yεαн, ιт’ѕ ɴιcε тo rεмιɴιѕcε ѕoмεтιмεѕ. ⤷ Your husband is gone and you're stuck wishing you had more time with the man who left too soon. Suddenly you're brought back to the moments that happened leading up to this moment, the one of many ways you could think of him. You can try to fix it, or- well if that doesn't work, then you'll just join him soon.
cw: fluff at the start and in between, hurt/no (kind of?) comfort, manga spoilers, switching between reader and gojos pov, angst, wc 8.2k
a/n: okay i'm not too proud of how this turned out 🙁 i'm also not sure if anyone has done this idea before but if someone has please let me know! This is heavily inspired by the man who left too soon by beabadoobee even if the meanings aren't exactly the same! I've been working on this for awhile tho hehe
pictures are NOT MINE !!! credits to the original creators on pinterest
Satoru Gojo is currently lying on the moon.
No scratch, that he's over the moon! The love of his life has just said yes to being his girlfriend. You are the love of his life, you just didn't know it yet. He couldn't help the tears that were dribbling down his face, and now your hands were currently cupping his cheeks and wiping the tears, how could this day get any better?
"Geez Satoru, that's a little dramatic don't you think?" Suguru came by and teased, earning a little giggle from shoko (as she dropped her cigarette in the process).
Everyone had earned a little something that day: Satoru had someone to love more than ever, you had someone that loves you more than ever, Suguru had earned a "sister in law" and someone he could tease relentlessly, and shoko had earned a position as your maid of honor. (you both just didn't know it yet)
The days that followed were a bliss, your group became closer than ever. Satoru never passed up a chance to show off some pda even if nanami would grumble and haibara would just chuckle.
"Happy one month anniversary sweetheart! Look what I got you!" He was beaming at you, his leg started bouncing up and down like he was unable to wait any longer for you to open your gift. Truth be told you're a bit scared to open this, who knows what your boyfriend that always does the most would get you.
Reluctantly you snapped your eyes shut and peeled off the tape to lift open the box, when your eyes opened again, you found a golden heart locket, inside was a picture of you and Satoru on your first date. You hesitated before lifting up the box you've been holding for him,"Oh Toru i'm sorry i would've gotten something bigger if I knew.."
You expected disappointment or at least for his face to drop, but if anything he beamed even brighter and pulled you into him tightly. "Kikufu? these are the fancy kind! Oh I love it!" A smile appeared on your face as Satoru placed kisses anywhere he could find.
When summer happened, your group hung out anywhere they could. Whether it was at the beach, karaoke night (never let haibara on the mic again), or on a rooftop to watch fireworks. When the third years were able to drink-you four would often go out late at night-often waking up in a horrible state the morning after.
The times were swallowed up as more memories were created, and not long after did your one year anniversary with your boyfriend happen. There's nothing he'd keep from you, so when he started sneaking around...truth be told you were a bit scared.
One afternoon, Shoko and Geto had pulled you aside to tell you they couldn't find Satoru, somehow they got Nanami and Haibara to join in too. The latter gave you a piece of paper that he found on Satoru's desk and urged you to find him quickly. You recognized the location, it's a dark and shiny place, sunlight hidden by trees all around yet accompanied by an ethereal pond nearby. Satoru often took you on dates here, a quiet and much needed picnic in a beautiful park.
Following the trail, you spread open the bundle of vines and stepped in the scenery. The area itself was dark but there were lights hung up on branches, along with a patterned blanket that laid nicely on the grass. A small milky brown basket sat on top nicely, next to it was a few little peonies in a dainty vase. Just as you were admiring the cute area, Satoru jumped from out of nowhere and wrapped his hands around you. You screamed and hit him the face before covering your mouth with shock when you realized who it was.
"Ouch, geez that's not a nice thing to do to someone's face."
Little giggles escaped you, you felt bad so you rubbed gently over the red mark, "Toru what is all this?" You turned back to the area, noticing how beautifully decorated it was and how much thought was put into it. You turned back around and noticed he had put a bracelet on you, a golden one with a bright blue gem in the middle, matching his eyes.
"Happy one year anniversary sweetheart!! So what'd you get me?"
You pulled away slightly, a confused look finding its way onto your face. You stayed silent, watching Satoru's face drop slowly like you just kicked him. His voice sounded pitiful when he asked again, "Did you for- hey!"
You bursted out laughing, unable to hold it in any longer. This was your payback for the pranks he pulled on you. You wiped away the fake tears before pulling out a box. "Here," you lifted up a star and moon necklace along with your initials attached. "One for you, and one for me, now we can always be together."
