip cuts through the air before you can even think to ask what heâs doing.Â
âPeter!âÂ
Webbing binds your hands to the post, leaving you lying exposed for him in nothing but a thin tank top and the lacy panties youâd picked out in the delusional hopes that heâd be seeing them (and somehow, that delusion paid off). Something about it felt exhilarating. You were quite literally the spiderâs preyâtied up and held at his mercy until he decides itâs time to devour you.Â
âShh,â Peter murmurs, smirking as he glides a gloved hand up the side of your thigh, causing goosebumps to form in its wake. âIâm just⊠providing a little pain relief. Thatâs all. Remember?âÂ
He says it so casually, as though heâs simply running you a candlelit bubble bath or popping a cap of lotion open to massage you instead of planning to make you cum so hard you forget your own name. That coy nonchalance sends a shiver up your spine and heat curling in your lower belly, anticipation gnawing at you as you wait on his next move.Â
Your eyes linger on the outline of his faceâthe part of it that you can see, anywaysâmirroring his gaze as he does the same. His jawline is defined, dusted with a hint of stubble. His upper lip is thin, the lower fuller, both kissed raw and glistening with traces of your lip gloss. And as much as you craved to see the rest of him, you had to admit it was exhilarating only being able to see a fraction of the man behind the mask.Â
âGod, youâre so beautiful, sweetheart,â Peter breathes, finally breaking the heavy silence as he shuffles forward to wrap your legs around his waist once more.Â
Heat spreads across your cheeks as you try to turn your face into your arm, your teeth digging into your bottom lip to fight off a nervous grin. His fingers curl around your chin, gently coaxing you to face him again. The soft sound of a âtskâ escapes his lips before he tilts his head.Â
âWhyâre you hiding from me, pretty girl? Huh?â His thumb drags over your lip, tugging it free before tapping it once. "Let me see you."
A shiver runs through you at that as you nod, your hips arching towards his whenever his mouth begins tracing up and down your throat. Kisses trail down your body until his chin is resting on your hip, the glint in his lenses almost taunting you as he keeps his gaze locked on your face. His stubble is prickly against your skin, heightening your already sensitive nerves.
"Why'd you stop?"
It's petulant and needy, but you can't find it in yourself to care. You wanted him to touch you. To taste you. To make you forget all about the bruise that led to this very moment.
Peter chuckles, tilting his head to nip gently at your hip. "Such a spoiled thing already," he murmurs before dragging his lips across your skin, lingering just below your belly button. "Do you want the mask on or off, sweetheart?"
That was a good question.
On one hand, it felt exhilarating watching him look up at you with the mask on, like you were some dirty little secret the vigilante kept tucked away from the world. But on the other, you really wanted to look into his eyes while he simultaneously took you apart and put you back together again.
The desire to see the man between your thighs won, your curiosity getting the best of you.
"Off, please."
You felt his wolfish grin against your skin before he pulled back just enough to tug the mask completely off, tossing it to the ground with a muted thump.
The man before you is⊠impossibly handsome.
Peter has the kind of beauty that leaves you momentarily stunned, your jaw dropping before you can catch yourself. His cheekbones are sharp, his dark hair tousled with an effortless charm that's somehow sexy and disarmingly endearing all at once. And then there are his eyesâa deep, rich amber, layered as though he's carrying a weight he never talks about but never quite puts down either.
You manage to find your voice, though it comes out quieter than you expect. "You are⊠ridiculously attractive." It's not poetic by any means, and you know he deserves a better compliment, but the sight of him paired with the feeling of his breath fanning across your core has your brain scrambled.
His gaze flickers with something unreadableâdisbelief, maybe? There's hesitance in his posture, like he's not used to being truly seen. Then his lips turn up into a small, almost bashful smile.
"You think so, pretty girl?"
Your heart skips at the nickname and the way it effortlessly rolls off his tongue. A smile tugs at your lips. "Duh. I thought it even before the mask came off, too." You giggle at the exaggerated eye-roll he gives you before continuing. "Honestly, it's kind of rude Spider⊠looking like that while being the funniest vigilante I know? You're lethal."
He laughs, dropping his forehead to rest against your thigh before glancing up at you through his lashes. "I'm the only vigilante you know, sweetheart."
"Doesn't matter," you scoff playfully, nudging his shoulder with your knee. "You've ruined all future vigilantes for me. You set a very high bar."
Peter hums, the sound vibrating faintly against your skin. "Good," he murmurs, peppering kisses across your pelvis. "Can't have someone else swooping in and saving my girl. I don't share."
Your pulse quickens at the subtle shift in his tone. His girl. You were his girl.
"Your girl, huh?"
"Yeah. My girl, my sweetheart⊠and, without question, the most stubborn pain in my ass," he smirks, pressing a kiss to your bruise as you squawk indignantly.
Your hips shift in his hold as his fingers trace up and down your waist, drawing his attention back to where you were aching for him.
"Now, if you don't mind, princess, I'm going to take care of you like I promised."
Peter's gaze drops as he speaks, and his eyes darken at the sight of the damp patch on your panties, tracing it with his index finger before tugging the fabric down. Once the lace has joined the growing pile of clothes, he presses another gentle kiss to your bruise with a whispered "poor baby" before easing your legs over his shoulders. His hands caress your waist for a moment, admiring the sight of you spread out for him.
"Take a picture, it'll last longer," you tease, trying to sound confident even though you're squirming underneath his gaze. Your breath hitches as he nips your inner thigh in retaliation.
"Why take a picture when I can have the real thing whenever I want, hm?"
A gasp spills from your lips as he leans forward, not giving you time to respond as he latches his mouth over you. His tongue laves up and down your folds, circling your clit before he groans, burying his face impossibly closer as he begins lapping at you like a man starved.
His nose bumps against your clit as he licks greedily into you, causing a desperate whimper to fall from your lips at the spark of pleasure it sends coursing through you. A groan rumbles low in his throat, his hands pressing you down into the bed to keep you still as he devours you. It's obsceneâyour noises blending with his to create an explicit symphony, reverberating off the walls as the coil in your stomach grows tighter and tighter with each feverish lick.
"Taste so fucking good, sweetheart," he rasps against you, his words muffled as he dives right back in, his tongue fucking into you as you cry out.
Your thighs clamp down around his head, letting out a shaky moan as he moves to suckle gently at your clit. You were embarrassingly close already, your thighs trembling as he worked you over relentlessly with his mouth.
"You can take it," Peter mumbles into your slick skin, dipping his tongue down into your entrance once more. "Cum on my face, baby. Pleaseâ"
His words push you over the edge, your climax ripping through you so hard no sound leaves your open mouth, your back arching off the bed and hands yanking uselessly at the webbing despite him holding you down to coax you through it. It was as though all of the air had been knocked from your lungs, but you didn't need to breathe if it meant Peter would keep touching you. Finally, a soft cry fills the air as your hips jerk against his face, your thighs trembling on his shoulders as he presses one last kiss to your clit.
Your chest heaves as Peter lowers your legs back down to the mattress, your face flushed as you gawk at him. His hands rub soothingly up and down your legs, pushing them open wide enough so that he can slot himself between them. His lips brush against your forehead, then your nose, then your cheeks, until they finally reach yours, hungry but gentle.
The taste of yourself on his tongue sends a shiver down your spine, your body twisting as you tug helplessly at the webs binding your wrists. You wanted to touch himâto thread your fingers through his hair, to trace the lines of the muscles that had been tempting you beneath his suit for months. But he wasn't done with you yet.
"Still good, sweetheart?"
The words vibrate against your lips before he pulls back, lifting his head to search your eyes. His hand comes up to cup your face, his thumb stroking your jawline. At your nod, his lips curve into a crooked, teasing grin.
"Use your words, baby."
An annoyed groan rumbles in your throat before his lips trail down your neck, effectively halting your complaining.
"I'm fine, Peter," you whine petulantly, arching into him as his body settles above yours. "Please justâtouch me, fuck me. Anything. I need you."
Something inside of him snaps at your pleading. He swallows, breath warm against the hollow of your neck, then nips softly beneath your ear before pulling away. He rises from the bed, and the sudden absence of his heat prickles along your skin. A soft pout tugs at your lips, the chill of the room settling around you like a quiet ache.
Your gaze fixes on him as he unzips his suit, eyes hungrily tracing each inch of skin that's revealed as the fabric slips lower and lower. Finally, it settles in a heap around his ankles that he kicks away. His brow arches as he notices your staring, a smirk making its way onto his face as he realizes exactly what you're staring at.
The tent in his boxers is⊠intimidating, to say the leastâlong and deliciously thick against navy cotton. You'd felt him earlier when he was grinding against you, but clearly you'd underestimated just how big he actually was without his suit compressing him.
"Jesus, Peter."
Your whisper has his cheeks reddening, his cock twitching in its confines as he kneels back onto the bed. He takes his place above you once more, his elbows digging into the mattress beside your ribs as he lowers himself until your chests are pressed together. A broken sigh leaves your lips as his hips rock against yours, the fabric dampening almost immediately with your arousal.
"You think you can take it?"
His question isn't laced with cockinessâonly quiet, genuine concern.
"Make me take it."
A guttural groan fills the air, a strained laugh making its way into the space between you as he grinds against you harder. "Yeah? Want me to make you take it, pretty girl?" he murmurs, gripping your waist before pressing a feverish kiss to your mouth. "I'll make you take it."
He shoves a hand between your bodies, attempting to push his boxers off without having to detach from you. Once they're off, he breaks away, panting softly as he rubs the head of his aching cock up and down your soaking folds. His eyes lock on the sight, pupils blown as he watches your arousal coat him.
A whine escapes your lips as he finally starts to push in, the burning stretch making your toes curl. He sinks in one, two, three inches and then⊠stops? Your hips buck impatiently, but his hands keep you pinned to the bed as he grins darkly above you.Â
"Peterâ"
He cuts off your protest, easing out of you before rocking forward again. "Shhh, sweetheart. Let me make you feel good, huh? You gonna let me take care of you?"
Your eyes flutter shut at the movement, your breath catching in your throat as he repeats it. His touch, his taste, his smell⊠all of it had your mind reeling. You couldn't thinkâonly feel. And God, it all felt so unbearably good.
"Fuck, Peterâ feels so good," you whimper, tipping your head back against the pillows as his lips found your neck, sucking small, possessive marks into your skin.
