WAKE UP, AND FOR WHAT? MORE ASBESTOS

i think one of the saddest things about the whole situation (apart from the actual death) is that her dog bentley just has no idea why shes gone. my mom was her rock, bentley loved mom more than anyone in the world and it was soooo sad when moms car would pull up and bentley would go ballistic expecting to see mom and she just would never appear. and now bentley just has to deal with that every time her car pulls up until they either get a new car or she eventually realizes that that car doesnt mean moms home.

its so embarassing updating the same page over and over again on neocities but i promise the next update i make will actually have something different and interesting to look at

i miss pomelo on neocities

if smokers are really gonna start acting like theyre some oppressed group im going to start killing them with hammers

omg ok, crisis averted, finally got some communication

getting really scared that i missed the funeral, but it seemed like they had to do some more planning stuff before getting to it so i hope its just tomorrow or something

would it be fucked up if everyone forgot to let me know when the funeral was

bereavement leave acquired, it turns out i just had to ask my suerviser instead of going to some specific leave website. its also only three days which is fucked up. like i know im some inhuman monster who cant feel emotions right now so this doesnt really effect me but three days to get over the death of a loved one and then just go back to work is fucking insane

pineappley

now is the time to be really paranoid that im not performing grief properly enough for random family members who have been looking at me funny when i smile or when they ask me how im doing and i automatically say "good"

it still doesnt feel real, i feel like any time my mom can come pick me up and we can go to the river or something

my vesicles

"please file at least 15 days before desired leave date :)" ok well by that time its like a week away from my already scheduled pto so what the fuck is the point of you