a walking inconvenience

Hey, guys. Never had a pinned post or a proper intro until now tbh. But since I started to post more since the last summer, I think at this point i need one just in case.

main info

I'm Naya. 28 y.o., bisexual bigender, she/her and he/him. You can also call me Alisha if you want.

For most of my life I have hypothalamic syndrome, which caused a lot of consequences including severe eating disorder. I might post about that and would tag them, also I'm open for reminders to tag those I might forget to in a rush, unless I specifically stated I'm not going to. Also open for questions abt my conditions in reasonable wording via inbox.

I consume a lot of media and Ig I'll make a separate post about fandoms. But briefly: I mostly reblog things I like. But most of the time I post about Assassin's Creed's Ezio Trilogy and Baldur's Gate 3, might also post about something else.

My main account for interaction with fandoms is this one, and the others goes by the same nickname as here (ie AlishaRoyal. Royal as colour btw). I only give insta, discord or other ways to contact me personally to mutuals I know long enough and trust to.

I'm rarely blocking people here. But I would block in a heartbeat for anything listed in the DNI below:

▌Minors (under 20 at the very least) under my adult-themed posts or in my dms ▌lgbtphobes (terfs, swerfs, political lesbians included) ▌fatphobes ▌racists and imperialists ▌russian goverment supporters and tankies and etc ▌any kinds of xenophobes in usual meaning ▌maps or apologisers of it ▌ai bullshit enjoyers ▌jkr supporters ▌harassers over normal ass fandom stuff ▌

Interact with me and my blog with caution if you're:

▌mogai ▌advocating for inclusion of cis straights in lgbt-spaces ▌using the split attraction model outside of ace/aro community ▌believe that media does not affect reality whatsoever and don't see nuances ▌

IMPORTANT PSA: I'm russian and I'm still living there. I don't think I'll be able to leave it in foreseeable future. Considering that, I want to clarify that I won't openly speak about A LOT of news or political stuff in general until I'm getting out, if I ever will get out. This is also a reason why I won't reblog any donation posts (LIKE, ANY). That and the fact that I personally and technically can't donate myself properly because of the lack of acess to swift and consequences for doing that, so I won't ask anyone to do anything that I can't do myself.

I have opinions. I want to speak up. I'm already risking by existing here with my identities and barely hiding it and even talking on LGBT matters. And I would speak up more if it would be only me and it wouldn't hurt people around me. I don't care what happens to me. But I don't want my family and decent people I know to get penalized or jailed by chain logic because I chose to speak up. I don't expect y’all to understand. But I'm not risking with some other lives other than mine.

This is how things works here in my blog. I understand how it looks like. So I'm totally fine with people not interacting with my stuff and preventively blocking me because of where I'm from or that I'm not speaking up. That's absolutely valid. But I won't tolerate shittalking and insults and etc here. I'm not explaining why my dni and iwc are worded how they are, they're here for my own sanity and calmness and settling my boundaries and nothing else. I'm also not participating in related arguments and not coming to other blogs to banter about it, so I'm not recommending to start this bullshit under my posts/in my inbox or dms either.

I wonder, who told Rolan to start journaling in a diary, and how much time it took him to stop hiding it under his robe, too close to his chest, so nobody would read. Did it even help him to ease the harshness of the weight on his shoulders, did it help him with anything at all.

I wonder, was Rolan always that overprotective to his siblings or at some point he just had to become like this, because he couldn't bear the difference between them living their life and him surviving (cuz he didn't know any better at that time).

I wonder, what else made Rolan that vulnerable, that his confidence is more an act than the reasonable pride that is also here, in him.

but because it gives like you unintentionally expect everyone to hold the same optics and attend the spaces and communities, also assuming that said spaces and communities developed the same way as your locals and providing the level of communication you got used to, while also closing your eyes on the fact that you can't really require that from the people from different regions.

and yeah that mostly applies for states based folks and people from other regions who're letting them push that shit on yall instead of exploring your own communities and saving their history for future lgbt kin of the same region.

but like now it feels harder. not only because it's getting worse for us worldwide since everyone else in power started cosplaying vlad's gov in the matter of taking rights away from people. but because for me personally there's no such thing as one specific bigotry's type raising up again, because I can see it still existing when the masses stops caring.

like... there's no such thing as "terfs getting loud again", because I see this shit like the current loud discourses about a couple content creators on tiktok happening even when discourses stops. they're not magically disappearing when the said bigoted creators are shutting up. I spot these kinds of people in every day life even. I literally witnessed a terf ending up on the federal TV as an invited specialist (for the show, that was supposed to help the marginalised women to re-socialise but technically is a typical pro-gov channel's show about throwing already traumatized by patriarchy women under it's hammer once again, mind you). And her being a terf was mentioned in it, which is even more wild cuz it literally happend around the times where radfem rhetoric was planned to be banned too but mostly because swamps gov didn't realise that of all feminists this kind is actually closer to sharing their beliefs and hunger for power and hurting different people than any other.