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Just as you’re about to be taken away, the doors to the courtroom open wide and in storms a person frantically yelling that they are in possession of evidence that will prove your innocence. The person looks at you and discreetly winks. 

 This sudden twist is very strange for 2 specific reasons:

1) You have definitely committed all those crimes;

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*𝓎𝑜𝓊’𝓇𝑒 𝒶𝓃 𝒶𝓃𝑔𝑒𝓁, 𝒹𝒶𝓇𝓁𝒾𝓃𝑔. 𝓅𝓊𝓉 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒻𝑜𝓇𝓀 𝒹𝑜𝓌𝓃 *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧

Fix that sleep schedule (7-8 hrs everyday)🛏💤

No dairy ✖️🥛🍦🍨

2.5 L of water every day💧

Green tea every morning/evening🍶

Limit added sugar; fruits are better 🍎🍊🍌🍍🥝🍇🍒

At least 10000 steps everyday👣

Study 2 hrs everyday 📚📖

Have a consistent skincare routine🧼🚿

Workout plan 4/week🧘🏻‍♀️🤸🏻‍♀️

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41 Emotions as Expressed through Body Language unique  This list, while exhausting, is soooo not exhaustive; it barely scratches the surface. And each entry could easily become cliché (if it isn’t already). But, it should be enough to get you started. Want more? Start watching people (not in a creepy way), and take notes of what they seem to do when expressing different emotions. Your repertoire of expression will double in no time. PS—do not use these for actual, real-life body language reading; you will fail. These are strictly novelistic.

Awed  -Slack -jawed, raised eyebrows, staring  -Frozen, slack body language (Self? What self? There is only Zuul.)  -Take a step back and put a hand to his heart

Amused  -Smiling and throwing back her head laughing  -Slapping her thighs, stamping her feet, clapping her hands  -Shaking her head (That’s so wrong!)

Angry/Aggressive  -Sharp movements, like shaking a fist, pointing, slashing, or slamming a fist on a table  -Flushed face, patchy red blotches  -Tension in neck—chords standing out, veins throbbing—and jutting or tucked chin  -Arms akimbo, or clenching fists  -Entering someone else’s space and forcing them out  -Poofing up with a wide stance (I am big! Very big!), arms wide (Bring it!)  -Lowered eyebrows, squinting eyes  -Teeth bared, jaw clenched, snarling

Annoyed  -Pressing lips together into a thin line  -Narrowing eyes sometimes with slight head tilt (Why do you still exist?)  -Rolling eyes, often paired with a long-suffering sigh

Anxious  -Fidgeting, such as tearing grass into little pieces, playing with a ring, or chewing on a pencil  -Biting lower lip, swallowing unnecessarily  -Quickened breathing or holding breath  -Darting eyes  -Pallor, sweating, clammy palms  -Unusually high-pitched, “nervous” laughter  -Hunched shoulders  -Pacing

Attentive  -Slow head nodding with a furrowed brow  -Leaning forward, toward the speaker, and sitting up  -Taking notes  -Looking over the top of her glasses

Bored  -Resting his head on his palm, peeking out between the fingers, maybe even slipping so his head “accidentally” hits the table  -Tapping toes, twirling pencil, doodling, and otherwise fidgeting  -Staring out a window, or at anything remotely more interesting (Which is everything …)

Confident  -Arms clasped behind body  -Head lifted, chest out, standing tall  -Walking briskly and making firm, precise movements

Confused  -Tilting head with narrowed eyes  -A furrowed brow  -Shrugging

Contempt/Superiority  -Lifted chin (The better to look down the nose.)  -Pursed lips, sneering, slight frown  -Circling a shoulder, stretching her neck, turning away—anything to indicate she doesn’t see the person as a threat or worthy of her attention  -Grabbing her lapels, or tucking her thumbs in her waistcoat (See this clothing? It is much nicer than yours.)  -Dismissive hand-waving

Cynical/Sarcastic/Bitter  -Twisted lips or a half-smile  -Sneering, sometimes with shaking the head and other defensive body language  -Pressed lips with a slight frown  -Eye rolling

Defensive  -Crossed arms, legs, crossed anything, really (Well, maybe not fingers … or eyes …)  -Arms out, palms forward (Stop!)  -Placing anything (sword, shield, book, backpack) in front of her body

Disgusted  -Crinkling his nose  -Curling his lip and/or showing the tip of his tongue briefly  -Flinching back and interposing a shoulder or turning away  -Covering his nose, gagging, and squinting his eyes shut—hard—for a moment. (It assaults all the senses.)