Peterâs teeth nip gently at your pulse point as he continues his movements, teasing you with tiny, barely there thrusts that pushed just past your entrance and a thumb circling your clit until tears brimmed in your eyes.Â
Breathy moans flow from your lips as your thighs begin to tremble uncontrollably, the pleasure coiling in your lower stomach so tight it felt like you were about to combust into a thousand tiny pieces. There was just enough of a stretch to make your toes curl while he continued his torture against your clit, sparks of pleasure zipping up your spine until you were crying out and arching into him.Â
Youâve had intense orgasms before, sure. But none of them had ever felt as intense as this.Â
White flashes behind your eyelids as you writhe beneath him, your hands desperately clawing at the webbing because you need something to hold onto. Sobs fill the room as your legs kick helplessly around his waist, pleasure wracking your entire frame in waves.Â
âHoly shit,â Peter breathes, working you through your climax with wide, reverent eyes and feather-light kisses against your collarbones.Â
When you finally feel your soul come back into your body, your eyes blink open, glancing down between the two of you in confusion. Why were you so wetâ
Oh.Â
Oh.Â
Heâd made you squirt. Spider-Man himself had made you squirt.Â
âI-Iâm so sorââÂ
Before you could finish stammering out an apology, Peter was sinking into you fully with one smooth thrust.Â
âDonât you everââ Peter panted, dropping his head into the crook of your neck with a whimper as he bottoms out. ââever apologize for that, sweetheart.âÂ
He rocks forward once, the two of you groaning in synchronicity. He repeats the movement, squeezing your hips so harshly you knew thereâd be fingerprint shaped bruises the next day, but you couldnât bring yourself to care. In fact, you secretly loved the idea that there would be physical proof of just how well Peter had fucked you. Â
âGod, your pussy feels incredible. You feel incredible. Did so good for me, baby.âÂ
His hips begin rutting into yours; hard, deep strokes that have your eyes squeezed shut and your mouth gaped open while he pants divinely against your temple. His hands are roaming your body, alternating between squeezing your hips and pulling you into his thrusts to groping at your breasts, pinching your nipples as his cock drives into your G-spot over and over again until you're seeing stars.
"So deep, Peterâ" you pant, crying out as he drills into you.
It's all so intense, and a frustrated whine rumbles low in your throat as you tug at your bindings for the umpteenth time.
"I wantâPeter, I wanna touch you. Please?"
He nods instantly, sitting back on his haunches and reaching up with one hand to rip the webbing from your wrists. The way it shreds as easily as paper from his unintentional show of strength has you moaning, your hands sliding into his dark strands and tugging his mouth to yours, desperate to be as close to him as physically possible.
His tongue swipes against yours in languid strokes, a dizzying contradiction to the blur of his hips between yours. His hands slide down to grip your thighs, hauling your legs up to rest in the bends of his elbows before he leans forward, effectively folding you in half as his hips continue plowing into you.
"You're clenching me so hard, sweetheartâfuckâ" Peter grunts against your lips as your nails rake down his back, the sting only driving him to move harder. "âtaking me so well. So fucking good for me."
His words have your head falling back into the pillow, cries filling the room as you writhe underneath him. Your hands come up to push weakly at his chest, his brows furrowing as he instantly slows his pace to a crawl.
"Hey, heyâyou okay?" He murmurs, bringing a hand up to caress your face.
You swallow hard, nodding as you nuzzle into his touch. "Y-yeah, yeah I'm fine I justâI wantâ" you stammer, struggling to find the words.
"What do you want, princess? Hm? Tell me and it's yours."
The way he's practically cooing the words has you clenching around him, a move that has both of you groaning at the sensation. Even while he was ruining you, he was still sweet. Still putting you first, just like he always did.
"Wanna ride you⊠please?"
Peter's hips stutter at that, letting out a sharp exhale as he fights to not cum inside you right then and there.
"God, yes."
You hiss as he eases out of you, the emptiness leaving you dizzy as he maneuvers the two of you around. He props up against the headboard, pulling you into his lap. His eyes dart down to your bruise, a line forming between his brows as he frowns slightly.
"You sure this isn't going to hurt you, baby?"
"I'll be fine," you insist, pecking his nose.
Was the bruise sore? Absolutely. Did it sting when your muscles flexed? Maybe a little. But the sight of him beneath youâstaring up at you like you were his entire universeâmade it easy to ignore it. You wanted to make him feel as good as he'd been making you feel the entire night, bruise be damned.
You shift, kneeling above him as you reach down to line him back up with your entrance. A shudder runs through him as you slowly sink down, your name falling from his lips like a prayer. From this angle, he somehow manages to go even deeper, the feeling causing your breath to catch in your throat as your hips finally meet his.
Peter's hands glide from your hips down to your ass, kneading the flesh gently as you begin to move. His head thumps back against the headboard, his eyes half-lidded but trained on you as you rock against him.
"Love watching you use my cock to get yourself off," he murmurs, leaning forward to take your left nipple into his mouth.
Your gasp has him chuckling against your skin, his tongue swirling around the peak until your nails dig into his shoulders. Your hips move earnestly now, his own coming up to meet yours in deep, hard thrusts that have your eyes rolling back into your head.
A guttural moan rumbles in his chest as he switches to your neglected breast, biting down gently as you clench around him. Your clit brushed against his pelvis with each thrust, driving you closer and closer towards your orgasm. His hands were gripping your ass tightly now, dragging you up and down his cock as he panted against your skin.
"'M notânot gonna last much longer, sweetheart," Peter groans against your skin, trailing his tongue up the column of your throat before pressing a heated kiss to your lips.
You couldn't even answer with words anymoreâjust wrecked little noises that had Peter's mind reeling. You were close too, just on the brink of your third climax of the night. But you wanted to see him fall apart first.
With a determined sigh, your hips rolled down into his, your walls squeezing his cock. Your head tips forward, resting on his shoulder for a moment before you whisper in his ear.
Peter's hips jerk hard, thrusting up harshly into you as he manages a choked "oh, fuck" before spilling inside of you in warm spurts. His arms wrap around you, pulling you into him as he whimpers into your neck. His orgasm triggers yours, your hips moving erratically against his as you cry out his name.
Your hips move against his until the overstimulation has you both groaning. With one last kiss, he helps to lift you from his lap, easing you off of his cock with a small grunt. The feeling of his cum dripping down your thigh has your nose wrinkling, and he chuckles, propping you against the pillows before rolling out of the bed.
Panic rises in your chest as you watch him stand, your brows pinching together as you quickly sit back up. "Waitâare you leaving?" Your words are rushed, slurred from exhaustion.
"What?" Peter blinks at you incredulously, like you've just said the most absurd thing he's ever heard. His expression softens before he continues. "Babyâno. No. I would never. I'm just going to grab a few things to take care of you, okay? I'll be right back. Promise"
Relief sags your shoulders as you let out the breath you were holding, smiling sheepishly. Right. He's not a dickhead like your ex's and actually believes in aftercare. "Oh, okay... thank you."
He bends down to press a soft kiss to your forehead. "Always, princess. Now lay back down."
It doesn't take him long before he's returning with a warm washcloth, two water bottles, and another makeshift ice pack. He wipes you gently, pressing a kiss to your knee when you squirm at the feeling of the rag wiping between your thighs.
"Alright, pretty girl. You're all clean. Now go pee," Peter instructs, giving your ass a playful smack and chuckling as you grumble about having to get out of the bed.
Once you come back from the bathroom, he's sprawled across your bed in his boxers, chugging a water bottle. He pats the space beside him, waiting for you to nestle into his side before he hands you the other bottle.
"I still can't believe you managed to topple an entire bookshelf onto yourself," he murmurs as he places the ice pack against your bruise. "Seriously, next time just wait for me. Okay?"
You roll your eyes but the hint of a smile betrays you as you lean in closer, resting your head against his shoulder with a quiet, contented sigh.
"Noted, Spider-Nurse."
For a while, the room holds only the soft rhythm of your breathing and the steady beat of your heart slowing beside his. Then, his voice cuts through the silence,
"You okay? Was that⊠too much?"
A lazy grin makes its way onto your face as you tilt your head to look at him, catching his eyes in the low light. "Better than okay, bug boy. That was perfect," you murmur. Your lips find hisâlight, reassuring, and full of something unsaid. He hums against your lips, arm tightening around your waist.
Neither of you says much after that. The room settles into a quiet hushâthe AC whirring, the muffled noise of the city through the windowâand it all feels distant. Small. Unimportant. Right now, it's just the two of you, suspended in a moment that doesn't ask for anything more than just you two existing.
His fingers move in slow, absent strokes along your arm. The steady motion makes your body heavier, like sleep is wrapping itself around you before you're ready to notice. Peter notices the way your eyelids begin to droop, grinning to himself before pressing a lingering kiss to your temple. "Get some rest, my beautiful girl," he whispers before you can drift off completely. Your eyes slip shut as you nod against him, burying your face into his chest with a yawn before letting sleep pull you under.
And if Peter admires you for a while longer before sleep takes him tooâwell, that's a secret he'll just keep to himself.
Guys I PROMISE I havenât forgotten about Kinktober, I just overestimated how much I could write on a plane and underestimated how randomly busy the start of my October would be đ BUT I should be caught up by Wednesday and then back on schedule. Forgive me Iâm so sorry đđ«¶đŒ
cw; +18 content!, minors dni!!, historical enemies to lovers but in reality is helpless pining idiots to destined lovers, forced marriage (union of kingdoms), cold spencer, mentions of hard expectations and starvation in search of a better image and figure (r), protective spencer, possessive spencer, jealous spencer, reader is not as innocent as she seems, appearance of characters (emily, hotch, rossi, jennifer and derek), slow burn, lots of sexual tension, angst, teasing, haunting, devotion to reader from spencer, insecure lovers, mentions of past relationship?? but not quite (jennifer x spencer), crying, nudity, arguments, masturbation (spencer and reader), perv! spencer (just a tiny bit), somnophilia???, reader reads erotica (relatable), love confessions, first times, loss of virginity (r), oral sex (both receiving), fingering, nipple play (r receiving), dirty talk, lots of begging, pet names (angel, beautiful, prettyâŠ), lots of praising, pure desperation, rut spencer, breeding kink, knot locking, multiple orgasms (r receiving) and rounds implied, marking, bitingâŠ
in a world where all kind of ghouls wandered⊠from vampires to wendigos⊠you ought to be scared to encounter them. but why did it seemed that a merciless death would be better than your father handing your hand in marriage to one of them?
his brown eyes are specking with golden hues that match the bands that sit prettily on the burgundy velvet cushion that the ring beholder offers you.
the babbling of the priest sounds like gibberish to your clogged ears. your heartbeat is going so fast you believe it might escape from your rib cage. if it doesâŠyou hope you can run away along with it from this church and this fate youâre now in the hands of.
âmiss?â your eyes drift from the manâ from who youâd be calling husband from now on towards the priest.
