Lyla

07|2021

Today marks 4 years of being smoke-free. I have not drunk alcohol for more than 5 years. 8 years ago I went to Berlin, went through one of my deepest valleys and then startet to live physically and mentally healthier.

My background is in the left alternative/autonomous scene. Lots of concerts, lots of alcohol, no plan. Today I am 6 years in my job and have a lot of moments in which I miss my old life. Especially the escalation. Not the alcohol, but not smoking is still so hard for me after 4 years and I would be lost without my Indian incense sticks.

Today could be a day to celebrate, but it’s a really hard day. I’m listening to an old time band and it triggers my addiction extremely. So bad that I feel sorry for myself and cry.

(Fun Fact: I used so many Indian incense sticks today that my fire detector sounded the alarm.)

Untitled by Cassidy Scanlon on Flickr.

Piutrentanove by Iciar J. Carrasco on Flickr.

setembro 2014 by Sarita Lolita on Flickr.