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I know it's partially because I love the new Charli XCX song and Jacob Elordi is super attractive, but I'm warming up to the idea of the new Wuthering Heights movie. At first, it was super disappointing to see Emerald Fennell whitewashing Heathcliff and seemingly messing up the story again. However, after hearing that it's more about her first impressions of reading the book and then seeing the video where there's a bedroom that's meant to be covered in Margot Robbie's skin...? Like it's definitely not going to be a book adaptation at all and my interest is piqued, but also I feel like it'll be a trainwreck bc it's Emerald Fennell but in a really fun way

I would like to disappear from the world. I don't belong here. Everything that happened to create me was a series of aberrations. I am the ultimate aberration. I was meant to be on Jupiter

sufjan stevens, if the mood should find you, i will happily offer you my body for whatever gratification you may seek

I'm exhausted with things not working out for me and being told I don't try hard enough. I try hard every day. I try hard every day on my own and no one lifts a finger to help me. I bother no one. I could have quit life a long time but I chose to persevere, and I feel like I'm constantly being punished as a result.

I need to spend more time this year skulking around libraries

I would like to become invisible. I wasted so much time wanting someone to acknowledge that I was brilliant or special. Then I broke my heart, wanting to sparkle for someone who would never care no matter how brightly I shone. This made me realize how special I was to myself. I feel fraudulent when I have to meet someone else's expectations because I have to contextualize myself as a smaller being. I want to participate in the world and disappear from it as I please. People pay attention to me only when they think I have something of value to offer them, but I pay attention to people because I like to see little quirks in people and they are beautiful. I would like to flit through the world and only be of consequence when I decide to be of consequence. I would like to become invisible.