âforgive me. i seem to have lost my train of thought.â he smiles kindly and repeats what he had asked.
âdo you take this beast, spencer reid, king of his kind, as your husband? in health and wealth, sickness and poorness?â
you suddenly feel like swallowing a spoonful of cinnamon, and your breathing hastens.
but you have to do this. a bloody war depends entirely on the next words youâll spew. you have no choice but toâŠ
âi do.â
âthen, hereby, with the power i behold and under the eyes of our god, i name you wife and husband. you may now bear the ringsâŠâ his hands are warm, but his eyes are cold, void of feeling. his jaw is tight the moment he steps closer. his nostrils flairs as he takes in the musk of your skin, the perfume the maids had sprayed on you, the vanilla that lingers from the oils they had lathered you on after your bath. he looks at you as if you were an insect and his next meal at the same time.
his touch is scalding and electrical as he slides the golden band, the branded signature with his name and the date of your union, onto your heart finger, the metal just a barrier of thin skin away from the blood that pumps right straight to the thumping core in your chest, which now too would belong to him, either you wanted it to or not.
your eyes zero on it, trying to take in the sigh and the idea of now being a married woman, and not an ordinary one at that, but the wife of the king of all beasts, the ones youâve been against since the beginnings of time.
but your little bubble pops at the rasping of the priest. the ring. his ring. the ring you have to put on your now husbandâs finger.
âoh, sorry.â your voice is soft, thatâs something spencer has noticed, but nothing compared to your touch, your skin. he hides the way his breath hitched when you carefully and tenderly caught his hand, so you could slide the band on his finger. he can hear your rapid heartbeat, can sense the fear and nervousness coming out of your soul in waves.
good. you should fear him.
âand now⊠you may kiss the bride.â your body locks, muscles going rock solid. anyone could mistake you with a statue by the way youâd even stopped breathing.
a growl leaves the beastâs chest and the whole church freezes.
âis it necessary?â his dangerous glare digs daggers into the priestâs chest, who starts sweating and stuttering.
âi-iâts tradition, my lord.â his smile is screaming âplease, mercy!!!â.
âfine. if i must.â he drawls, and you have to swallow as his cold stare now falls upon you, just like his presence. his new step breaks your space, itâs heavy, and his proximity chokes you, crushes you.
you hold your breath as he bends down, golden and hazel eyes facing your doe ones, widened in astonishment.
the space closes, diminishes, and dissapears. your eyes tighten close, your hands clenching into fists.
please, god, donât allow this to be my death.
and when you thought that he would tear into your skin, you feel him take a deep breath in. he was taking you in, and god did you smell biteable.
spencerâs teeth clash down onto each other, and a new growl leaves his chest. this one is deeper, dangerous. and it terrorizes you.
a squeal escapes your lips, your stomach flips. he must consider your scent disgusting compared to those of his kind. what if he couldnât take it? what if the need to feel your flesh give in into his mouth and your blood hit his tastebuds was too strong? what if his instincts-
but then soft as cotton lips pressed against the corner of your plush and trembling ones.
it was quick, a peck, before he was pulling away to show the relieved faces of now a happy crowd and priest.
âmay god gift you with a long and lovely marriage, king and queen reid.â
his castle was not what you had expected. hell, had you even expected a castle at all?
high stone towers shadow you, colorful lilies of stained glass decorating the façade of the covered in bloom vines.
you frowned at the sight. your books always talked about being the gladiolus the flower of the crown of the beasts. for its meaning as the flower of the gladiators, strength and victory. no lily was ever mentioned on the scriptures.
âmy lady?â one of the servants had opened the door of the carriage for you and now gifted you his hand as support for you to descend onto the ground.
your husband, observed in the shadows of the coach as you gladly accepted with a thankful smile. fangs glinted.
if the beasts had not their recognizable sharp canines, they would pass as one of your kind. they also were taller, sturdier, stronger. with a clawed hand of theirs, your skull could easily sink in under their tight grip. you tried to not think about the fact that soon youâd be entering into their den.
that was untilâŠ
âmy lady!â your eyes found those of emily prentissâ, your confidant and with who youâd grown playing through the bushes of the maze in your palace.
âemily!â having her in your arms had never brought you as closer to home as you had been since you had said your âi doâ. âoh, iâm so glad to see you⊠but what are you doing here?â you questioned.
âan order from your husband, he thought youâd feel safer with some of our kind working along his servants in the castle.â your eyes then sought out the beast with who you now shared not only a united kingdom, but a last name. and there he was. aaron hotchner, the guard that had kept you alive like a guardian angel since before you could walk, shaking the hand of your husband as who you assumed âand would get to know later as derek morganâ would be his second hand, a man of great built and tanned skin.
âohâŠâ you muttered, your sight quickly adverting as spencer seemed to notice your staring, finding your fleeting eyes.
his hazel irises burned over your skin; your figure in your still pure white wedding gown.
âlet me take you upstairs, into a much comfier dress, hm?â emily took your hand and you nodded, tagging along, but the need to turn around ate at you and tugged on your strings until you did, finding that spencerâs eyes had not yet left you, or the way emily held your hand.
(âŠ)
after that, you didnât catch sight of your husband until the sun had commenced to dip below the frond forest that surrounded you.
you now wore a sleeveless bedazzled and corset tight purple gown, your delicate feet in the comfiest heels you had ever worn. your long and wavy hair âa masterpiece from your stylistsâ danced across the hair as the clacks of your kitten heels accompanied and announced your arrival to the dinner hall.
two tall butlers opened it for you, their synced voices stating your entrance. âlady reid.â
guards stood posted at every door, maids just a feet away in case of need. across the room a feast spread before your eyes, at the head of the table your husband sat, waiting for you.
but what spencer wasnât expecting was to see you wearing purple, the emblematic color of his kind. before he could think, he was standing, his chair scraping the rick marble of the floor. he stared at you so intensely, for a moment you thought you had somehow done something wrong, offended him⊠but no.
if spencer couldnât hold himself as well as he knew how to, his mouth would have hung open in surprise. but of course, his composure was his forte. though you seemed to have a natural knack to shake it to its core.
you bowed before him. âmy lord.â your voice soft, kind and elegant as you acknowledged him.
he mimicked you as soon as he pulled his train of thought together. âmy lady.â both of you stared at each other. âi wasnât aware of your knowledge on our history and emblems.â
and that. that was the longest he had talked to you for.
you smiled, softly, just a mere trace. âthought that, now as part of that history, i should start playing the part of where i belong now; the house of reid.â
his body slightly froze at your words, but he gently nodded, and with no more comment, swiftly signaled you to take a seat on the other head of the table, right across from him.
after that, the maids were quick to prepare your silverware and drape a velvet cloth over your lap in case of spills.
you thanked them, and stared at the food in front of your eyes, there were plates that youâve only seen in drawings or read in books, tropical fruits about whichâs sweetness songs strummed along.
you didnât know where to start. but that was not just what concerned you. spencer still stared at you, calculated. like a gentleman, he awaited for you to make the first move, take the first bite. it was an inverted veneration to which you were accustomed. and you didnât know what to take. what to eat. how much to eat. society standards were hard, youâd starve for the perfect size, the perfect figure. you now were a queen. the closest thing to perfection and god known to man⊠you had to be nothing less than that. you couldnât be.
spencer continued to stare as you filled âmore like half-filledâ your plate with small portions of vegetables. cooked potatoes, carrots, tomatoesâŠ
he stopped you just as you were to pick on some lettuce. ânot a fan of meat?â his plate stood, yet, empty, the golden specks on his eyes shining under the flames of the chandelier.
âoh, not at all, my lord.â your eyes met a plate of stake nearby, and you felt your mouth water. âseems delicious.â
the beast frowned then. âfeeling ill, perhaps?â
you shook your head, and once again, denied. âno, my lord.â
his eyes narrowed, once, and then took his silverware. âalright then.â
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dinner had never been so long and dreadful. but nothing could compare to the hour in which the sun left you in the dark.
you had been bathed for a third time that day, and lathered in all times of oils that left your skin smelling and feeling like the most softest of petals.
a sheer white gown covered your figure, and your hair hung down to your waist in the same beautiful waves you had worn to dinner.
you were now awaiting for your husband on your chambers. white, purple and gold surrounded you, lilies filling the room, the window letting in the soft and warming breeze of the upcoming summer.
you couldnât stop staring at your reflection on the mirror that hung from the nearest wall. were your lashes sufficiently curled? were your cheeks rosy enough? is your hair properly curled from every angle? did you look perfect? you had to. it was your wedding night.
your cheeks flushed at the thought and realization of it. your wedding night. the night in which youâll become one with your now husband. the night in which youâll offer yourself completely to him, body and soul, for the first time ever. you were not supposed to know what would happen. but you were curious, and sneaky, so of course you had managed to find books of anatomy and some⊠erotica on the forbidden section of your castleâs library.
pleasure. thatâs what youâll feel. once he rids you of your clothes, once he crawls on top of you, once he spreads open your thighs andâŠ
a knock falls upon the wooden door, and you jump on your place. itâs him. you quickly take a last peek towards the mirror, anxiously combing through your hair one last time. youâre flushed. cheeks, neck and ears pinkish and warm as your meek voice mutters a âcome in!â.
the door creaks open, and spencerâs heavy steps break the air, with his presence inside the room, it feels heavier upon your shoulders, dense.
he closes the door, and his eyes met yours, but then, he takes a deep breath in, and has to fight the urge to growl deep into his chest at the scent you give off. he hadnât even looked at you, hadnât even touched you yetâŠ, and he could already smell the arousal pooling in between your plush thighs. how sweet you were. how ripe and ready andâŠ
his lung filled in with the scent of your need. your body, soft, smaller, pliantâcalled for him, to be bred, to give him the heir that will officially be the union of both your kingdoms.
youâre so willing to let him take you, for him to push himself upon you and break you apartâŠ
âwhy are you still awake?â his voice is ruff, dry, void of any warmth. your body shivers, freezes. your heart jumps.
âi⊠uh-â
âitâs late. you ought to be sleeping. a queen needs all the rest she can get.â
your cheeks pink. have you thought wrong? did they not�
âi thought iâd wait awake for youâŠâ his fists clench at the sliver of soft and tempting voice that leaves your plush lips âthose which he had barely felt, tasted, a mere hours ago at the ceremony and which you wouldnât stop wetting with your wicked tongue in nervousnessâ.
he simply ignores your words, and sits on the common tea area in the spacious room, taking out of his vestâs pocket a perfectly sized book of what? your sight could not catch.
âmy lordâŠ?â your voice calls once again for him, questioning. his eyes fall close at the sound.
after eternal seconds of still silence, he speaks once more.