A wide grin appeared on his face, he held up the necklace closely before hooking it around his neck. Afterwards he offered to put yours on, he finished in a second, of course not forgetting to give you a peck on the cheek afterwards. His voice was honeyed when he talked next to your ear, "We already are always together, C'mon let's go swim! The water looks clear at this time."
"Toru I didn't bring my swim clothes."
"Way ahead of ya!" As he reached inside his bag and pulled them out, "you left them at my place last time."
It truly is a perfect afternoon.
One thing that comes with dating Satoru is ubiquity, you swear his shadow follows you all day-you can feel remnants of his cursed energy everywhere. Maybe he's making sure that you're okay, not that you minded that much.
Everything was perfect, too perfect. Almost as if the universe was apologizing for what was going to happen next.
And you knew you were right when you received the report of Haibara's death.
Your group number went from six down to five, maybe even four. You noticed how Nanami kept to himself even more after that. He never showed it, but the death of his best friend affected more than he wanted to admit. Shoko didn't take the news too well either, though she got busying with studying and mourned when she got the chance.
Things would never be the same, but you hoped everything would improve at least. Until one day it was just you and Satoru during lunch did you finally realize how wrong everything was.
"Toru, where is everyone else?" His head was on your thighs as you two sat underneath a tree. His mouth occasionally opening for you to feed him a bite either from his lunch or yours.
Gojo thought for a moment and swallowed before responding, "Now that I think about it, I really haven't seen them either. Suguru keeps disappearing somewhere, Shoko has to study for her medical stuff, ugh. Nanami's either training or in his room." He paused-opening his mouth for you to plop some more rice in his mouth. He chewed contently before continuing, "It's been just us two sweets, guess it was meant to be huh?" His eyebrows raised teasingly before you smacked him and went quiet again.
He noticed and sat up, hands coming on your face to hold you gently. "Hey i'm sure they're alright, I know we've been distant but everything with be alright again."
You looked up to meet his eyes and hesitated before nodding slowly. Upon seeing that, Gojo smirked, "Now it's my turn to feed you!" You giggled again before leaning down to lay your head on his lap. The worry fading away, for now at least.
Later that day Gojo thought about it some more as he prepared for his next mission with Suguru tomorrow. The star plasma vessel was important, whatever, he and suguru were the strongest. They were going to get back so much without as a single scratch, and if not...
He turned around to face you lying on his bed, eyes closed breathing softly. As long you stay, you both can lounge about and he'll be okay.
Then the worst happened. The star plasma vessel was killed. The mission has failed. Gojo didn't want to admit it, but he knew him and Suguru has drifted apart after. Especially since he had became the strongest. He was so proud of himself for figuring out how to use hollow purple and couldn't wait to tell you all about it.
All this newfound fame about being the strongest has put a gap between him and everyone else. Of course he still has you to talk to when Suguru wasn't up to it or Shoko was busy. He'd been so caught up in everything that he hadn't even noticed his best friend spiraling further and further.
You didn't like being this observant, though it's been a habit of yours. After the news, it felt like you and everyone else were a million miles away. When Satoru became the strongest, he got even cockier and was sent on more dangerous missions. Whenever he wasn't on missions, he'd be wrapped around you, next to you, laying on you, something like that. You missed Haibara, he was the type of person that could put a smile on everyone's face without trying. Except now he's away, a million miles away.
So while Suguru was just all alone, sitting at home; Satoru was completely unaware, the only two things he knew was that he was the strongest, and he wanted to be with you.
On his own or not, he had no way to know what was going to happen or not. You, Gojo, and Shoko all came to wish Suguru a good luck on his mission at a small village. Suguru turned back with a small smile, waving everyone good bye as he promised everyone he'd be back soon.
Except Suguru Geto never came back. At least not until a few years later, but until then
The morning after, your teacher found Gojo and gave him the news, Suguru Geto has defected. Gojo didn't take the news well, you noticed his palm was bleeding from crushing a rock too tight. Was it out of anger? Or hurt? You couldn't figure out. Your group number went from four to three. Only now it felt like everyone was drifting further and further away.
You really did miss him here. Your group wouldn't be complete if one person was missing, you didn't hear anything for awhile. Though you heard from shoko one morning that she found Suguru near that kfc you guys rarely went to. Him and Gojo fell out completely afterwards, deep inside you knew Gojo would never forget his best friend completely.
Satoru kept to himself for days afterwards, it was like Suguru took the sun with him when he left. Clouds are closing in more often, covering the training grounds. One night you noticed a figure sitting on a bench, soaked from head to toe.
Gojo is getting tired of being by himself.
