Ugh

one thing i have always been kinda jealous of other people over is that they just seem to have a lot of fun and i don't. like at most i am content and i remember thinking as a kid that everyone was acting so silly and goofy and funny as most children do and i always wondered how they could take things so lightly that. i wish i could just have a good time too but i just stand there like ive just seen someone get shot all the time

is anyone else just constantly waiting for something they can't even name. im worried i'll spend my whole life waiting because the years never come back once they're gone but im never really here to see them. im just in my head anticipating something better. something better that isn't even coming

fuck y’all if you laid up with your lil boo rn i hope the ceiling fan fall on y'all

how does everybody just live in the world? I can't seem to do it