âitâs our wedding night.â the declaration makes you pulse, flush, reek. and spencer growls. âiâll stay in your quarters for exactly an hour, as it is expected of me to be here tonight, then iâll leave.â
you frown. solely an hour? âyour quartersâ? heâll âleaveâ?
you take a deep breath inâŠ
âi donât understandâŠâ, and let it out. your hands, clammy, shaky, clasp together, your thighs tremble, tighten. âyou wonâtâŠ?â
âwhat.â that single word is cutting. âtake you?â your core floods, your body warms and he growls once again, making your flesh wear those beautiful goosebumps that call unto his most dark instincts. âstop that.â he orders. âstop with that nonsense and go to sleep, you need the rest.â
you swallow. your heart freezes over and cracks. your hopes wither.
but you nod, concede, and gently make your way into the silk, sheer, white sheets.
you turn on your side, eyes facing towards the window facing the floral and beautiful gardens of your new⊠home?
you let your lids fall, and with a last breath before you will yourself yo sleep you mutter out a broken.
âgoodnight, my lord.â
the days are long, almost never ending. your desk if full of paperwork you thought you would never have to do. you were prepared, of course, your entire life-hood had been lesson after lesson to take the crown after your father and mother âbeing the only offspring of the marriageâ. but it had surprised you. never in history had a queen had so much power in her hands, so many decisions to make ânot on your kingdom at leastâ.
âthe king wants your insights in the kingdom matters, for youâre the owner of it as well.â derek morgan, the second hand or your husband spoke with the kindest of smiles as he carefully placed the papyruses on the wood before you, ink and quill ready.
your eyes were wide and doeâd in surprise, but you managed to give a quick nod before he retreated and stood beside aaron on the door, guarding it. the first thing that came to your mind was the reasoning for this. aaron was a capable soldier, a golden one at that. the best in you kingdom. he could protect you just fine, so why a second oneâŠ? thatâs why the possible answer of the reason for it being spencerâs need to monitor you through derek, to keep you from making mistakes⊠made anger boil in your gut. could it be that he thought of you as inferior? as frail and dumb just for being a human?
you straightened your back even further and gritted your teeth. aaron, non the wiser, and knowing of your mannerisms, raised slightly his eyebrows at your almost imperceptible show of fury.
your quill flew through the sheets, your scribbling was almost frantic as you also filled the margins of the documents with your strong opinions and arguments. plans were made. data updated. and contracts for upgrades were signed with your careful, floral and graceful script.
and when you were done, you sat up abruptly.
âaaron.â
the guard stepped forwards. âyes, my lady?â
âiâd very much like to wander through the gardens.â hotchner nodded under your command.
âthen i shall accompany you, my lady.â
you didnât even gave morgan a side glance as your kitten heels clacked by him, leaving the room and him behind.
and it wasnât until you were deep into the gardens that aaron spoke once again. âare you alright, my lady?â
âplease donât call me that, aaron. i shall remain your princess even if my name has changed.â he chuckled lightly at your sweet fit and pout.
âalright then, princess. but that doesnât answer the question.â
âjust marriage matters.â you simply said. aaron was like a second father to you, he had been there even in your first steps, and helped you clean your wounds when youâd fall while playing through the maze of your castle. you were pretty sure he wouldnât like to know about the marital distance spencer put between you two. how he left you to sleep alone every night, and barely spoke to you during the days.
you were married to a ghost in a crown.
âmarriage is supposed to be hard, princess. even more if youâre different species.â he gave you an encouraging smile, the golden wedding band blinking at you. you sometimes forgot he was married, and had a beautiful kid he also had to take care of aside from you. you took a mental note to give him more vacation time and shorter shifts now that haley and jack had moved to the houses near the castle âthat spencer had built specifically for the servants, guards and their families.â.
you hummed, feet dragging through the perfectly cut grass.
âi guess youâre right.â you continued your walk, under a willow and a couple of meters away from you a beautiful pond overflowing with the most crystalline water you had ever laid eyes on, pink water lilies rimming it as if it were a painting, or the most perfect natural mirror. hotchner shouldâve known the moment that wicked smile of yours split your porcelain face. âhow do you think my husband shall react if he found me in the pond?â
âprincess.â he tried to stop you, but the word hadnât even finished leaving his lips before your heels were off, and you were tugging at your dress, undoing the front corset and letting it drop to the ground.
aaron was quick to look away. sure, you still had your white chainse to cover you. but you were a queen, and firstly, a woman. one he deeply respected. he turned.
âprincess, i believe this wonât be to the kingâs liking.â he rose his voice, muttering a breathy curse when he heard your feet plunge into the water and your little squeal.
âwell, i am his queen and equal. and if i desire to go into this lake, then i shall.â and with that you dived in. the water was the perfect temperature, mostly colder than warmer, but you preferred it that way.
your long hair adhered to your back as you came back to the surface, eyelashes decorated like chandeliers with the droplets of lukewarm water. your cheeks were flushed, a relaxing smile giving away on your lips as you wadded though the water, observing the little butterflies and dragonflies that would pass by. maybe you could plant more flowers for them.
but your little bubble of relaxation bursted when a needle with the low growl of your husband went through it âand the air who surrounded youâ like an arrow.
âand what is my wife doing naked in front of another man who is not me?â
you froze on your place, just for a second, your muscles locking and going taut with a tension that had been growing like weeds inside of you, creeping and surrounding your heart in spines. then you smirked, but put on your best confused and innocent expression as you turned and your doe eyes met his.
âbut i am not naked, my lord. iâve still got my chainse on.â your lily-white words fell from your wet lips. âlook.â and when you stood from the water, it cascading in rivers down your silhouette, which now was accentuated by the sheer white fabric glued to your skin â a fabric that left everything on sightâ in that instant, derek morgan, who had tailed down the king, looked away as well, fixing his dark brown eyes in the plum and willow trees.
spencer, on the contrary, kept his eyes, which shone, for just a split of a second, with the purest golden⊠on you. on your pebbled and rosy nipples, that show through the sheer damp white.
âprincess-â aaron quickly took off his purple velvet cape, stepping towards you to cover you. god forbid you caught a cold and fell ill. but the deep threatening growl of the king stopped him from taking one more step.
spencer didnât mutter a word. the stare he gave the human clearly spoke aloud his thoughts: drape that thing over her and iâll have your head. then, he undressed. first his purple embroidered vest, then, his white flared shirt, and stepped towards you.
your eyes raked down the exposed skin. sun-kissed toned muscles greeting you, making you almost salivate. his chest was strong, the perfect size for you to hide against for warmth in a chilly night. his shoulders, wide, the muscle taught in tension, made for your hands to claw at. his stomach⊠lean, soft yet harsh lines showing his formed abdominals. and then⊠lower⊠peeking from his pants, the most mouth watering and sharp v-line âwhich you wondered if would cut your fingertips if touchedâ flanking soft highlighted curls that disappeared down down downâŠ
your vision got clouded by the cloth of said shirt as he pulled it down over your head, covering you and engulfing you in his rich scent, making your heart almost beat out of your chest.
his jaw was tight, muscle about to snap as his eyes were anywhere but on you. as if he couldnât bear the sight of you.
his grip was tight on your hip, and from his pink lips fell a simple order.
ânow go change.â
and for the first time. you didnât try to fight. not with the way he growled each word under his breath.
spencer was about to spill over the edges. his skin was tightening, and his body felt like a goddamn furnace. he knew what that meant, he could feel it in his bones. but he kept working and working and working, trying not to think about the storm of hunger that would take over him sooner than later.
âso, under my watch, the constructions wouldnât take long, and would enrich the kingdom, for ferthey is interested in our wolfsbane as much as we are interested in their luna magra.â rossi âthe treasurer and political man of the courtâ spoke, plans of a new harbor and corps expanded on the table.
spencer was trying to pay attention, he really was, but his mind was far far away from the room in which he stood.
âsounds good. the faerie has always been fair and generous in tradings. also our bonds would tighten.â the king hummed. âsend correspondence as soon as possible.â
âyes, my lord.â david bowed, rolling the maps and saving them back carefully into his satchel.
âmaking decisions without your queen, gentlemen?â heads turned under the sound of your voice, eyes landing on your figure, framed by the wooden door. and if non-the wiser, you could have been mistaken for a painting, the most mouthwatering masterpiece. soft plush thighs uncovered under the same shirt spencer had covered you with the afternoon prior, which you had clung onto after the maids had showered, insisting youâd sleep on it.
you looked so small under the size of it, so fragile. hair slightly messy, cheeks rosy and lips plump. you had just woken up.
eyes widened, and then left you, bodies folding on bows. âmy lady!â it was as if the churchâs choir was present with the way they all chanted your name.
spencerâs chest puffed in a deep breath, almost a gasp, also an intake of your sweet scent being consumed by the musk of his. his sharp eyes wondered your exposed skin, canines gritting when the neck of his shirt slipped slightly down your shoulders, slightly unbuttoned front showing your clavicles and juncture of your neck, where he wouldâŠ
âout.â the order was guttural, simple. every man in the room tensed under it.
you rose your eyebrows as you looked him straight in the eyes. ânot so soon gentlemen, i have yet to see what you were planning in my absence.â
the step they were about to take towards the door became a mere feint. now, the court stood in between the words of both carrying the crown.
âeveryone. out. now.â you husbandâs voice filled the space once again, but this time⊠even your body felt the need to comply. the bellow was rough, deep, the order of a true leader.
when the bodies of his kind moved like mere puppets on strings and left the room in a hurry is when you noticed that the roar was not a simple one. but an alphaâs order. spencer had used his alphaâs voice against his own. a tone so impossibly deep and strong that no wolf could unfollow nor break, not if they werenât as stronger as him. and there was no wolf as strong as the king.
when they left you two behind inside the room, after the soft click of the door, you scoffed. ânow that was not fair.â
âiâm starting to believe my lady has a liking to undressing herself in front of other men.â he growled and you smirked with a shrug of your dainty shoulders.
âcanât a queen be comfortable in her own castle?â he clicked his tongue. you had a sharp one, your were quick.
âin my shirt.â
âin your shirt, indeed.â
yours. yours. yours.
mine. mine. mine.
you could hear his teeth clashing against each other in a tight bite.
âtake it off.â he ordered. he wanted it back.