You saw him while walking out to head to a nearby convenience store to get drinks, you decided to give him some time along and maybe talk to him when you get back.
The trip was smooth and you got everything you needed, on the way out you bumped into someone. You quickly straightened up to apologize before meeting a face you knew too well. A face that you hadn't seen since a few nights ago.
He faced you, that soft grin of his appearing, "Hey, it's been awhile hasn't it?"
"Yeah it has, can we talk?"
"Unless you're here to reprimand me or convince me to change my mind i don't see why not."
He nodded, motioning for you to continue. You held up a pack of cigarettes, offering him one. He took one before speaking, "Didn't know you smoke." You answered back,"I don't, it's for shoko, hopefully she won't mind." You took a deep breath before continuing, "Satoru hasn't been okay since you left, he still seems pretty affected even if he doesn't tell anyone. Shoko's been worried about you too even if he hides it well. Yaga sensei was pretty mad, I don't think i've ever seen him that angry." You chuckled a bit, "I hope you've been taking care of yourself, if you're doing well it'll make Satoru feel better if he knows you are. We all miss you a lot, i still wonder about you time to time."
Suguru stayed quiet, listening to every word and not interrupting. "That's nice to hear, I do miss Satoru and you all, but i'm set on what I have to do. Those monkeys will pay, for Riko, Haibara, and anyone else we've lost. This wouldn't happen if it wasn't for them. I appreciate that you're still caring for me, and tell Satoru i'm doing well."
You nodded before pulling out the rest of the pack, "Here, think of it as a parting gift. Shoko needs to try and quit anyway, either that or she makes me buy her another one. Take care, okay suguru?"
He smiled and nodded, taking it thankfully before ruffling your hair and walking away. You were lost in thought as you walked back to your dorm, you knew there wasn't a point in making a scene. Cause at the end of the night people will believe what they want to believe, even if it'll kill then later on.
You found Satoru still on the same bench, clothes clinging tightly to him due to how wet he has. You took a seat next to him and held out a drink from his to take, in return he clung onto you tightly, his body shaking with sobs. You just held him until he calmed down.
A few years have passed by since then, you all have graduated. Everyone has been healing. You, Satoru, and Shoko all came back to work at jujutsu high; you and Satoru as teachers and Shoko at the infirmary. The two of you also took care of Megumi like he was your own, he was weary at first but warmed up to you. Well he was nice to you, not too much about Gojo.
And then it happened. The moment you both turned 23, Satoru took you back to your secret spot and proposed, and you couldn't have been any happier to say yes. Your wedding was beautiful. Megumi, Shoko, Nanami, your friends at Jujutsu High all attended, even your teacher too. No one else knew about this, but Satoru sent an invitation to invite Suguru. He would've done anything for him to be his best man, but he couldn't. It was like he had received a reply, though you swore you saw a pair of amethyst eyes lurking in the corner at the venue.
The days that followed passed by peacefully, Satoru found some students that became first years. You helped him teach them, once they became second years then you'd continue teaching them while Satoru would take on the new first years next year. You bonded nicely with the three other students, while Satoru focused a little more on Yuta Okkotsu to help with Rika. It was nice seeing their little group form, it reminded you of your student days with you own group.
Until one day Suguru Geto appeared at Jujutsu High. Gojo found him too being too close with one of the students, Yuta Okkotsu. That doesn't sound too bad, except Geto was preaching to him about some idea of a new world with no monkeys blah blah blah, straight bullshit.
"Satoru! Long time no see! And is that-?" He paused he turned to you, your hand was raised up in a protective manner-ready to activate your technique if necessary-though Geto had noticed the ring on your on finger.
"So you two got married, I bet the wedding was beautiful. Such a shame I didn't get to attend."
Huh? Is he acting oblivious? Satoru paused, he couldn't let the people around him know he had somehow contacted Suguru Geto by telling them about the invite.
Luckily you stepped in. "Well that's on you isn't it? Didn't seem like you were gonna get us a gift anyway."
"Maybe I would've, who knows?"
"Why is that? Cause you're just so rich from leading a cult and earning money from manipulating innocent people? And now you're busy spouting bullshit to my students?"
His jaw clenched visibly and he stepped closer, "I'd watch it if I were you. Just because i'm being rid of monkeys doesn't mean i'm above killing sorcerers that stand in my way."
Satoru pushed you behind him and kept an arm over you, "Don't even think of touching her."
Geto only smirked at him mockingly before turning to everyone else, "That's not why I was here anyways, i'm here to declare war."
While he was busy talking about his plan for the Night Parade of a hundred demons, your eyes darted between Satoru, Geto, his two girls, and your students. Whatever he was planning, it wasn't good. You peeked over at your husband, only to find that his jaw was clenched tight. You don't think you'd ever seen him this mad with someone he's close to, or at least was close to.