Displeased  -A plastered-on fake smile (You suck; but I can’t tell you that. So here: a fake smile! Enjoy.)  -Pouting or frowning (I’ll cry if you don’t give me what I want—don’t test me, I will!)  -Crossed arms and other defensive/frustrated body language (I will not let that terrible idea influence me!)

Distressed  -Wide eyes and shallow, rapid breathing  -Beating the walls, or huddling into a corner  -Clasping hands over his head protectively  -Rocking himself  -Handwringing  -Running his hands through his hair

Earnest/Passionate  -Leaning forward, nodding, wide eyes with strong eye contact and raised eyebrows  -Hand on heart, or presented palms-up, or otherwise visible  -A double-handed handshake (I really want to make sure you understand me!)

Embarrassment  -Blushing  -Stammering  -Covering her face with her hands or bowing her head (I’m so embarrassed, I can’t look!)  -Difficulty maintaining eye contact, looking down and away

Excited/Anticipation  -Rubbing hands together (I can’t wait to get my hands on it!)  -Licking lips (It’s so close I can taste it!)  -A vigorous, pumping handshake (I can’t wait to get started!)  -Jumping up and down (Look at me being literal here! I am jumping for joy.)  -A wide and easy grin

Flirty  -Eye play, like winking, looking up through the lashes, over the shoulder glances, and eye catching   -Preening, like hair flipping or smooth, clothing straightening, spine straightening, etc.  -Striking a cowboy pose, with his thumbs gripping his belt tight

Frustrated  -Shaking his head (You are so wrong!)  -Massaging temples (My brain—it hurts.)  -Clasping his wrist in his opposite hand, behind his back (Bad arm! No biscuit.)  -Running his hands through his hair (All this frustration is making my hair mussy. I can feel it.)  -Grabbing onto something like armrests, or white-knuckled interdigitation (Restrain yourself!)

Happy  -Smiling and laughing  -Eyes and nose crinkling  -Swinging her arms, spinning loosely, dancing, jumping

Impatience  -Quick head nodding (Get on with it!)  -Toe/finger tapping (Hear this? These are seconds. Wasted. Listening to you.)  -Sighing, checking the clock/sundial/freckles (Time. It is moving so slowly.)

Jealous  -Tight lips, or a sour expression  -Narrow eyes locked on the perpetrator, to the point of a stare down  -Crossed arms, and additional frustrated, angry, possessive, or bitter body language

Lying  -Scratching their nose, ear, neck, miscellaneous part of face  -Sudden change in behavior or demeanor, including shifty eye contact, lots of long blinking, shrugging -Ill-timed smiles or laughter (This is how I normally smile, right? Right???)  -Additional anxiety body language  -Shaking head no while saying “yes” (I can’t believe I just lied.)  -Licking lips, covering mouth, touching mouth, etc.

Overwhelmed  -Both palms to forehead, fingers splayed (This gives me a headache.)  -Covering eyes with one hand (If I can’t see the world, it can’t see me …)  -Eyes wide and staring into space, hands gripping the table in front of her (… Woah.)

Playful/Friendly  -Winking  -Waggling eyebrows  -Tiny shoves or nudge

Pleasure  -Head tilted back, lips parted slightly, eyes wide or closed  -Slow, languorous movements, stretching (such as arching her neck or back)  -Slight flush, quickened breath and pulse

Possessive  -Handshake with arm clasp  -Putting hands on or around someone’s shoulders, neck, waist, back, or even just the wall near them  -Standing in someone’s personal space, body positioned toward that person  -Any one-sided act of intimacy, like running a knuckle down someone’s cheek  -Staring down any who get too close

Proud/Dominant  -Chin up, chest out, shoulders back  -A painfully hard handshake that not only squishes the bones, but also forces his hand on top  -Leaning back with his hands behind his head, and his feet up  -Strong, unblinking, focused eye contact

Reluctance/Resistance  -Arms crossed, sometimes with fists (Not happening.)  -Dragging feet (But I don’t wanna!)  -Pinching nose (You want me to do what now?)  -Clamping hands over ears (La la la la!)

