you can’t prove i’m Not an alien

warm memory of a lovely august day

i have been working on this fic for over a year now and since it's set "post-canon" and what that means for gon and killua may be about to change very very soon i wanted to get it finished before that happens LMAO. anyway: killugon run away from whale island (kind of), 33.8k words, fluff + angst + hurt/comfort + what have you, it's all in the intro in the doc. no i still don't have an ao3 but it is available as a pdf this time :) (which might honestly be a nicer reading experience, google docs' formatting sucks and especially on mobile lmao). download it, save it to your phone, email it to people, print it off and burn it in a ritualistic fire of sacrifice, i don't care. go nuts

sometimes a trans woman wins against a cis woman. sometimes a cis woman wins against another cis woman too. yet only one of them is allowed to win without facing consequences.

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They want buckskin and face paint, drumming, songs in languages they can’t understand recorded for them but with English subtitles, of course. They want educated, well spoken, but not too smart. Christian, well behaved, never question. They want to learn the history of the people, but not the ones that are here now, waving signs in their faces, asking them for clean drinking water, asking them why their women are going missing, asking them why their land is being ruined.

They want fantastical stories of Indians that used to roam this land. They want my culture behind glass in a museum.

A mouth-watering fuck-ton of hand angle references.

i really liked that killua drawing i made so i gave him a gon :p

the reference i used is under the cut !!

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It's the Royal Academy of Art Young Artist's Summer Show. One of my favourite exhibitions of the year. Like. Not only are the older kids insanely talented, the younger ones' artist statements will just punch you right in the face.

Jeffrey is my cat and he feels like my heart

Okay take all this with a grain of salt bc im only on ep 285 of my rewatch/reread but I have Some Thoughts about how Gintoki's and Kagura's relationship to violence is protrayed.

My take is that Gintoki has genuine sadistic tendencies (See: most of Jail Arc) which probably served him well during the joui war in spite of that fact being in conflict with his present day morals and values.

Gintoki is living in constant cognitive dissonance where he gets genuine pleasure from hurting people even though he also understands that his sadism supported him murdering/torturing his way through the war (and that mans got incredible survivors guilt). But ☝️ hes also worlds most repressed and rigid man due to #trauma so he simply thinks he is fundamentally evil and acts like an asshole.

Kagura, on the other hand, watched how the glorification of violence tore her family apart and left her alone but she knows she is equally as capable of the violence Kamui used against her and her father.

I cant cite sources so correct me if I'm wrong, Abuto says something to kagura about how shes limiting herself by repressing her Yato instincts bc she is ashamed of them. She says she needs to become stronger to "Not let her yato side win" even though the fact that she is ashamed of and repressing her capability of violence IS the thing thats making her weak to it.

And then they lived together for like 700 chapters and didnt ever talk about that!!

The opportunity to have Gin tell Kagura that her strength is to be used to protect people and it is not something to be ashamed of was Right There!!! He couldve had a heart to heart about how her love of violence can 1) be utilized and vented healthily and 2) be used as a tool and not as a focal point of her identity like it is for Kamui.

Or Vice Versa!! Kagura is fully aware of what being in a war entails bc that was 90% of Yato culture so she at least had an idea of what gintoki was doing ten years ago to warrant getting a full blown moniker. She couldve connected with him about it!!

Genuinely so excited for Yoshiwara in Flames to be released on netflix bc i finally get to see Abuto vs. Kagura reanimated and I like watching Strong Character Kick Ass Violently. But also im never NOT gonna be disappointed in Sorachi for not doing anything with the character arcs he set up and just forgot abt ig. Her arc didnt even need to be centered around Gintoki!! It couldve been with Okita being honest with her about how he embraces being a killer (chap 270) but tries to use it to support his community. Or even with Tsukuyo or Sacchan telling her that her capability of violence can be used to protect others even though both of them kill people for a living.