You snapped back to reality when Geto finished talking, that insufferable smirk still on his face. Did he not understand the gravity of what he was talking about.? The audacity.
"Let us curse each other to the death."
Damn right. Geto turned to leave when one of girls started talking about crepes when Satoru stepped forward to stop him.
"What makes you think we'll just let you leave."
Suddenly cursed spirits appeared all around, surrounding your students completely, "careful Satoru, your students are well in my grasp." He stared at everyone for a moment longer before holding on that cursed spirit letting it take him away.
As you watched that bird thing fly off in the sky, your mind only raced further with thoughts. Satoru was angry, the sorcerers around you weren't happy either. Your eyes turned back to your students, Maki, Toge, and Panda were all tense, Yuta seemed a bit shaken was ultimately seemed to be in distress. If Geto is talking to Yuta like that, he most likely wants something to do with Rika.
you know this won't end well.
A week later, you found Satoru sitting at his table with his head in his hands. Despite being the strongest, he had to admit he was worried still. You leaned against the doorway to watch him before talking, "Shouldn't you be training?"
Satoru turned to you, and for the first time, he let out the loudest laugh ever, a real one this time. "Me? train? who do you think i am?" You opened your arms, motioning for him to come to you, "well you should still be resting okay, c'mere."
He went over and melted in your arms, well at least you got him to relax a bit. Gojo has also been taking a break from teaching for a while, so you took on the role of preparing his students, he still appeared time to time. Sometimes, Gojo sits alone at home, lost in thought. He still wonders how his best friend could've turned on him like this, years ago they would've laughed about this together. No time to dwell on this, the parade is tomorrow night.
You joined some first grade sorcerers at kyoto and fought until dawn: when the news came out that all the curses were exorcised. Your first thought was to go back to jujutsu high and find the others, you expected everything but the school being destroyed and your students standing there. Immediately you ran over to ask what was going on, mainly you were relieved they were okay.
Yuta smiled sheepishly and told you everything that went on, and the others just nodded along. Apparently he had broken a curse and freed the spirit of Rika or something along those lines, you didn't really get it. Also apparently Yuta and Gojo are cousins? What? You looked around for your husband but found no trace of him anywhere.
When night came, you found in your shared room, sniffling quietly and curled up on the bed. "Satoru? Are you okay? What happened?" You went over and put a hand on his shoulder, he stiffened immediately at the contact before letting the words come out. His voice was broken when he spoke, "Suguru is dead....i..i killed him." He whimpered a little at the mention of that before burrowing his face deeper in the pillow.
"Do you need space or anything? I can go-" "No!" He took a deep breath before continuing, "Please don't go, stay. I - if you don't mind." You shifted closer and pulled him into you, letting him weep silently against you for as long as he needs. Satoru couldn't even get rid of the body, he didn't have the heart to. Soon, his sniffling quieted down into soft breathing, and you just sat there, letting him rest peacefully. With you, he felt safe and a million miles away from everything. Barely anyone ever saw him cry, to everyone else he was the strongest who wasn't affected by anything, to you, he was just your Toru.
Barely a year passed afterwards when new first years came to jujutsu high, Satoru became their teacher and you continued teaching the rest of the second years while one of their classmates was away in africa. Satoru seems happier than ever, and so did the students. After class, he usually treated you and all the kids for a treat.
Sometimes, in the quiet moments of night, you and Gojo would discuss on how much they were just like you. It was nice to reminisce on the good times, but of course in the world of jujutsu, the good times don't last long, because then came the Shibuya incident.
You still remember the day Satoru was sealed. It wasn't as if you could blame him, seeing his supposed to be dead best friend must've been traumatic. 19 days. 19 days he was kept in that prison realm. You had almost gotten used to waking up to an empty bed, almost. The news had reached most of the jujutsu society, and everywhere was chaos.
You barely even had time to mourn, because the culing games have started. You opted to stay at jujutsu high instead, keeping in contact with your students for updates. Yuta told you the "Geto" Gojo saw was actually someone named Kenjaku, he also told you they were working on a way to unseal him, to which you couldn't be any happier to hear.
The only student of yours that didn't participate in the culing games was Inumaki. He had lost an arm during the Shibuya incident and decided it'd be safer to not join. Smart boy. You helped him learn how to use weapons with one hand until he got better, him and Shoko were the only people you saw much. Most of the school was empty, though it stuck out, you had other things to worry about.
Only the edge of your mind was torn. But you knew Satoru would want you to stay the way you are, he knew you were strong enough to be okay.