âas you wish, my lord.â and who were you to deny your king and husband?
but as your hands took the hem of your shirt, and started to pull upwards, to pair of strong burning hands encircled your wrists. in a blink, spencer has crossed the room, his brown eyes catching a mere glimpse of the sheer underwear underneath his shirt before it could go any further.
a low growl left his chest, and your body reacted to it. to it and to his touch. goosebumps rose, slick formedâŠ
âwhat are you doing?â his heavy breathing hit your cheeks. deep rich coffee.
you kept your eyes on him. âexactly what you asked for, my lord. iâm taking it off.â
âhere?â
âare you not my husband?â his eyes closed. spencer bit the inside of his cheek until copper hit his tastebuds, and ground himself with a deep breath before facing you once again.
he let go of your wrists, but stood a breath away, eyes dark, deep into yours. a dare was written in his irises; âdo it. do it if you have the courage.â
and you, once again, delivered.
you didnât look away as you continued your tugging, up, up, up, until it left the warmth of your skin behind, fell down your hand and ended on the floor.
only covered by your drawers, all but your most sensitive core, stood exposed before his eyes. at first he didnât look, fought against the need of your eyes to wander, but your skin was so pure⊠and ready for the taking.
your breath got stuck in your throat as, by the mere sight of the naked skin of your neck, the mere crevice of it, his eyes turned the prettiest and brightest golden youâd seen. and before he would let his eyes travel downwards, towards the soft and supple mounds of your chest and rosy peaked nipples begging for attention⊠he forced them away.
âleave.â he said in a breath. his skin was itching. his lungs suffocating in the dulcet aroma of your arousal. but his face ported the poker of a card, and his eyes had returned to the chocolate you were acquaintances with once again.
you stood there, unmoving. and thatâs when he called louder. âprentiss!â
through the wooden door, the voice of the brunette could be heard, before the human cracked it open. a slip dress stood in between her arms, as if she were conscious of what would happen once you stepped into the conference room.
âyes, my lord?â
âwould you mind aiding the queen to dress and lead her back to her chambers?â he asked, as politely as he could with the deep growl that begged to leave his chest. emily looked at you, and you simply turned, slipped on the dress and left him behind in that empty room. the door shut and his eyes zeroed on the shirt on the floor, the shirt you had worn to sleep, the shirt that now contained not only your scent, but his, combined.
his hand took it, gripped it, if it werenât for his composure he would have already ripped it to pieces, but instead, just followed after you and into his room, throwing it into a corner before pouring himself three fingers of bourbon.
you must be doing this on purpose.
that was spencerâs thought when you stepped foot into the dining room for breakfast that morning. you were properly dressed this time, a beautiful, flowy, summery dress clinging to your body in all the right places. it was a feast for the eyes of anyone. but the dessert. the sugared cherry, the forbidden fruit⊠was how you smelled.
his nose flared, his lungs filling up in pure unabashed hunger.
orgasm. you smelled like an orgasm. he could smell the residual cum in between your thighs, on your fingers. could practically smell your moans, your whines.
he was aware that you knew. you must. just as he was aware that if he could smell it, the others of his kind in the room could as well.
but how⊠how did you knew what an orgasm, what pleasure was supposed to be?
had you heard about it? had someone told you about it? had someone touched and taught you?
the mere thought made the golden fork in his hand almost snap in half.
âmorning, my lord.â you saluted him, sitting down on the opposite head of the table, like always. âhow was your sleep last night?â you inquired, and made sure to slightly part your thighs.
either you were completely oblivious or your little fits lately had been completely intentional.
âthe second.â. youâd answer with the prettiest of smiles if you could read into his mind.
âfine.â he answered gruffly. âwhat about yours?â but still courtesy didnât lack.
âsplendid.â you smiled softly, and he swallowed a growl. fucking tease.
truth be told? your little schemes were just a simple way to get spencerâs attention. to get his touch. but most of all, to prove that he desired you. just as you did. he must desire you, right?
but up until now, two weeks of marriage had passed, and no little stunt had worked. first, it had been the lake, next; the shirt incident. after that, you had made sure to become friendlier with his second hand, derek, in seek of his jealousy. you had pranced around the castle with shorter and shorter gowns, had basically rooted yourself to the places he most commonly frequented; like the library, where the tow of you spent hours reading each on a different side of the room. you haunted him like a ghost⊠and yet, he had stood impassible. to everything. every step, every word, anything you did⊠his façade was impeccable. you couldnât make him react. couldnât make him tick. and it was as heartbreaking as frustrating.
untilâŠ
it was late at night. another alone night in your chambers as you devoured page after page of a romance novel youâd found on the castleâs library. when the passion filled the pages, and neediness seeped into your undergarments, soaking the tender flesh of your thighsâŠ
when your hand came down in seek of relief⊠that it hit you.
werewolves had the best sense of smell ever recorded and known. so⊠if you waltzed into a room where he stood unclean, dripping in release⊠he must notice. he must smell it.
so that night, you made sure to make a mess. it wasnât difficult if you recalled the image of his sun-kissed skin, exposed and strong chest, marked abs, perfect happy trail that led the way toâŠ
so now here you stood, eyes digging deep into his, acting as if nothing was wrong. but this time, you had seen the way his nose had flared, how for just a mere second, golden had taken over his irises, how his body had tensed⊠a crack, a way in.
and you were not gonna let it leave your grasp.
now. about to enter a state of rut, in which inhibitions lowered and a savage, hungrier side of him broke through his walls⊠spencer felt taunted. like a donkey to which they had offered a carrot hanging from a stick, right in front of his eyes. what you didnât know is that he was no donkey, and you were no carrot. he was a wolf, and you were a lamb⊠and wolves devoured lambs.
he felt the urge to take ahold of you, sink his claws and teeth in you and ravish you.
but instead, spencer glued himself sat to his seat, and bit harshly on a bloody piece of steak.
(âŠ)
spencer`s chambers stood at the end of the hall, a couple of doors away from yours, for a matter of protection. and you took advantage of that. nocturnal as he was, you became accustomed to his scheduled, and knew the exact moment in which he would make his way down the hallway and into his room to commence your little toying.
the first night spencer caught the sound of your dulcet moans and needs whimpers⊠he almost broke through your door and took you right there. he could hear the whines, the wet sounds of your arousal as your fingers pounded into your warm and velvety insides, your ragged breathing⊠the calling of his name.
so sweet, so needyâŠ
he couldnât help but stay until you finished all over your fingers and sheets with a quiet scream of his name.
his fists tightened, his jaw clenched, and he breathed out to himself: âkeep walking, reid.â. even when his trousers were drenched, and he felt like dying of hunger.
(âŠ)
the situation repeated itself each night, every passing one getting harder, every new moan and whimper becoming more and more impossible to ignore, making his desire more and more difficult to tame.
until he couldnât hold it in any longer.
it was late. too late. you had already went through your little performance and were asleep when he softly and stealthily slipped into your room.
he bit back a groan at the unfiltered scent of you. fresh. potent. not blocked by the wooden door. it was right there. before him. under his nose.
such a deep sleeper you were that you didnât awake at the imperceptible click of the door, or the fumbling of his clothes.
his eyes were bright in the darkness, like flames, pure gold as he stared at the silhouette of you, on your side towards the moon and away from him. you were uncovered, only piece of clothing your little nightgown. sheer. taunting. your thighs were exposed, glistening the further up his eyes went in between your legs. but nothing could be seen. itâs not as if spencer needed it. with just your scent and the sight of you spencer could come untouched. he got on his knees. venerable. under a spell. he worshipped you as he would worship a goddess. he knew he didnât deserve to touch you. he always did.
the very first time he saw you. the very first whiff he got of you⊠he knew. you were made to be his. born for it. he could feel it in the way those invisible red strings connected his heart to yours. but he never touched you. didnât properly kiss you. didnât talk to you. firstly, because spencer was terrified of loving you âwhich he feared he already didâ and secondly, because he was a monster. he could-no- would hurt you. he wouldnât be able to fight the instinct and need to bite down on your neck and brand you as he would if you were of his kind, wouldnât be able to not stretch you open on his knot and breed you like heâd been dreaming about doing since the moment you bowed your âi do.â.
he bit down on his shirt, canines tearing through the cloth, as one hand pushed the shirt youâd worn days ago âhis shirtâ right up against his nose and the other circled his stiff cock. itâs veins were full, about to pop. the head was already dribbling pre, leaking. and his balls were so tight and stuffed with the cum he wanted to deeply fuck into you he could cry. for fuckâs sake, his knot was almost fully formed. he was sure that itâll merely take a few strokes to make a mess.
he was a dog. figuratively and literally as he started to stroke himself, golden eyes zeroing where your thighs met. he couldnât even see it. couldnât see your cunt. but he could smell it. and god if it didnât smell as the best feast heâd ever encountered.
he was panting. basically in heat as he masturbated to the placid sleeping self you were on your bed. which should be his bed as well. bothâs bed.
âgodâŠâ he begged, to whatever existed above the clouds. but deep down, he knew that his own personal god(dess) was asleep, in that bed, completely unaware of how hard and fast he jerked his cock to her.
and if spencer werenât that needy, he might feel bad. but he couldnât. not when it felt this good.
the thought only made him rose higher. you. naively thinking he didnât desire you, even walking through your castle with your dried cum between your legs, practically begging him to bend you over the dining table and breed your womb full of his pups.
the imagery of it, of you plump and round and beautiful with his baby, made his knot try and lock into his palm. and just before shooting endless ropes of cum into the floor and his thighs, he took his napkin and pressed it against his sensitive tip, eyes rolling as he came, silent growl fighting his way out of his throat.
he didnât know for how long he came. neither for how many rounds he went for as the night advanced. but in the end, his napking became useless.
spencerâs favorite moment of the night became the night. of course, being a wolf, he adored the moon. but lately something much more beautiful and bright had captured his attention. he spent the nights in your room, when you were deeply asleep and sated. you still left the scent of your release all over the room. such inhibited pleasure⊠he couldnât believe you felt such sentiment for someone as impure as him.
his pre-rut state was getting worse; dizziness, hot flashes, feversâŠ
but deep in the night, he would softly rest his arms on your bed, and his chin on top of these. and just the mere sight of you, of your peaceful features, of your beautiful and breathtaking face⊠was enough to satiate his hunger, his thirst. you offered him solace. peace. oxygen as he struggled to breath during the day.
and yet, you were so unaware⊠of how deep his devotion for you had rooted inside his soulâŠ
that a mere misunderstood⊠the right presence in the wrong moment and place⊠shattered you.
