bgirllexi

I am afraid of losing these feelings when you are mad at me. I feel rejected and lonely. A lot of sadness. I don’t understand why i can’t get back on my two feet when...

I am unsure of my behaviors. I am okay when things are great. But, I am not okay. 

I don’t know what I want in life. 

I want you to be happy. 

But does that happiness at the cost of my own happiness? 

I don’t even know what love means...I mean i do...but I don’t know if I execute it well. 

I’d do anything in the world to make you happy. 

I tried that yesterday and got shot down. I don’t really understand what it  means to balance a relationship with two adults that don’t really have time for each other and the only person that’s actually making time for the other is me. I may be wrong for feeling this way and I may be lying to myself and this may not be true at all.