Sad/Upset  -Droopy body (and anything held, like a sword), bowed in shoulders, wrapping arms around self  -Slow movements with hesitation  -Bottom lip jutting out and/or quivering  -Crying, sobbing, body shaking, sniffling, wet eyes

Secretive  -A tight-lipped smile (My lips are zipped.)  -Hiding her hands in her pockets (What has it got in its nasty little pocket?)  -Looking away

Scared  -Hunched shoulders, shrinking back from others (Don’t hurt me!)  -Wide eyes and lifted eyebrows (The better to see them coming.)  -Shaking, trembling, or freezing  -Rocking from side to side, sometimes holding self (It’ll all be okay, self, it’ll all be okay.)

Shame  -Slumped shoulders (Don’t look at me.)  -Trouble meeting your gaze, looking down and away  -Burying her face in her hands or bowing her head (I can’t face the world right now.)

Shocked  -Hands covering her mouth, or mouth hanging open, sometimes with a gasp (If I had words, I would be saying them.) -Freezing and staring with wide eyes and eyebrows raised (Diverting all resources toward staring.)  -Smacking a palm into his forehead (Clearly, my head isn’t working right, or I wouldn’t have seen that)

Shy  -Avoids eye contact, or has only fleeting eye contact (Eye contact means you might speak to me.)  -Keeps a fair distance from everyone, and will back away if someone steps closer (Space invaders!)  -Folded arms, head down, and other defensive body language (If I make myself small, they can’t see me.)

Smug  -Slight, close-lipped smile (occasionally one-sided) and sometimes one raised eyebrow (I know something you don’t know.)  -Chin slightly tucked, Mona Lisa smile, raised eyebrows (I know better.)  -Finger steepling (I am so smaaaht.)

Suspicious/Skeptical/Disbelief  -Narrowed eyes, sometimes with a sidelong glance or raised eyebrow (Perhaps if I look at it out of the corner of my eye, I will catch it unawares.)  -Rubbing his eyes (I can’t believe what I’m metaphorically or literally seeing!)  -Shaking his head (I—I don’t believe it.)  -Blowing out cheeks (Well , I don’t know …)

Tired  -Rubbing his eyes, eyes staring into space, raised eyebrows (Raising my eyebrows helps keep my eyes open.)  -Yawning and/or stretching (I am tired—see? Tired! Too tired to care!)  -Almost nodding off and jerking awake (Cannot. Stay. Awa—snnnnurzzzz.)  -Gritting teeth to stay awake (Cannot—yawn—dang it!)

Thoughtfulness/Thinking  -Steepling fingers (I will think better if I center myself and focus.)  -Pinching nose, sometimes with closed eyes (Focus, focus—I just need to focus.)  -Tugging on an ear (This will help me remember!)  -Stroking a real or imaginary beard (People with beards look smart.)  -Furrowed brow, narrowed eyes, sometimes tilted head and pressing lips together (I can’t see it—I will try harder!)  -Resting his chin on his hand (Thinking makes my head heavy.)

anonymous asks: Do you have any awkward ghost prompts?

1) “I’m technically dead!” The ghost said. “I hope, um, that’s your type.” 

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2) The ghost had always stalked the human, not ever really approaching. Maybe they knocked over a plate, maybe they rippled the water, but they never directly interacted. So when the human found them out, well… they could barely keep up a conversation.

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3) “Why do you haunt me?” The human asked. The graveyard mist coiled around their ankles. 

The ghost scratched the back of their head. “I don’t know why.” 

“Then how about… you don’t haunt me?”

