be nice to nice

what if instead of not writing the fics i want to write i just start posting about them huh

i am probably gonna regret this but i’m thinking about middle school mickey having a crush on lip and lip buying weed from him one time and it’s like the only time they have any sort of conversation. mickey goes home and giggles against his pillow and is so disgusted with himself because lip is a /boy/ and also a gallagher and he does so well in school it is disgusting, honestly why does mickey even care that they talked. but then he keeps finding himself making excuses to his cousins so that he can be alone at the playground when dealing, and lip starts buying on a regular basis. they talk a lot and they get along pretty well and mickey finds himself creating the illusion of a friendship. he never talks about himself but they talk about videogames and about people in school and lip doesn’t share many personal stuff either but he fishes for it as subtly as he can. he starts finding ways to mix the weed so he can have a few spliffs that terry doesn’t know about to smoke with lip and the first time he offers lip says they should go somewhere people can’t see and mickey has this bubbly awful sensation in his stomach and it feels so incredibly addictive. at that time he spends an awful amount of time drawing and he starts to wonder what would lip think of his drawings because they are always commenting on videogame arts and such, so he starts to doodle when he is at the playground hoping lip will show up and sneak a peak, and he does. lip says it’s sick and he should consider graffiti which is stupid because where the fuck would mickey get the paint, so they steal it from a store and lip is so bad at it they almost get caught, but it’s the most fun mickey has had in his life. and they meet up in the middle at the night and mickey sucks at graffitiing at the end so they end up only drawing penises and smoking weed and drinking whiskey mickey shoplifted earlier with no plans in mind, okay? and they talk about girls and life and plans and he never had someone like that in his life, but then lip just moves along and one day mickey ends up with ian and he barely even remembers he once was a kid with a crush on his husband’s brother.

i really need to watch the new episode

unexpected things that trigger anxiety attacks in me: needing to poo and not being able to because the bathroom is occupied

mickey milkovich