picking dead bugs in my head

It is silliness to live when to live is torment, and then have we a prescription to die when death is our physician.

Why is it that the more you feel you're at fault for something in your head the more you keep getting stuck on the feelings you don't like?

Aaaa I need to cry

I wanna die

I'm such a burden

I'm at a point where I feel like I've lost everything I built up in my life, after starting to live as myself, when nothing in life is clear yet

I wanna die man

I don't wanna disturb her but there is no one I can call or talk to . What the fuck did I do yaar

It's easiest to find a blade when you should be the last person to have it

God fuck I miss her so much I think I have a serious case of limerence