Here is an accurate timeline I put together of all of Jeffrey Dahmer’s mugshots:

October 1981 Jeffrey Dahmer was arrested for Disorderly Conduct and Resisting Arrest after being drunk and abusive towards staff at the Ramada Inn in Bath, Ohio

August 1982 Jeffrey Dahmer was arrested and charged with Disorderly Conduct after he was caught indecently exposing himself (urinating) in front of a large group of people at the Wisconsin State Fair

Unknown This mugshot is rare and it is not known exactly what it was for. It could possibly be after the September 1986 arrest for masturbating in public. Two boys saw Dahmer and reported him to the police. The initial charges were Lewd and Lascivious Behaviour and Indecent Exposure. He was then charged in March 1987 for Disorderly Conduct. It could also possibly be for the 1988 Second Degree Sexual Assault arrest. He was charged in 1989 and given 1 year in the House of Correction and 5 years of probation.

July 1991 Jeffrey Dahmer was arrested on 22 July 1991 after police had found polaroid photos of men in various stages of dismemberment, and had also found skulls, skeletons and different dismembered body parts in his apartment. The first photo (no glasses) was taken on 23 July when he was first taken back to the police station and started to confess; it’s clear he was still intoxicated. The second photo (with glasses) was taken on 24 July, the day after the initial mugshot was taken

July 1991 Jeffrey Dahmer was initially charged with 4 counts of First Degree Intentional Homicide and Habitual Criminality. This was his first court appearance on 25 July 1991

April 1992 Jeffrey Dahmer was extradited to Ohio to be charged with the murder of Steven Hicks in 1978. He entered a plea of guilty and was given his 16th life sentence during this trial

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climbing ON the furniture will disrupt the pattern of your footsteps and make it harder to hear where you are in the house

crawling will do the same and if you get caught crawling you can pretend you fell 

the floor near the wall can be really loud if the floorboards/carpet is old and not completely flush to the wall

If your house has snack packs (like gummy bears or crackers or chips), count them every day until you know the rhythm that they get consumed. (This took me a week and a half with my twin brother and sister). Then join the rhythm when you make your nightly visits. It will be that much harder to figure out it was you.

-a jar of peanut butter is long lasting and easy to hide under a bed or in a dresser drawer. I lived off of jars of peanut butter and boxes of saltine crackers I would buy on grocery trips with my mom.

-two words: Slipper Socks. These are the socks that have rubber designs on the bottom for grip. They make no noise, and also keep you steady on slicker surfaces like tile and wood. You can find them cheap at Walmart. They also keep your feet more protected if you’re outside.

-if you’re secure enough in your room to have a small food stash, make sure you’re not too obvious about it (duh) but also move its location every few days. I kept mine in a shoebox under my bed, then switched it to a backpack in my closet, then wedged between my bookshelf and wall, and I would cycle locations until i moved it permanently to a false-bottomed drawer I installed in my dresser when my father was gone for a weekend. I would NEVER put food directly into my stash after taking it. I would keep it in pockets of my clothes and between books until everyone went to sleep, then I’d stock and stow my stash for the next few days.

-get a water bottle with a filter in it. I used to be able to reach my bathroom from my bedroom door down the hall using a huge step or minor jump/leap. If I was afraid of being caught at night, I’d fill up the humidifier tank we kept under our sink while I took a short shower, and would refill my water that way. It might not be the best option, but I kept a small stockade of water under my bed for emergencies.

-if you can, smuggle your garbage out in your backpack or purse. Dispose of it at work/school. I got caught twice by carelessly throwing away packaging.

-if someone knows the situation you’re going through (close friend/partner/etc) see if there’s a way for them to get food or other supplies to you at school or work or what private time you may get. A hidden first aid kit literally saved parts of my body before and I owe it to a close friend.

-try learning the building’s natural rhythm. The house I grew up in would creak and settle heavily every night for 3-5 minutes. That was my shot, and I had to be QUICK. I still got caught a few times, but learning the patterns in our floors and walls, when they creaked, WHERE they creaked, kept me going. Eventually I was sprinting in slipper socks to the kitchen and back in less than 90 seconds.