The day he was unsealed was (one) of the best day(s) of your life, coming in right behind your wedding day and the day your entire group was together. The moment he teleported home, he collapsed into you, breaking completely. You hadn't ever seen him this vulnerable, not when his best friend died, not when he almost died, and not when his best friend appeared right before him. Tears soaked your shirt immediately as his sobs echoed throughout the living room. He was desperate to hold you, he doesn't think he could ever be away from you for that long ever again and be okay.
When his sniffling became quiet, he told you everything. How horrible it was in there, how much he was dying to lay in your arms, how he would've went crazy if he stayed in there any longer. Then, he told you about how Megumi had been taken over by the king of curses and he had made a deal to fight him in a month. Satoru didn't explicitly say it, but you could tell he was worried, mainly because he had Megumi's ten shadows. So the two of you promised to make the most of this one month, just in case.
Well it's not like Satoru Gojo will lose, right?
No matter what happens, your bond will connect the scattered pieces once again and fix it. People say the heart is a thin line, it's like yours and his heart intersect, lines connected in a tight knot. That's why you're cuddling like this now, he wants to feel your heartbeat.
You don't want for tomorrow to dawn, you don't want to lose him, ever. It wasn't that you didn't believe in him, you didn't want to take your chances no matter what. Huh, it's like you're yearning for a fleeting dream, no think of the bright side. The night before, you called out to him, "Toru"
He looked up from his spot on your chest, "yes sweets?" There was a grin on his face, there always was. He looked so innocent for once, you almost burst into tears just looking at that. Your voice was shaky when you talked again, "come back, okay?"
he stared at you for a moment, tracing your features as if he'd never see them again. Somehow that grin became even wider, "of course I will, i'm satoru gojo remember?"
"yeah, but you're still my husband."
"And i'm the luckiest husband ever, plus are you seriously doubting me?"
it was always endless teasing with him no matter the time and place. And it was something you wouldn't ever trade. While you were busy thinking about him, he'll keep chasing the wishes he holds in his heart. He hopes that his voice will still reach you someday, even if he's not here anymore. If only he could become even stronger, deep in his heart, he always has wanted to change.
Tomorrow has dawned, and Satoru Gojo has left for his battle with the king of curses.
What can you do for him now?
It's december 24. Christmas is tomorrow. Huh, this was the date that Suguru died too. Satoru wouldn't miss the date of his friend's death anniversary, where is he?
He promised you'd celebrate christmas together, maybe burn down the kitchen along the way or have a flour fight with his students, he said you'd be together, where is he?
Satoru Gojo is the strongest, he swore on everything he'd win the fight. So where is he..?
He promised you that it would always be you two together, just you and your husband. He swore to you on his soul and everything that he'd never leave you, Satoru Gojo doesn't break promises. He would've told you if he was going to lose, but he told you he'd win.
So the body that's in front of you can't be Satoru Gojo, right? You don't look down, afraid of being wrong. The sobs that are falling out of you feel too foreign. You were watching every second of his fight, he was so close to winning.
Everything is going wrong, why is everything going wrong?
First it was Haibara, then it was geto, then nanami and now gojo is gone too. You turn to the only one left and almost collapse in her arms. Shoko has to hold you upright while letting her own cries ring out. You stared back at the split body in front of you, his eyes were dazed out and blood was dripping out on the side of his mouth. Your hands grabbed his carefully, Almost like it would break if you touched it too hard. His blue eyes, the loneliness you saw deep inside them, now a dull blue, no longer bright enough to light up a room. The wrinkles in his clothes made by the hands he held, they're damaged bad at best.
When Satoru had opened his eyes to death's door, it felt too surreal to be real. His best friend, his teacher, his close friends, they're all here. He had almost forgotten how good it felt to laugh with them. But someone is missing, you. If this is a dream, he never wants to wake up. If you're not here that means you must still be alive. He should be glad right?
Was it selfish to wish you were here? How perfect that would be.
The days when your hearts overlapped, you've felt easier to breathe more than ever, no matter how many times you get hurt. Now it's all gone.
You swear you've been seeing him everywhere, as if his shadow is still tracing after you after his death. The feeling doesn't hit you until a while later, it still felt as if he was just on a long mission far away. It's hard to feel at ease when the house either feels too empty or has a shadow lurking somewhere.
Standing on the balcony of your apartment, your mind started drifting further away. The love you kept protecting, you hope it will embrace him again someday. When the wind decides to move, you looked up at the sky and thought at least we used to look at the same moon. The one of many ways that you can think of him. Your hair that's billowing softly in the wind does little to cover your tears, you've lost track on how long it's been. You don't even know what happens before your eyes close and your body is lying on the floor of the balcony.