âspencer. stop this nonsense, youâre suffering. you cannot spend your rut alone. itâll be unbearable.â you were on your way to the gardens to watch the sun disappear into the vast forest, aaron as always by your side, guarding you even if no threats were on sight. but a delicate cooing voice made you stop on your tracks. spencerâs office door was ajar, light coming from the inside, as well as his voice as he answered:
âiâm fine.â
âyou are not. look at you, youâre running a fever again. you know i can help. iâve done it before.â your eyes fell on a beautiful blonde. he wasnât a royal, that was for sure, but neither a servant. maybe an acquaintance of the kingâs. stunning ocean eyes. the smallest waist you had ever laid eyes on. he was a sigh for sore eyes. and a werewolf. just like spencer.
something deep inside you felt off at the sight of the two of them together. insecurity. how couldnât you be?
spencer sighed, shaking slightly his head, brown eyes away from her. âjenniferâŠâ
even her name was pretty.
but what you werenât expecting was for her to take his face in between her hands and smash her lips against his.
all air left your lungs. it felt as if a dagger had gone straight through your heart. a punch to the gut. the little food you had had for breakfast ââcause you had been watching your figure, trying to lose weight and be more appealing to your husbandâ made its way up your throat, and you had to swallow the nausea back down.
the sight was fleeting, for a hand came over your eyes and covered them.
âdonât look, my lady.â aaronâs voice whispered sadly onto your year, and you felt tears prickling.
not wanting him nor your husband to see you like this, you shoved him away harshly, making quick haste to run away towards your chambers.
spencer, who had quickly pushed away the blonde, caught sight of aaronâs stern face on his door, and the waving of your air in the air as your heels angrily made their way down the corridor.
he was quick to follow, pushing through your door as you tried and slam it on his face.
he muttered your name. and if you werenât in such a heartbreak, you would have noticed it was the first time he had ever done it.
âno.â you cut him off. âthat much you loathe me? despise me? enough toâŠ, to depend on another woman at your weakest. in your rut?! to allow her to take a place i have gained by the bows i made before god and by the ring that hugs my finger?!â
spencer swallows, his eyes leaving you, falling shut. there are a million voices screaming inside his head. his insides are burning. his skin is on fire. his hands are itching to pull you close and his mouth is ready to kiss away all your worries and tears.
âlook at you, you canât even stand the sight of me! is that it? you no longer can survive seeing me every morning? fine! iâll leave you alone. iâll live, eat, bathe and sleep on my own. iâll even move to the furthest isle of this goddamn castle!â
âthat is not far enough!â his voice is gruff, desperate, harsh and cutting. heâs panting. eyes golden as he stares down at you. âyouâre right. i canât stand the sight of you. i canât look at you. i canât breathe when iâm around you. but not because i despise you. quite the contrary, because i desire you like iâve never desired anything in my life. all the knowledge iâve stored inside my head vanishes as you come near, all logic leaves me when you look at me. âcause iâve leant that perfection is a myth. impossible. unreachable. and yet⊠there you standâŠâ your heart stops. your body freezes. your hands shake. and you fight the urge to pinch yourself. âthe day you vowed before me the âi doâ? the day that you let put that ring around your finger? you made me kneel with a simple stare. you ripped my heart out with the sweet dagger of your voice. you condemned me. condemned me to this hell in which i get to have you close but never close enough. you became the moon i pray to, the oxygen my lungs long for, the most beautiful breathing painting right before my eyes. you became my hell⊠and⊠my god given solace.â
both of your breathings are ragged, shaky. youâre drowning.
but in a blink, you can finally breath. after weeks of thin air filling your lungs.
his lips are soft yet harsh as he devours your mouth. the two of you moan on each others tongues. his hands donât know where to touch. fuck, can he even touch you? should he? he shouldnât. but his brain has already stopped working, something only you manage to do.
âspencerâŠâ you whimper as his lips trail from your bruised lips to your neck. he inhales, deep. and his incredibly hard cock stirs in his trousers.
thatâs all he needed. your scent. his name falling off of your lips while you were under his touch. it was the last push down the precipice. he growls, canines growing, bigger, sharper. you need them in your neck as much as he does. but⊠âgod⊠i canât.â heâs in rut now, his mind is foggy, his instincts are screaming at him to take you, ravage you, knot you, breed you⊠but most of all⊠make you his. mark you as his. with the ring or his bite on the juncture or your neck.
you hush him, pulling him closer. âyou can. god, please spencer. you can. i want it. itâs all iâve ever wanted.â
his sweaty forehead presses against yours, his golden eyes are as bright as the pure sun. âiâll hurt you. i wonât⊠i wonât be able to control it. iâll hurt you and iâll hate myself for it.â
âyou wonât. and even if you do⊠iâll love it. just as i love you.â
after that, spencerâs head had never felt clearer. his chest lighter.
thereâs a mess of hands as you desperately tug on each other clothes. but thereâs no time to waste, and a gasp leaves your lips when he simply claws at your dress and rips it apart, making it mere shreds.
âspencer!â you try to tut, but he hushes you in between desperate kisses as he walks you backwards towards and onto the bed. you flop down onto the silk sheets. and jesus, arenât you the prettiest thing heâs ever seen.
âgod, forget about it. forget about the dress. iâll buy you a new one. hell, iâll buy you a thousand more of them if i get to rip them off of you every time.â youâre cheeks flush, even more when he rids himself of his vest and shirt. the sight youâve missed so much, hits you once again, and your core floods. âfuck⊠youâre do damn beautiful. gorgeous. perfect.â he pants as his golden eyes ravish you. you shudder, and your cunt throbs. you instinctively press your thighs together. for relief. hell, maybe even restrain, but spencer growls.
âdonât you dare. donât you dare hide from me. iâve been dreaming about this sweet pussy of yours for weeks now.â you squeak when you see him kneel before you.
âmy lord!â you try and make him stand but he pulls open your thighs, trying to take a glimpse of your dewy pussy lips, but when it doesnât seem like enough, he just rips you free of your undergarments. now youâre fully exposed under his hungry gaze. and even though your virginal body is screaming in embarrassment, itâs already ready for him. to be ravished, fucked into oblivion⊠and you wonât leave this room without finally getting your husband to take you as it has been intended since the very first day of your marriage.
âno âmy lordsâ here. my name is spencer. your husband. you must refer to me as such.â his eyes meet yours, and you nod.
âmy husband.â you repeat, and he groans as if he had just thrusted into you.
âgod, you sound heavenly. but even more when you moan my name.â and he proves it by sinking in between your plushy thighs. his nose meets the dripping mess, tip against your clit. and he inhales, deeply, depraved. he growls, and your back arches when this time, itâs his tongue what meets your cunt, from entrance to mound. âbeautiful⊠so sweet⊠so ready and needy for your alpha, arenât you angel?â your eyes roll the same direction as his tongue rolls against your clit, a high pitched scream leaving you as he harshly sucks on it, letting it go with a pop just to slurp at the juices that quickly leaked out of you. âso wet⊠youâve been needing this as much as me, hm baby? poor thing⊠so neglected by his husband. but donât worry, there will be no more of that.â your breath hitches as his fingertips join his tongue, flicking and pinching you clit, prodding at your entrance until one finger slips inside. it goes in so easy he moans. âyou wonât need to keep going with your little stunts to get my attention. to get me to fuck you until you cry. from now on⊠iâll give you everything you want.â he thrusts, once. âiâll fuck you full of me every day and night.â another finger stretches you open, and your hand tugs at his pretty and messy curls, making him groan and bite at his lower lip in pleasure. âiâll make sure youâre dripping of me every minute of every single day.â another deep thrust. âand when it takesâŠâ another thrust, a harsh suck on your sensitive clit. âwhen youâre round and glowing with my pupâŠâ a third finger goes in, and you scream. youâd never gone this far. the fullness stings⊠but makes you dizzy for more. you wanted it to hurt, only if the one hurting you was spencer. âiâll make sure you stay that way season and season again.â he fucks and laps at you. âuntil you beg me to stop.â and before you know it, white is taking over your vision and youâre screaming his name as you come around his pumping fingers, which fuck you through it. he groans at the sight, using his thumb to tease your clit and not miss a single second of it. âlook at you. such a fucking natural, trying to milk my fingers⊠canât wait to feel you try it on my cock.â he pleasures you through it, shrinks out of you and consumes every drop of your pleasure.
your vision is dizzy as he growls and pulls away. âfuck⊠canât.â he basically rips away from his skin his trousers, as if the soft cloth was burning him, when in reality it was him who was.
you notice. notice how heâs still fighting against himself. howâs heâs battling against every and each one of his instincts for control.
âspencerâŠâ his golden hues meet you, and you feel like prey about to be devoured. but it only pumps your veins of that fuzzy desire you crave. âplease⊠stop fighting it.â one of your hands pressed against his toned abdomen, and you feel the muscles tense under your soft fingertips. âi want it. i want you.â he grits his teeth, but his jaw slacks when your hand curls around his throbbing and leaking cock. is big. massive. you fear he wonât even be able to push the tip in. and the mere thought of not being able to take him hurts you.
he moans your name as you explore him. your touch felt like pure snow against his scorching skin. relief. a relief heâd never known before. not even with one or his kind. not even with jennifer.
his mind is so filled up with you, his body is so attuned to yours and his soul craves you so much he beliefs you to be an illness, a drug. and he canât escape it. he doesnât want to. heâll never let go of you now that he has tasted you, kissed youâŠ
he almost comes the moment you find his knot, already puffy at the base of his length, flanked by perfectly groomed curly pubes. your mouth waters. your cunt pulses. this. this is what you craved.
âi want it.â
he growls, as if he were in pain. âyou wonât be able to take it. itâll hurt.â
âthen hurt me.â you spew, fast, unthinking. youâre both animals starving. âplease⊠alphaâŠâ
a dribble of cum leaves his tip at the name. heâs cumming. heâs cumming just with your voice and mere touch. itâs not much. itâs not dense. it lacks. but you donât waste it. youâre quick at letting your maw fall open and your tongue loll out, catching what he gives you before your lips engulf his engorged and pinkish tip. spencer moans, deep, guttural. and his fingers lace in your hair. the perfect grip. soft, careful, yet tight, as if he were scared youâd stop; leave him. not ever, you thought.
his eyes were a reflection of his uncontrollable hunger as he stared down at you. âgodâŠâ he whined when you lapped at his length, when you sucked at his tip⊠and he was about to fold in half when you took him deeper into your throat. and if he didnât knew better, if he hadnât seen the erotica books youâd sneaked into your quarters, he would have believed you had prior experience. âjesus, gorgeousâŠâ the hold on your locks tightened as you bobbed your head and slightly choked. âyouâre that desperate for me to fuck you, mh? gonna lube me up?â you nodded, teary eyes looking up at him as you gulped around his cock. he groaned. âsuch a good girlâŠâ he praised you. âbut i donât think itâll be necessary.â
in a blink you were underneath him, his narrow hips in between your soaked thighs. âthis pretty little thing is already soaking wet for me.â he chuckled when you squealed at the feeling of his rudy tip teasing your slit, bumping against your clit. spencer kissed and lapped at your neck, at the juncture of it. itâs as if the glands there called for him. he nibbled at it as he thrusted against the heat of your pussy lips. âso ready⊠i bet i could just slip right in.â you whimpered.
