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I finally got my Iratze-Tattoo. And I'm massively in love with it.

As you can see, I have quite a lot of self harm scars covering my arm, and yes, it hurt like hell. But it was oh so worth it. I keep staring at this beautiful piece and can't actually believe it's really there.

Thank you @cassandraclare for your books, the Shadowhunter world, everything about it. It kept me sane in times of sadness, it's your books I always come back to. The Iratze is (at least for me) there to heal my damaged soul, and it's black and not white because recovery never ends, and therefore the healing rune will not stop working.

This is my second Shadowhunter tattoo, the Angelic power/Enkeli rune is on my back. I wonder how many more will follow.

I'm going through a breakup after 7 years of relationship, I did something extremely stupid, and I feel like I should punish myself. But at the same time, no one really cares whether I'm around or not. So why not take the blade and end it all right away?

Well... I'm currently at my parent's house since I can't stay in the flat I used to share with my boyfriend, or ex, or whatever the fuck he is right now, but my parents aren't here, and they won't be until mid March. I don't want them to find my body.

Also, my dog is here, who's gonna care for her if I kill myself right now?

And it's not like I haven't tried to kill myself before, it just never worked out, so why should it now?

Why am I even writing this post when no one is going to bother reading it?