Next thing you know, you're being awaken by-
what? gojo? how is he here?
He's shaking your shoulders harshly and tapping your cheek repeatedly, his voice was way too high pitched and excited for someone that was supposed to be dead. "Sweetheart you've been sleeping all day, i thought you died."
"Ow! Okay that's enough Satoru stop!" You swatted his hands off of you and rubbed your cheeks irritably. Seriously. What is going on?!
"it's halloween! cmon we have to go out! I've prepared a special couples costume for us! And we can go trick or treating with the kids! I have so many ideas."
Oh yeah, you and Satoru went in a couples costume for halloween before he got sealed, what was it? Somehow he found a costume of giant kikufukus somehow and decided it was a great idea, i mean what the hell. You two ended up going out looking more like cotton balls anyway. But that was almost two months ago, and he shouldn't be here. So without thinking you reached over and slapped him in the face, hard.
"What the heck was that for!?"
oh. guess he's real. oops.
"satoru pinch me, am i dreaming?" Now it was his turn to be confused, "of course not. now are we going out or not."
You thought for a moment before nodding, deciding it's better to go along and figure out what was going on, "yeah just give me a second."
The only thing possible was either you were dreaming, which you already debunked, or you went back in time? How is that possible? Well if he's able to warp time and space with his infinity, you suppose time travel isn't out of the question.
You looked at the date again, and then it hit you. Halloween? Wasn't that the date Satoru Gojo was sealed?
You held Satoru's hand as you two walked along the halls of jujutsu high. If you really had gone back in time, does this mean you could stop him from getting sealed? Or even better, stop him from dying? You kept walking and didn't notice him stopping in front of you before you bumped into a hard chest.
Looking up you find Satoru staring right into your eyes, his arms gripped your arms tightly, forcing you to stay where you are. His voice was low, completely different to how he was in the morning when he talked, "What is going on with you? You've been acting weird all morning. Zoning out, asking me if you're dreaming, tell me what's going on?"
It took a bit before you were able to look in his eyes, you couldn't forget the look of his dull eyes even if they're glowing now. You couldn't even muster up the courage to lie to him, he had that effect on people. So the words just spilled out, "Satoru i'm worried, I dont remember anything. The only thing I remember is you dying and your body was split and your eyes were so terrifying to look at and- and then i passed out and woke up and suddenly everything is all fine and I don't know what's going on-" you paused suddenly when you noticed how surprised he look, you must sound really crazy right now.
"What a nightmare you had huh?" He laughed but it sounded forced, it didn't sound like he believes you. "Satoru it wasn't a nightmare, please don't go to Shibuya tonight. Don't leave me." You flung your arms around him and held as tightly as you could, dream or not you couldn't let him die like that again. Gojo stiffened before bring up an arm to rest on your lower back, the other one then coming up to hold you.
His thumb brushed your cheek softly before pressing a kiss on it, "Sweetheart I'd never leave you."
"That's what you said last time. Please, if you go you're gonna see Geto but it's not him! It's an imposter please if you see him just run away."
"What are you talking about? Suguru is dead?"
"I know he is but we found out that it wasn't him and it was a trap so you could get sealed please you have to believe me."
Gojo didn't respond to that, he had doubts. He trusted you, but you had been acting weird. It's not like Suguru will appear out of nowhere, right? Plus what was going on in Shibuya, why didn't you want him to go? And what's all this talk about him getting sealed? Part of him wanted to believe you, but the other part was questioning it all.
Truth be told, he was shocked when he received news of Shibuya later that night, exactly what you told him. He still had to go, though he kept your words in mind. So when Suguru appeared right before his eyes, no matter what, he couldn't stop the feelings that surged through him. No Satoru that's not him, you have to move. But he can't, his mind was screaming at him but his body stood still. Only when did he collapse onto his knees did he snap out of it.
Now sitting inside that prison realm, the only thing Gojo was thinking about was that you were right. You were right and he should've listened to you and it's his fault that he's in here. He knows it was hard to comprehend, he didn't want to leave you thinking he thought you were going crazy. There's so much things he has to mend.
Just because Satoru is sealed, you can't sit inside and do nothing. You had figured it out. If Gojo would fight Sukuna long enough for Nobara to wake up, there's a chance Gojo would win. Now, how do you tell him this information before he gets unsealed and plans that fight.
Geez, even when he was sealed you still dreamed of him.
So you told him everything. You remember after his death, Nobara woke up not long after, you learned about her technique because Satoru had told you when he taught her. Because she was able to use her technique on Sukuna, he would get stunned and that could be his chance.