-if you have stairs, or live upstairs. Sit as you go down them one at a time, or climb up them like an animal. It keeps you low/out of lots of motion sight, and also can reduce noise and creaking by distributing weight over more than 1-2 steps.

-You can use common hand sanitizer to remove the stains certain snack foods leave behind (coughs cheeto fingers) and a dry toothbrush can help scrub the color off your tongue. If you can get powdered toothpaste or toothpaste tabs to keep on hand, it makes a huge difference in sneakiness.

-I don’t recommend going for dried foods like granola or cereal unless you can sneak it to a secure place to get it. It’s too loud, it’s a gamble every time for something with less caloric intake than it’s worth if you get caught. Of course, there are times when that’s the only option!!

-if you’re taking milk, add water, but be SURE to shake/agitate the bottle to distribute the dairy fat with the water. I got into the habit of shaking milk jugs when I started sneaking it, and explained the habit as something I read in an old comic strip my father showed me. (Back when whole milk had a lot more cream fats and they’d separate, so shaking it would redistribute the cream.) I still shake milk jugs to this day.

-if your windows open or don’t have screens, eat leaning out an open window. Any food mess will be lost in the dirt. I was lucky I had bushes and birds outside that would catch my granola bar crumbs before anyone could notice.

-canned goods are tempting, but not worth it. It requires too many tools (can opener/strained sometimes/utensils/some need heat) stick to thinks like various nut butters (sunflower/peanut/almond), crackers, dried fruit, and easy to conceal food bars (nature valley/nutrigrain/etc.) dried ramen packets are good uncooked if you can stand the texture. Apple sauce and pudding cups are also easier to sneak and stash than one might think, and can be eaten with your fingers. The only canned foods I recommend are condensed soups and precooked pasta (spaghetti-o’s). You can easily mix them with a little bit of hot water from the tap and get something more sustaining than a handful of captain Crunch. The cans are cheap, sometimes recyclable, and drinking soup takes way less time than chewing solid food.

-if you menstruate, attempt to stash pads/tampons in a safe location. Sometimes shit happens. Pads can work as bandages in emergency situations. Sometimes shark week comes unexpectedly. If you can sneak a roll of toilet paper or paper towels, these are also life savers.

-plastic utensils from takeout containers can be hidden inside socks and will be worth their weight in gold when you least expect it. I bought myself a tiny plastic bowl from the dollar store and kept cheap trinkets in it on my desk so it didn’t seem like a bowl I was eating out of. You could try this with something like a mason jar, which is also useful for drinking out of or storing water.

-if you’re eating a crunchy or solid food, try soaking it in water. Mushy food can be repulsive in texture, but I could clock the sound of someone eating a nature valley oat bar from like 6 miles away. Dunking it in water (or using a secret bowl+water) can reduce noise, and also eating time since you don’t have to chew as much.

-keep a laundry bar or tide pen on you. Laundry bars are super useful, a little hard to find though. I washed a lot of stains out of my clothes with laundry bars in my bathroom sink as a kid. Not proud if it, but it kept me flying under the radar at school.

-clear rubber bands, plain twine or string, paper clips, and thumb tacks. Indescribably useful. I once rigged a system to open tricky cabinets and get objects from inside using two paper clips and a foot of plain string like a mock lasso system.

-if you’re pulling objects from tall cabinets, use your chest or stomach to cushion them. Let them fall into your torso and then into your hands cradled underneath. Not as loud, not as much grabbing, if someone sees it they can mistake it for it falling on you by the body language.

-get a bandana. Or four. Napkins, bandages, tool, and accessory all in one.

-get a tiny sewing kit. I’m talking 3 needles and a spool of thread tiny. Scissors if you can sneak it. See things into your clothes. Make hidden pockets or compartments. Threadbanger on YouTube did a video a few years ago about sneaking things into music festivals using tiny clothing mods, but they may be useful in sneaking money or medicine.

