Queen A

that kind of love that’s “i was scared until i found you.” that kind of love that’s worth it to try romance again. the “fuck i’ll try cheesy if it just makes you smile” love, the roses and love notes and wine bottles. the twinkle light love, the “let’s go on this romantic date only to spend the whole thing being silly” love, the dancing badly to slow songs love, the “i don’t know how you make me laugh so much but seriously stop it i’m trying to drive” love. the “i trust you love,” calling late at night because a secret just welled up in my throat love, the first person i talk to so i can figure out this decision is you kind of love. the “i was hurt before and had given up but then i found you” love, the incredulous in-awe love, the wonder love, the are you actually real or am i dreaming you love. the “i didn’t believe in soulmates before you” love. that kinda love.

I grew up believing that I was hard to love — and that any sort of kindness was lost on someone like me.

Det måste vara nåt fel på mig eftersom alla bara lämnar mig.

Jag undrar, hur ska jag göra för att vara lycklig igen? Hur kan jag hitta tillbaka till den gnistan som tände mitt hopp om allt gott i livet? För jag är inte så säker på att det går igen. Jag har blivit sårad, jag har blivit skadad, jag har blivit bruten, men jag har aldrig innan blivit krossad såhär. Så jag undrar, hur gör jag?

Jag drunkar i mina tankar, jag drunkar i ångest, jag åker ned till botten och kan inte ta mig upp till ytan.

Do u ever have an inside joke with urself

Im not sure it shows but I’m so full of love

i hate looking ugly the first time i meet someone like wait i can do better than this i swear