Doin' Pretty Good!

After everything that's happened in my life over the past year, and how much healthier I've become, and even after what happened recently to me, I decided to go back to the spot where I attempted to commit suicide. I come back to the same spot to find solace in growth, to see that I've bettered myself, and that every single bit of work I put into my mental health has paid off. I come back to the same spot to find a youth group of college Christians singing and playing guitar, the same spot where I almost ended it. Fucking Christians man, so goddamn cheerful; I guess I have a reason to be as happy as them now.

feelings are dumb... but fuck I don’t want to ignore them.

what is happening....