-on the topic of sneaking money. don’t take bills, take change. If your abusers don’t meticulously count their nickels and pennies, they’re an easy(ish) way to build up a tiny savings pool. I found nickels the least noticed coin I took, even more than pennies, and taking two every few nights from where they’d be tossed on our countertop soon built up to a semi-reliable fund I passed off to someone to get me food for my stash without having to sneak it from the kitchen. As soon as I became “independent” in my food storage, I was subjected to much less scrutiny. I managed to build up a solid 1-2 week ration supply after hoarding change.

-you can tape SD cards to the inside of book dust covers(the part that folds inside the actual cover of the book), if you have a sewing kit or zipper on it inside the stuffing of your pillow (trim a corner, stuff it inside, stitch it closed) or (this is final resort) VERY CAREFULLY remove the covering from your outlet and tape it to the wall stud before replacing the casing. I kept mine inside part of my wooden bed frame that I hollowed out using, you guessed it, take out silverware knives and 4 nights without sleep.

-THE FLOOR IS LAVA WAS KEY TRAINING FOR ME AS A CHILD. I learned to take pillows with me, climb on furniture to disrupt my flow of movement, toss a pillow down, and use that to cushion any rattle our living room could give off as I crept to the kitchen from the side entrance so my mom’s dog wouldn’t bark or alert anyone. I highly suggest crawling around on all fours like some sort of beast to stay out of sight.

-can you run your house blindfolded?? If you can’t. Maybe you should try to learn. I suffered some heavy eye traumas growing up and had a collective 3-4 months just IN THE DARK. Eyes bandaged, left alone. It was terrible, but damn if I couldn’t navigate the whole place silently, without any visual cues. This helps a lot with the whole moving around in the dark thing, too. Listening is obviously key.

-if your parents start getting suspicious, or you’re suspicious they’re getting suspicious, watch out for traps. String on the ground that gets shifted when you walk on it. Baby powder or flour left to track footprints or doors opening/closing. My dad was partial to wrapping a bungee cord around my doorknob and attaching it to the closet across the hallway. I wouldn’t be able to open my door enough to get out, or if I did, I risked ruining the structural integrity of the wrappings he did, and he would notice.

-learn to tie some knots. Strong ones. They’ll come in handy at one point or another.

•Keeping a $10 bill on the inside of my phone case for emergencies. My mother will search my wallet and bags but has not taken my phone case off when she takes my phone as of yet.

•stashing loose change I find in the soil of my potted plant. Very quiet hiding place for coins. All bills are quickly confiscated but coins I have managed to hold onto this way

•changing food stash locations constantly. A good stash I’ve found is buried in my mice seed mix. Small packages or granola bars can fit in there pretty easily and the wrappers are flushable (I know it’s bad to flush them but my trash is routinely searched)

• always deleting online traces in case of phone/computer search. This includes search history, forbidden apps, messages, pictures, notes, games, etc. I don’t know how many times I have deleted the tumblr app during the day only to re download it late at night to use it. My phone and computer are constantly confiscated and gone through with a fine tooth comb. I delete anything I might possibly get in trouble for after I use it and re download it when I need it again. Don’t delete all your browsing history though, they will notice if it’s suspiciously empty. Fill it with safe and approved stuff and remove anything you might get punished for.

•learning what each and every door in the house sounds like so I know who is where at all times without having to leave the room

•learning where those ‘sweet spots’ are in the house where you can notice anyone coming before they can see you or what you are doing

•always having a pre-approved cover. I use books and preaching videos as covers. I can hide a phone in a book or quickly switch apps to the one playing the video if surprised or discovered.

• always being aware of ‘the trail’. If I tell a friend something who tells their sibling who tells my sibling who tells my mom I get punished so basically tell no one and it won’t come back to bite you. This includes talking about tv shows/movies that are forbidden, forbidden foods/drinks, activities, apps, games, friends, political views, etc. Express an opinion and it’s bound to reach someone you don’t want it to.

•never take from your abuser’s personal stash of food or money. The family pantry is fair game to carefully pilfer from and so is loose change but never take from their personal purse/wallet, fridge, pantry, or stash. They WILL find out.

