Nova Soulsis

Can we live in the clouds yet??? 😫😫

I just want to lay in the clouds and go wherever it takes me. Just floating through the sky, feeling the strom beneath my feet. Watching the sun rays glide across the planet. And bask in the moonlight

Ps.

I wanna express something on here because I feel as if it's something I can do easily without looking at people lol so if you find yourself reading me exposing myself here , firstly I want to thank you for taking the time to read it! Secondly, I hope the beginning of this year has been good to you, if not I put it into this big beautiful ugly scary funny mind blowing universe that it will be good for you form this day forward! I love ya! ❤🤟🏿

So Boom!

There is a sense of peace and fear in me that makes me feel hopeful again. Last year I made a promise to myself and I didn't make good on that promise. Long story short. I made a promise in 23' that when I turn 29 last year that I would take the time to be single and heal from family, an 8 year toxic relationship and my own bad habits. Soon as I was getting ready to leave, and old friend hit me on fb. ( I know what you're thinking 😒 I saw it coming the second he popped up as well) we talked, he wanted to see me, I told him my plan, he said cool he on vacation. He came time went on and when it was time for him to go he stalled. One thing led to another and a year goes by.

( if you want the full tea I'll make a full video and spill cuz the shit was crazy.. idk why I allowed a FULL YEAR GO BY!!!)

I'm 30 now and I feel completely unfulfilled in this relationship and in myself. He's been good to me but I always felt something was off and things weren't adding up when it comes to him and his environment so I didn't question it because he said he loved me, and he did show it in some ways but still, I didn't ask for a relationship. I express my feelings a few times and he listened but he didn't hear me. So I made a decision. It's probably last minute too but I couldn't sit anymore and let another month go by, hell another year! I'm chosing me and I'm stepping out on faith in me, God ,and His Universe.

Let's be honest i knew what I was doing. I thought we understood each other and apparently not ( I'm just being nice). When I saw I was being played I got my lick back but it didn't make me feel good. I accepted my defeat and I need to gracefully bow out.

Don't ever be afraid to choose you. And always trust your intuition. Love is Growth, not compromise

Again thank you for taking the time to read my vulnerable post!

Here back in my hometown San Diego for a couple of days and it feels good to be home!!