âpleaseâŠâ his hand curled around his cock, and tentatively pressed against your twitching, dribbling entrance. a gasp left you when he barely pushed, almost breaching, just to pull back. even in this state, even when the rut was making him basically go insane before your eyes⊠he was tempting you, taunting you. this was payback.
âplease what?â he licked at your glands, lips sucking a bruise against them, as if like that he could make your scent a beverage.
âplease, alpha.â he growled.
âfuck. you make it difficult to teach you a lesson.â your breath hitched as he pressed further and your eyes fell shut, he took your cheeks with his free hand. ânuh-huh. donât hide from me. look at me. i wanna see you take me.â and your eyes widened when, in a clean squelching swoop he thrusted inside your scorching walls. although, his knot still stood on the outside. he groaned. you moaned. it was the unleashing of a famine. âmine.â he growled and bit onto your lips, kissing you roughly as he started to move. he didnât give you time to adjust. it wasnât as if you needed it. you were so wet, his cock glided easily in and out of you. âsay it. say youâre mine.â
âiâm youâre spencer, iâm yours.â
âmy queen. my wife. my moon.â he growled against your mouth, tongue licking inside of it as his hands took ahold of your hips, so harshly you believed there would be bruises tomorrow morning. you couldnât wait to see them marring your skin on the mirror. marking you as his. âso tight⊠so warm⊠so perfect for me.
âspencerâŠ!â you whimpered as he sped up. he was desperate. starving. he drove into you like a man possessed, as if your pussy gave him life.
your g spot was bruised and milked over and over again with each snap of his hips. the now damp pretty curls on his base slightly tickled your clit, reminding you that there was still a part of him you hadnât discovered, taken, made yoursâŠ
your legs surrounded his hips, talons sinking against his lower back as you pulled from him and pushed your hips against his next thrust. you felt the throb of his cock against your clenching walls when his knot breached your entrance. he gasped and trembled. âfuck. what⊠what are you doing?â you pulled from him closer.
âi can take it. please, spencer⊠make me take it.â he groaned, panting, canines digging into his lower lip until he tasted iron.
âyou know itâll hurt you, right?â
âi wouldnât mind hurting if itâs for my husband.â you muttered against his lips, and licked the tear of blood on them.
âfuck. how can youâŠ?â he stopped himself, his words stuck inside his chest as he gulped.
how could you be this perfect? how could he deserve you?
âplease.â and how could he deny you? deny his queen? his goddess? his moon?
the stretch was almost unbearable. spencer had spat on his knot, trying to make it easier for you. but taking it, as a human, was a very tight fit and incredible feat.
he strived to distract you, of course, he peppered your face with kisses, licked at the salty tears that left your gorgeous doe eyes and swallowed your whimpers of pain as he encouraged you. his hungry eyes took in the sight of your pretty pussy lips spreading around him, slowly sucking and letting him in. they were pinkish now, puffy due to his previous lapping and sucking and now his animalistic thrusts. the sight was breathtaking.
âiâm sorry. iâm so sorry, baby. i know it must hurt but youâre taking it so well, youâre taking me so goodâŠâ when it finally popped inside, you breathed in. you felt like you could pass out in pleasure. you were so full. he was in so deep⊠his dribbling tip was harshly pressed against your cervix. no space existed between you. âsuch a good girl⊠taking my knot. letting me knot her and pump her full of my pupsâŠâ he growled. and when your hips rocked in need, he didnât wait to start fucking fuck back into you. the popping of his knot in and out of that tight ring of muscles added a squelching, dirty and sick pleasure to your union⊠and the sight⊠jesus. the way your mound bulged with each new drive of his cock into your heatâŠ
you couldnât stop moaning. whimpering. whining. crying out his name as he battered your cervix, fucking you dumb until spit dribbled from your plushy lips. he acted like a real animal âlike the animal he wasâ when his tongue made sure to slurp the excess.
your high was approaching, you could almost taste it. spencer could smell it.
âclose, pretty? gonna cum all over my cock? milk it just like you did with my fingers?â you nodded in hiccups, nails digging on his shoulders. âgo ahead, show me how much you love my cock splitting you open.â
it was as if you were under a spell, âcause once the order, his permission, left his lips, you were crumbling. screaming. cumming and creaming so hard you feared once your vision turned white and your hearing clogged that youâd gone blind, deaf or died. maybe all of the above.
he kept fucking you through it. his canines lengthening, knot swelling. âso beautiful⊠gonna look even more once i pump you full, once i get you round with my pups. gonna look so plumpâŠâ his teeth nibbled at your perky nipples, making you gasp. âso prettily soft and swollenâŠâ he sucked on them, as if he hoped milk would already come out. he was awaiting the day he could milk your breasts with his lips, taste you and the way your body changed for his baby. all because of him. âyou want that, angel? want me to fuck all my cum into this greedy pussy or yours? knot you to make sure it takes? keep you plugged with it for hours before it swells down and iâm ready to do it all over again?â you nodded, desperately, tugging at his hair.
âyes, yes, yes, oh god spencer, please⊠i need it. i need your knot. need you to fuck me pregnant. want to give you pups.â he growled.
âthe take it.â and all breath left your lungs when you felt him thrust for one last time, deeply, knot locking in place as it swelled impossibly bigger, so big tears stung your eyes. âtake my cum. make me a daddy.â and you were cumming again when not only did he fill you up with his creamy, warm and thick cum, but sunk his teeth into the juncture of your neck hard enough to leave mark. to mar you. to finally⊠finally⊠make you his in the way that mattered. you were now his. body and soul. his wife before god, and his moon before the one that stood shining brightly above you.
rope after rope, he filled your womb. so much your belly swelled, his hot wicked tongue lapping at the wound he had just inflicted on your precious and perfect skin to clean it of any blood, to help it heal.
âmine.â he muttered against your lips, and you nodded.
âyours.â
spencer had always seen you as a lamb. precious, pure and fragile. prey. but he started to believe that it had been the other way all along.
iâm planning a part two. so donât worry! youâll be seeing more of these two. hope you liked it.đ€
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SURPRISE!! Of course I'm going to participate in Tumblr's most honored month đ„ł I've also just missed you guys like crazy đđ«¶đŒ Hereâs the lineup. Stay tuned. Tell me which one youâre the most excited for if ya feel like it ;) <3 - K
October 4th - Peter Parker
Kinks: Bondage, Mask kink, Just the tip
October 11th - Spencer Reid
Kinks: Dacryphilia, Cockwarming, Somno
October 18th - Aaron Hotchner
Kinks: Office sex, Age Gap, Exhibitionism
October 25th - Bob Reynolds
Kinks: Sex Pollen, Overstimulation, Breeding
October 31st - Peter Parker/Harry Osborn
Kinks: Threesome/Spitroasting, Soft/Hard Dom, Free use
October 31st - Spencer Reid
Kinks: Primal Play, Edging, Knife play, Costume sex
October 31st - Aaron Hotchner
Kinks: Thigh/Face fucking, Orgasm denial, Degradation mixed with praise, Dumbification
October 31st - Bob Reynolds/The Sentry
Kinks: Temperature play, Breath play, Body worship
youâre welcome! Youâre very sweet too. Love ur fics you always put so much effort into writing them I can tell because theyâre so good đ hope you find time to relax as well!
STOP I'LL CRY RN AHHHH!!! Thank you for this I love you anon MWAH <3333
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content warnings: NSFW, MDNI, 18+ content, unholy use of bible verses, inaccurate use of religious themes, oral (f), fingering (f), unprotected sex (wrap it before you tap it folks!!), p in v sex, creampie, please let me know if I missed anything!
a/n:this has been a LONG time coming but I finally finished it!! Huge huge thank you to @minswriting for helping motivate me and coming up with the title (again) (lyrics from Church by Chase Atlantic). Also thank you to my beloved @alsofoundinpeas for being supportive af
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Back at the station, you tried your hardest to focus on the task at hand, but your mind kept drifting back to the way Spencerâs lips felt on your skin, the way his fingers felt deep inside you, and the sounds he made when your mouth was wrapped around his cock. Each time you made eye contact with him, Spencer gave you a knowing smirk before shifting his attention back to his work. The day seemed to drag on, each minute feeling like an hour as you watched the clock. You almost jumped for joy when the team decided to call it quits for the day.
After finally getting back to the hotel for the night, you made a beeline to your room, desperate to find a way to pass the time until the coast would be clear to head to Spencerâs room. You intended to use the time to get ready, not wanting to look like a mess after the long work day. But instead you found yourself on the bed, staring at the ceiling, replaying the previous encounter yet again.Â
You knocked on his door, shifting between your feet as you waited for him to open it. The door swung open almost instantly, as if he were standing right there waiting for your arrival. He was still dressed, but his tie and cardigan have both been discarded on a chair in the room; his hair a mess. You could practically feel the desire behind his eyes.
âYou made it impossible for me to get work done today,â you say as you walk past him into the room.
âMy bad?â he responds, unsure if he should apologize.
"I mean it, Spencer. You've taken over my thoughts. I stared at that stupid map for hours, but couldn't think of anything but you," you say as you turn to face him, watching as he shuts the door and moves closer to you.
"And what do you suggest we do about that?" he teases, leaning in towards you.
âLet him kiss me with the kisses of his mouth- for your love is more delightful than wine. Song of Songs 1:2â you whisper before brushing your lips against his.Â
Spencer doesnât hesitate, kissing you greedily.
You wanted to take your time, finding the act of kissing him much more enjoyable than you anticipated, but you were still a little pent up from earlier and needed to hurry things along; judging by the tent in his pants, Spencer was feeling the same way. Without breaking the kiss, you nimbly unbutton his shirt; pushing it off his shoulders as he shrugs out of it. You run your hands down his bare torso, sending a shiver down his spine and a shaky breath slips from his mouth. His hands slide under your shirt, his fingers trailing up your sides. You pull back for a moment- just long enough to take off your shirt before capturing his lips with yours again in a needy kiss. You can feel him fumble with the hook of your bra, struggling to undo the clasp as you unbuckled his belt with ease, the proximity of your hands to his hard cock making it difficult for him to focus.Â
His lips move from yours to your jawline, trailing kisses from the spot where your jawline meets your neck just below your ear down to your collarbone. He finally manages to unhook your bra, pushing the straps off your shoulder until the garment slips off, landing on the growing pile of discarded clothing.
