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 “Yes, darling?” I look at him, suddenly what I want to say is stuck in my throat. It's like he can tell I have something important I want to tell him. “Love what is it?” “I- um.” “Breath it’s okay if you want to wait until tomorrow to tell me it’s alright.” he smiles and gently kisses my forehead, this just confirms that I have to tell him tonight. “Christopher you are the only man that has treated me with a molecule of respect, I-I want you to be the person I lose my virginity to you… tonight.” I stare at him in the eyes, hoping I won't be rejected. He looks at me smiling gently, he rubs my arms and kisses me ever so softly on the lips. “Are you sure you want to, I don't want you to feel pressured, you said you wanted to wait until marriage and we can.” I look at him, I pull his face to me and kiss him roughly. “I never thought anyone would show me love unless they wanted to marry me, but you, you treat me like a person and I love you for that.” “I love you for the person you are darling.” His hands slide from my waist to cup my face, he kisses me softly, I think it was the softest kiss I have ever experienced. He guides me to the bed without ever once breaking the kiss, the back of my knees hit the edge of the bed, he picks me up by my thighs and sets me on the bed. He stands between my legs, his large calloused hands slowly riding up my thighs and under my skirt, he breaks the kiss when his fingers get to my garters silently asking me for permission. I nod my head eagerly, I love how he takes his time, slowly releasing the clasps and moving down my legs skimming his hands over my knee-highs. He removes my heels like a reverse Cinderella moment, gazing into my eyes as he slides my knee-highs down to my ankles and off my feet. He looks like he’s just waiting for me to tell him to stop, he really doesn't want to hurt me or scare me, I can see it in the way he gingerly touches me like I’m a china doll that will break if he’s too rough with me. He kisses my leg going to my inner thigh, he pauses to look at me. “My love, may I taste you?” I nod, he hooks his fingers in the bands of my panties dragging them down my legs, he leaves wet kisses on my inner thigh getting closer and closer to my core. Christopher nudges me with his nose but stops to look at me. “If at any moment you feel uncomfortable or want to stop for any reason say so.” His voice is firm but kind, I let Christopher know I understand by pulling him up for a kiss. 

“Christopher I trust you completely, I know you won't hurt me.” He lowers himself between my legs licking a strip up my core, moaning from the sensitivity he works his tongue on my clit, he sucks on the sensitive bundle of nerves. My hips buck trying to get more friction from his finger that caresses my entrance, he slips a finger into me, he begins moving it in and out of me, my fingers curl in the bedsheets at the stimulation of his hands and mouth on my most sensitive place. Christopher picks up the pace slightly, adding a second finger and curling them. I feel the knot in the pit of my stomach getting tighter and tighter, it feels stronger than the first time, but God does it feel so fucking good. My voice peaks as my body constricts around his fingers, I feel his tongue lapping up everything my body has to offer him, he moans before pulling away, his lips and chin gleam in the light, it drips down his bare torso. “My darling, you taste delicious, do you know what you just did?” I pant and shake my head no. “You just squirted all over me, and I couldn’t be prouder, do you want to keep going love, or do you want to stop?” “Keep going, please I don’t want to wait.” He smiles that award winning smile, he wipes his mouth before reaching into the nightstand and pulling out a condom and lubricant. He no longer has his towel on, he opens the condom carefully with his teeth, he pinches the tip and rolls it on himself. He applies a generous amount of lube to his length, rubbing it on then applying some to me. He strips me of the rest of my clothing, kissing me deeply as he rubs his tip against me, he slowly pushes into me. He goes slow stopping every so often but, I can’t say it didn’t hurt, I wince as he pushes the rest of the way into me. Stopping once he’s fully inside of me he waits patiently for me to adjust to his size,  Christopher groans when I accidentally clench around him, I buck my hips to let him know he can move. He moves his hips slowly to not cause me any pain, gradually gaining speed when I’m comfortable, he fluidly moves in and out of me. Whispering sweet nothings in my ear, or chests rub together he gently fondles my breast, I feel the knot in my stomach tighten. “Darling, I love you .” He whispered in a husky voice. I kiss his lips as I cum around him moaning in his mouth, he groans continuing to move his hips, he halts his movement burying himself deep inside of me. He pulls himself out taking off the condom, tying it up and tossing it away, he picks me up putting me under the covers, he crawls in next to me cuddling me and peppering my face in kisses. “You did so well my darling, rest you need it, I’ll order us food for tonight and wake you when it's here.” He stays with me until I drift asleep, I mumble ‘I love you’ while cuddling into his chest.

As the voices got louder in my head I climbed over the barrier and stood on the edge as my toes dangle off the edge. Suddenly I'm free- "Miss, are you okay?" My thoughts are being interrupted as I'm about to fall. I look to see a stranger looking at me. "I'm fine please leave." I try to assure the man but then he begins to walk towards me. "Leave me be!" I look at the ground below me and see images of me dead on the ground fill my head. "Why would I leave you when I know what you want to do?" He slowly steps closer, he reaches his hand out to me, I stare at the ground below me. “Let me help you, take my hand.” I’m so distracted I don’t notice he’s wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me off of the barrier,  he places me on the ground gently, my bare touching the pavement. I turned around to the stranger and looked at him as tears ran down my face, he wiped them away with the pad of his thumb. “You are too beautiful to cry, come let's get you home.” “I don’t have one. I lost my house after my parents died.” “Come with me, you can stay with me, but I have to ask have you taken anything like pills or poison or anything?” I shake my head no, I wrap my arms around myself feeling the cold, he takes his jacket off and wraps it around me. “What’s your name?” I ask as he leads me to his car by the end of the bridge. “I’m Gerard, what’s your name beautiful?” “I’m Jessica, but call me Jess.” “Jess.” He whispers as if testing my name on his lips. He opens the passenger side door for me, I sit down in the seat and he shuts the door gently to not startle me.