•beware of traps and manipulation . My mother will leave money and food unattended and wait for it to disappear. She will also act like she wants to do a good thing and help you out but in the end you will pay for it a hundred times over. Avoid this if at all possible.

-Train yourself to breathe and walk as quietly as possible. I’ve learned it without even noticing as a child; I inhale and exhale a lot and that allows me to breathe a little every time, the process is soundless. When sick, breathe with your mouth. The slightest sound can be deadly.

As for walking, stay close to walls. I’m basically walking like people who practice dance do (people often call me out for it) and it allows me to move quickly and unnoticed. Heck, it works so well that I can walk right in front of my parents without them even noticing.

-During family reunions, social event or moments when they are really focused on something (tv, book, etc), you may walk, or even “steal” something right in front of their face. Be careful though, it’s not without risk, and you’ll have a lot of trials before getting it right. Do not attempt it if the price of this trick is too high.

All you have to do is be careful of what they can see. They are facing one of your family member who is right next to them? This might be your chance. Don’t enter their line of sight, or do it as little as possible, all you need is a hand to grab what you need anyway. Don’t look at them while you’re doing it, act as natural as possible, don’t rush. It works amazingly well in family reunion, as the fuss in constant. If the objet you want to grab make sounds (like a bag of chips) you got to be careful. Grab them at the edges, and attempt this only when you feel like it’s safe (your parent is focused on something else, is not facing you, there’s a lot of noise, you think grabbing the object won’t make enough noise to get noticed, etc). Try to practice by “stealing” some of your friends stuff, pretend that you’re just messing with them and return their stuff at the end of the practice.

Test your parents; at which point do they notice your presence? All parents are different, you just need to know where you can be cocky. That being said, wearing bright colors or having a keychain that makes sound is not a good idea.

-Try to test what “tricks” work with your parents. For exemple, I learned that avoiding talking with my dad for a few day will allows me more freedom as to where and how far I can go (I needed to go on a reunion on an other city, and he allowed me to go on my own, while he doesn’t want to let me buy groceries down our street most of the time). Avoiding talking to my mom have an other response though; she gets more negligent. Keep track of your little experiment, takes notes if possible, use your phone if they go through your stuff.

-Locking your stuff away won’t work, because they’ll try everything to force it open. Specially if it’s a diary. Creating codes might help you. For exemple, I write World, W ld. Capitals written with capitals, last two, three or four letters written above the first letter. You might need to guess some words if the note isn’t recent, but putting fully written keyword will help you. Those keyword need to speak to you, and not to your parent, this way you’ll be the only one able to read it.

I skipped class and didn’t receive any punishment, but the next time I was caught was brutal.

Things that helped me were far between, but I have a few tricks that worked.

- Crying got me out of trouble often, once it even got me out of a beating for being 1 minute late home. This only worked because I never cried, so shocking them in some way like that could help.

- They’re right, locks don’t work. You know what got my dad to stop making “midnight visits”? Sleeping naked. I have NO idea why, but he stopped coming in after that.

- Layered clothing helps lessen the blows.

- If they’re going off, figure out what helps best in the moment. Silence might make it worse, but crying might help. Unfortunately this is a trial and error system.

IF YOU HAVE TO RUN AWAY.

-Plan an exit strategy.

Where will you go? Don’t tell ANYONE about it. Concerned friends can get you killed. If running into a forest for immediate escape, trees can help.

Don’t sneak off after a fight. It’s not worth it. They’ll be expecting it.

Leave siblings. They might be able to convince the police you were hurting them and kidnapped them.

If you know a pet is going to die because of you leaving:

Practice a silent command for “quiet” for a dog. Bring a leash, extra collar, meat scraps or whatever can tide it over. A dog is going to want to return home. Dogs will also add extra protection if you have to go through the forest. If it barks prepare to run.

If you have a cat WITH a collar, any string will do as a leash. A carrier is slow and cumbersome. Cats are tough, so if it breaks free and runs off, you might not be able to get it back, so a tight grip is needed.

YOU HAVE LEFT AND ARE CONCERNED THEY’LL FIND YOU?

I ran into this issue. It’s a debilitating fear.

