L.O.A.H.K

One was that I got a tiny bird which was bright turquoise and it disappeared. It made me sad to think that I could’ve prevented that.

The other was that war broke out between Japan and Korea right as I was visiting Japan for the first time in a long time, and there were bombings from Korea where many people lost their lives and needed urgent reconstructions and surgeries. Half of my grandmothers face was burned and scarred like she had two of them and I lost my eye, which was replaced with a dragonflies eye by having it pressed into my eye socket. I’d be driving down a long highway on a sunny day and see a group of people jump into the river and take their own lives because that seems preferable to living through a time like this.

I picked up playing an instrument that one of my relatives played, a large one with an echoing sound. When I heard it, the threat of war seemed to dim.

The tiny bird looked vaguely like this. It is so juvenile and innocent, which recalls a kitten whose immediate disappearance and presumable death was caused by me. I feel guilt for what happened to cats like Mini, especially at irresponsible hands like mine.

Ok so it’s first person view in the pod as the dream protagonist and the fucking joker appears and he’s like jacked but in a really scary fleshy alien way he’s actually terrifying and then the DP lets him approach them and fuse into one thing and then you get like a tiny piece of a human while you’re this flesh/spirit blob and the human particle renders you invulnerable somehow so the alien joker is really exited about that and it’s all profoundly alien-like