âHow beautiful you are, my darling. Oh how beautiful. Song of Songs 1:15,â he mumbles, admiring the sight of your bare chest.
âI thought quoting scripture was my thing,â you tease
âYou arenât the only one who knows the Bible, sweet girl," he murmurs as he presses open-mouth kisses to your breasts.
He wraps his mouth around one of your nipples, tongue flicking against the sensitive peak. You moan and arch into him, one of your hands tangling in his hair as a whimper escapes your lips. He smirks against your skin as he unzips your skirt, letting it slide down your legs. You step out of it as he continues kissing down your torso. He trails one of his hands between your thighs until his fingers brush against the soaked fabric of your panties.
He groans, "you're already so wet for me, baby."
"I told you- mmm- been thinking about you all day," you mumble, bucking your hips against his hand.
He hooks his fingers into the sides of your panties, pulling them down your legs and exposing your soaked core. He gently pushes you onto the bed, making quick work of removing his pants and boxers before climbing over you. You buck your hips when you feel his cock between your legs, whining for him to give you what you've been craving. He lines himself up with your entrance, teasing just the tip inside. He moans as you grind against him in need of friction. He makes eye contact with you as he finally starts to move his hips.
âJesus Christ,â you gasp when he pushes inside, his big cock stretching you out
He laughs breathlessly âNope, still meâ
You open your mouth to reply but your response is cut off with a moan as he bottoms out.Â
âFuck, angel, you feel so good,â he groans as he tries to give you time to adjust.Â
After a moment of getting used to the stretch, you mumble, âNeed you to move, Spence.â
He groans and slowly rocks his hips against yours, his cock slowly going in and out of your tight cunt. You can see in his face that heâs struggling to pace himself- desperate to lose himself in you. With every little whimper and moan that comes from you, his confidence seems to grow. His thrusts come faster and harder. You move your hands to his back, digging your nails into the skin as he slammed into you.
He slides one of his hands down to your thigh, moving your leg from its position around his waist and lifting it so it rests on his shoulder. The new angle allows him to hit your g-spot with every thrust, causing you to let out a string of curses under your breath. He smirks and kisses along your jawline, stopping by your ear to whisper, âRight there, huh?âÂ
âUh-huh,â you answer, unable to form a proper sentence- too lost in pleasure to think of anything other than the way his cock is pounding into you.Â
He groans when he feels your walls clench around his length. He slides his hand down to rub figure-8s on your clit, âCum for me, angel. I want to feel you cum around me."
You arch up into him, crying out his name as your orgasm hits you,, wave after wave of pleasure wracking your body as he keeps moving his hips. You can feel his cock stiffen as he gets close, his thrusts increasing in speed and force. He gripped your leg tightly as he pressed himself into you and filled your sinful cunt with his cum as he chanted your name- unable to think of anything other than the pleasantly overwhelming sensation of his cock buried in your pussy.Â
You both lie there panting heavily as you try to come down. Spencer lazily kisses along your shoulder as he catches his breath. He carefully pulls out of you, causing a whine to slip from your mouth at the loss.
He kisses his way down your body, mumbling between kisses, "Gonna clean you up, sweet girl.
âLet my beloved come into his garden and taste its choice fruits Song of Songs 4:16,â you mumble, the verse falling from your lips without a second thought. You see Spencer smirk as he spreads your legs further and settles between them, his face level with your sensitive cunt.
You can hear the sharp intake of his breath as he catches sight of his cum leaking from you.
You shiver in anticipation when you feel his breath on your core. He chuckles and looks up at you, making eye contact before his tongue darts out and he tentatively licks a stripe up your folds causing you to gasp. Your hands instinctively reach for him, tangling your fingers in his curls. He moans against your core when you tug on his hair, eliciting a whimper from you. He gently sucks on your sensitive clit, savoring the needy sounds you were making. Spencer gathers some of the combination of your wetness and his cum on his fingers. He shifts and holds his glistening fingers up to your lips, "Have a taste."
You lick his fingers clean, maintaining eye contact, moaning as the taste hits your tongue. His mouth was instantly back on you, his eyes fluttering shut as he started to devour you. He hummed against you as you whined and moaned with each movement of his tongue. He pushed his fingers into your wet cunt, pumping them in and out to bring you closer to release. Your thighs clamped around him and you held him in place by his hair, desperate for more.
âThat's it. Let me take care of you, angel,â he mumbled, feeling your walls flutter around his fingers
He continues his ministrations, pumping his fingers into your wet cunt as he teases your clit with his tongue. He hooks his fingers just right and it's enough to send you over the edge. You arch into him, tugging on his hair as he works you through your orgasm, not stopping until you're writhing from the overstimulation. He slips his fingers from you, looking up at you as he sucks them clean with a satisfied moan. He smirks at the small noise you make in response before kissing his way up your torso until he's eye level with you.
âI might be your Jesus, but youâre my personal Aphrodite,â he murmurs as he brushes a stray hair out of your face.
âWrong pantheon, Spence," you retort with a breathless laugh
âActually, there's a lot of parallels between Greek myths and biblical stories, likely because of the shared culture of those creating each mythos. For example, the miracles performed by Jesus are similar to those said to have been performed by Asclepius, the Greek god of medicine," he explains, wrapping an arm around you to pull you close.
You settle against him, resting your head on his chest. He presses a light kiss to your forehead, mumbling "you did so good, angel. Get some rest now."
You hum in acknowledgment as you close your eyes, drifting off in his arms.
Hi guys!! First things first, I love all of you SO MUCH and I miss you!!! I just wanted to hop on and apologize for being so absent. Things have been so up and down for a while and unfortunately between my health and just being stressed in general Iâve had horrific writerâs block đ I just wanted you guys to know I havenât abandoned my blog completely and that (hopefully soon) Iâll be back to writing and posting on a more regular basis now that Iâm starting to get things figured out. Until then, thank you for being so patient with me đ«¶đŒ With all my love, K
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THANK YOU LOVERRRRR!!! đ«¶đŒ My birthday was July 12th Iâm just super late logging in forgive me guys đ
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content warnings: spoilers for s15, seizure, explosion, brain injury, hospital, ER, near death experience (if I missed anything please let me know!!)
a/n: I'm coming back with some ANGST, no happy ending just SADNESS because "reckless driving" makes me feel things- consider this your warning. A huge thank you (and so much love) to @alsofoundinpeas for letting me spam her when I got the idea for this one! Also much love to my beta readers @brattyspence and @mercy-burning <3
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It started small: Spencer making sure he was ahead of you when clearing a room, stepping in front of you to cuff an unsub, little things like that. A part of you knew he was being needlessly reckless, but you knew Spencer was trying to protect you so let it slide. You shouldnât have. It only got more intense, like he was scared of losing you at any moment. He started to put your safety over his wellbeing, almost messing up an arrest because he thought the unsub was going to hurt you, arguing with you about the way you confronted a different unsub; it was starting to interfere with your work and deep down, you knew it wouldnât end well, but you couldnât bring yourself to give up on your relationship- not yet, anyways.Â
Everything came to a head when the team was going after Everett Lynch aka The Chameleon. You knew his mother was inside and operating under the impression that Roberta was planning to kill her son, you knew you needed to act fast. As you started to lead the SWAT team inside, JJ got a call from Rossi informing her that Robertaâs plan wasnât to kill Lynch, but to die with him. Youâre too close to the door for her to get your attention, but she manages to tell Spencer who takes off towards you, shouting your name. He throws himself at you and shields you from the explosion, taking the brunt of the blast. The two of you appear largely unscathed, but your ears wonât stop ringing. The medics check over both of you and give you the a-okay to fly home. The flight is quiet with everyone finding their own little spot on the plane to decompress after the difficult case and its literally explosive conclusion. You donât speak to Spencer, though you know you need to, especially after he saved your life, but you know this isnât a discussion you can have with the rest of the team around so instead you absentmindedly scroll on your phone, occasionally glancing at him from your seat on the opposite end of the plane. Itâs obvious heâs deep in thought, but then again, so is everyone else. You make yourself comfortable for the duration of the flight, ignoring the conversation youâll need to have soon.
  Once the plane lands, you all go your separate ways. You almost reach out to Spencer, but ultimately decide you need to be alone to figure out what youâre going to say to him. You know that itâs becoming increasingly obvious that heâd die for you and youâre not sure you feel as strongly about him. The next morning you head into work, determined to talk this out with him. As the team gathers around the table for a debrief, he still hasnât shown. Once youâve all worked out that Everett Lynch is still alive, Emily sends you with Garcia to check up on Spencer while JJ, Alvez, and Simmons work on contacting state troopers and Rossi lets his wife know the situation. When you arrive at his place, you knock on the door, but thereâs no answer. You pull out the spare key you have for emergencies and unlock the door, pushing it open to step inside.Â
  When you see him collapsed on the floor, your heart drops to your stomach. It hits you that this has to be connected to the blast yesterday, the guilt eating you alive as you kneel down next to him and frantically try to wake him up while Garcia calls the ambulance. You do your best to stay calm and remember your first aid training as he starts to have a seizure. The next 30 minutes are a blur as the medics arrive and transport him to the nearest ER. Youâre in the lobby with Garcia as they wheel him past, the two of you following into his room. You intend to stay by his side until he wakes up, but your phone beeps, signaling a message from Emily, and you know you have to go help with Lynch. You make it back to the Bureau, but the image of Spencer on his apartment floor hasnât left your mind. You force yourself to focus as you walk into the conference room and grab a chair.Â
 Youâre all sitting around the round table when Garcia calls to give an update; heâs stable and heâs opened his eyes. As you listen to JJ say, âplease tell him I will be there as soon as I can,â it hits you that you canât see him like that again- in a hospital bed after nearly dying from a brain injury he got while protecting you. You canât watch him continually risk his life for you when you arenât sure youâd do the same for him.Â
 After the team arrests Lynch, you pull Emily aside before she can leave to go visit Spencer. You let her know that you need to take some time off and that youâll be putting in for a transfer. You can tell she wants to encourage you to stay, but there must be something in your eyes that lets her know youâve already made up your mind. She reluctantly agrees and tells you that sheâs loved working with you, to let her know if you ever need anything, and that if you change your mind, sheâll make a spot for you. You give her a hug and a terse smile before saying goodbye. Despite your guilt over the situation, you canât bring yourself to step foot in that hospital room, knowing the look on Spencerâs face when he finds out will break your heart. You hope that Spencer will forgive you for leaving like this, but you canât say goodbye; seeing him will only drag you back in and you donât want him to die for you. Instead, youâll go home and force yourself to move on from the case, the team, and Spencer; convincing yourself that no matter how much youâll miss them, this is for the best.