You didn't know if dream him was real or not, but you told him everything you could. Never let his guard down, not even for a moment. You told him about the moment Sukuna would slash through the universe and he had to avoid that. He stayed quiet when you spilled about everything you could. This time taking in every word.
And his final words to you before he woke up, "I'm sorry."
When Satoru woke up, still trapped in that realm. he remembered your words and knew what he had to do. Now all that's left to do is wait until he'll be unsealed.
November 19, 2018. Gate reopened.
So the moment he got out and found the king of curses, he challenged a duel the same date and place. Just by an hour later of course.
This time, Satoru knew what you were talking about.
1. Don't let his guard down, 2. Avoid the final slash 3. Fight long enough for Nobara to stun Sukuna. 4. Win, of course.
December 24, 2018. Shinjuku Showdown
Satoru gojo was never a person to hide, he always put up a fight.
You were in a room with everyone else, watching the fight play out almost exactly like how you remembered. Domains were clashing, lots of red (was it blood or Gojo's powers?), blue, too many to count. Except this time, Gojo remembered your words and never let his guard down even once, he'd been able to dodge the slash that killed him last time.
And perfect timing, Nobara has just waken up. You couldn't tell when she used resonance but seeing sukuna get stunned told everyone enough. Gojo saw his chance to strike, and he did. Just then, dust appeared everywhere, covering the streets and blocking the screens from everyone completely.
It took minutes before the debris cleared, and Satoru Gojo was nowhere to be found. The only thing visible was a talking blob? Gross ew, until it faded away, leaving nothing but remnants and memories of the king of curses. And everyone started to cheer, well except Kashimo, he wanted to fight Sukuna. If he lost, that means your lover must've won right?
"Sweet...heart.." his voice was barely above a whisper, but you turned, and there he was. Your husband, alive, scars were littered all over his body, but none of that matters now. Most people wouldn't survive a fight with the king of curses, with the sole exception of Satoru Gojo of course. He had killed the king of curses and won, just like he said he would.
And Megumi was safe too! Yay! but let's focus on Gojo right now.
"Toru!" You ran into his arms and grasped onto him as tightly and as you could, a tired smile found its way onto his face. "Y'know when I killed the King of curses I had a dream where I reunited with everyone, those 3 from our old group says hi," he chuckled a bit.
Then came Shoko walking over with a cigarette in her mouth, just like old times. A smile was on everyone's faces as they took it in, Satoru Gojo is alive and well. Then came Megumi walking in carefully behind Gojo, Nobara and Yuji ran to him and basically jumped on the boy, resulting in shoving him shoving them off with a grunt (and a small grin.)
Panda's voice rang out, it was a lot smaller and more high pitched than you remembered, "Let's party everyone!"
You looked back at Satoru, there was still a little smirk on his face. He was just happy to live. He leaned on you slightly before lowering his face and whispering in your ear, you nodded and turned to everyone. "No party for us guys, Toru is tired." You giggled and took his hand when the teases started rising everywhere, the two of you waved to everyone as you started walking back to your shared home.
It's always been just him and you together.
The next month or two was the best. You were ecstatic to spend more time with Satoru, taking care of him and cleaning up his scars. He couldn't be any more happy overjoyed to spend time with his beloved, the battle had left his scars mentally and physically, he had abused his technique too much and was shaken up for a while. That's okay, you were there to help build it back up.
One morning, you were on your way to the kitchen to when Satoru walked past you in only a towel, he flashed you a grin before heading to the bedroom. You rolled your eyes and caught something in the corner of it, that cd on the cabinet..why is it broken? You distinctly remember Satoru fixing it after he was unsealed. He told you it wouldn't ever break again, at least not while he was alive. Speaking of the devil, your husband stepped out from the shower, fully clothed this time.
"Toru didn't you just come out two minutes ago?" Weird things have been happening lately, you swear something is going wrong. He brushed it off and stepped closer, "Nah sweets i've been in the shower. What's up?"
The confusion on your face only deepened, but you swallowed it and held up the cd, "Why is this cd broken? Didn't you fix it?"
The cd didn't matter as long as you're with him, why is he acting so weird then? You and your husband, you've doing better than ever, so why is he talking as if he was going to let you go? His hands came up to gently cup your cheeks in his palm. He smiled at you, "You know I love you, and i'm glad we got to spend some more time together even if it was short."
"Satoru what is going on? Let me go-"
He looked down with a look that made you weak, he knew just how to do that to you. His thumb brushed over your cheek softly, you couldn't stay mad at him any longer. Your eyes softened at him, which didn't go unnoticed by Satoru as his smile softened too. One only you ever saw.
you gulped nervously, "yes toru?"
He leaned down and you immediately felt his hot breath against your ear, his grip was slowly loosening as he whispered against your ear,
You blinked and sudden white walls flooded your vision, is this the jujutsu high infirmary? You raised your hand up to see if you were still okay, now you were just noticing patches on your fingers that weren't there before. Patches that you got from... damn it you were blanking out. If only he had told you that he'll be gone soon.
Has it worked? Is Satoru Gojo saved?
You burst up with a jolt and immediately winced at the sharp pain in your head. You took in your surroundings, only shoko and the students that never participated in the culing games were there. Shoko's voice immediately cut through the silence while she moved to the front, "She's awake, everyone stand back."
She checked over your vitals, wounds, the basic necessities. "We found you on the balcony that night, if you'd have fallen any differently your body would've dropped right over the edge."
"Shoko..how long was I out for?"
"A week, i'm glad you're okay."
You held back on asking her about Satoru, her eyebags were clearer than day. You don't even know how much she'd been overwork, she seems to have been busy with mourning and taking care of patients, the half of what you had. She noticed your glazed out eyes and brought the back of her hand up to your forehead as she spoke, "Something wrong?"
You thought for a moment, debating on whether to ask or leave it be, "i'm just spacing out." It's only be a week? But you've been spending time with him for four months, was it really all just a dream?
Shoko only nodded before heading out for a smoke break, you thought for a moment before standing up carefully to join her. Upon open the window, the smell of smoke immediately hit you. You leaned out until you were far enough for your friend to see.
You giggled, "Thought you said you'd quit when we graduated."
Shoko turned to you with a teasing grin, "And I thought you said you'd never like Gojo."
You smacked her on the arm and stared up at the bright moon shining in the middle of the dark, starless night. You're not sure how she's holding up, they were still close even if adult life has consumed them. Losing four of the people closest to her was hard, but it was Shoko. She never let anyone saw how she felt.
You two were different-she was always there to hold you whenever you cried-even if she never asked for anything in return. You always bought cigarettes for her though, you two always joked about her quitting even if you knew that would never happen. At the end of the day, you both look at the sky and thought, "At least we look at the same moon." It's been your way of coping.
"Shoko...what would you do if I died?" That got her to straighten up. She turned with a gloomy look, as if she knew you were foreshadowing. There was a pause before she spoke up,
"You tell me, the morning after."
And with that she walked away, you stared at her silhouette until she disappeared. You turned back inside and closed the window, what does she mean by that?
You were back on missions half a month later, you chose this mission specifically because of the location. The scenery was nice to look at when the cursed was exorcised. First-grade it was? You didn't know.
What you did know was there was a large gash that ran from one side of your abdomen to another. You coughed up blood and leaned against a nearby tree for support. Your phone is lying broken somewhere, and it'd be too late by the time someone finds you. Huh, you're stronger than this. How could you let a lousy curse end your life like this.
Whatever, you don't have much to live for anymore. The feeling of the love that you used to have, yeah that disappeared. You've haven't been feeling right for a long time. Satoru's death was the final nail on the coffin, one that your coffin would soon be next to.
Even if you and him were on opposite sides now, at least you'll look at the same moon when you follow him and leave this cruel world.
The moon looks beautiful here, you should know. You and Satoru had your first date here, he also later proposed to you in the rain while the waters were rippling in the background.
Your head hit the ground and you collapsed before you knew it. Your blood was draining dry quick, leaking nearby into the clear pond and staining it red, whilst chasing away the koi inside.
You wish you had seen the man who had left too soon.
Was it selfish to want to die? No it's not that you're worried about, but shoko...
"i'm sorry shoko..." you whispered softly, letting the wind carry your words away.
Was it all real? Did you really travel back in time or was it all a dream?
you don't blink when you feel a presence taking its spot next to you. Hair billowing softly in the wind, you muster up your last bit of strength and cough out the last clump of blood. Your body turned forward and laid your head atop the line between the land and water, your back against the hard yet somewhat comforting grass. A deep sigh leaves you before you turn your head and swear you had seen the pair of azure eyes you oh so deeply missed.
Had someone come to save you?
No it can't be, you don't want to be saved. You purposely chose this spot so no one would find you. Only one person would have known where you are.
The man who left too soon.
Your last breath draws out with a smile as you think of reuniting with your one and only.
He'd give you a lecture for sure, probably start crying too. It's not as if he'd be mad, he could never be mad at you. May-haps you could tell him what you went through, and once you get past that, he'd run into your arms and hold you tighter than ever.
Now that's worth dying for.
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