Get yourself (if you like) a big scary ass dog. Abusers can punk out when faced with harm. I got a Shepherd and that dog would die for me.

Look for a place with a private driveway that can’t easily be seen. I lived a minute away from them for a year and they never saw me.

You have a car that they recognize? Buy 20 cans of matte black spray paint, tape, and newspaper. New paint job to keep them guessing.

I understand why it’s hard, but I strongly suggest a protective order.

Manipulation is common. Sometimes they’ll buy you a gift for a birthday or just on a whim and later say that you owe them because they bought it. Taking you out to the mall/a restraunt can be a trap. Rejecting the gift might set them off too, so it’s a pick your poison situation.

Jackets with inside pockets are easy to sneak stuff inside of. And if you can get into a restroom with store items you can stuff sanitary products into your pants. Tampons take up less space, noise, and last longer from what I’ve heard.

Cutting holes in any stuffed animals you have and sewing them up is a good way to hide something. Make sure to sew/rip along the seam and learn how to do latter stitches or stitches or other types of sewing that are “hidden stitch” techniques

And if stuffed animals are found it might be less harsh than if they find the contraband

If you do have screens on your window, some of them have cracks at the bottom that can slip minicule things through them(I’ve pushed a cigarette butt through one once, so grains/oats will definetly fit. I live in apartments and my mom wasn’t home, I’ve learned how to mask smells using sprays things that nuetralize the smell rather than mask it.)

Energy drinks are expensive. Herbal tea (hot tea) packaging is less expensive and has some natural caffiene in it. It’s also very easy to make at school in a microwave and pretty much any cup

If you’re grazing a small store for a while, and don’t want to seem suspicious with the things you’re stealing buy one or two items along eith whatever you’re stealing. It’ll be less suspicious. I’ve stolen 4 bottles of beer and an energy drink in one go this way, I dropped it off at a friends house in exchange for one of the beers.

Medicine/vitamins are really easy to sneak into a pocket if you’re malnourished or having trouble sleeping/getting over a cough.

Some things I can sneak my picking them up and then walking into another isle while sneaking them into a pocket. It looks like you’re going to buy it if you just hold it in your hand and walk.

Don’t kill yourself today

Because your Netflix trial still has a week left

Don’t kill yourself today

Because no one else will finish off the chicken in the fridge

Don’t kill yourself today

Because I know for a fact that Starbucks is releasing a new Frappuccino sometime next month

Yes, your mother will miss you

Yes your bully will make a sappy Facebook post about how what a a wonderful person you were

And yes

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem

You know that

You’ve known that

Everyone and anyone has been shoving that down your throat since they first learned what the word suicide meant

So don’t kill yourself

Until you finish your shampoo and conditioner at the same time

Don’t kill yourself

Until Doctor Who is finally cancelled

Don’t kill yourself

Until you tell someone your best pasta recipe 

Don’t kill yourself 

Because I will keep coming up with reasons for you not to

And I need you

To hear all of them

Don’t kill yourself

I love you

You’re important

It’s a bad day

Not a bad life

There is more to this

The world will keep spinning on its axis without you

But

Think of all the sunrises you’d miss

I know this sounds pointless

But when you’re sitting in front of everything deadly you own

Revising your goodbyes

There will be too much darkness 

To see anything else

But this is not about seeing anything else

This is about turning off the lights

This is about finding the bed instead of the noose

This is about giving yourself one more day

Even if it takes ten thousand of those

One more morning’s

Until

“I can’t wait for tomorrow”

This is about staying alive

Because there’s gonna be a new Marvel movie

No one should miss that

This is about staying alive

Because the future is coming 

And it’s ready for you

I don’ t need you to see it

I just need you to believe you can make it 

Until then

You’re doing it so you can be confident in public, but not for the attention

The weight loss is not for the gender you’re attracted to, but because you don’t feel attractive

You’re tired of people making petty comments about your weight

You want people to stop trying to put your weight in a sugarcoated box by saying you’re ‘big boned’ ‘thicc’ ‘more to love’ ‘curvy’, etc.

One comment sent you into the start of your ED

A traumatic experience caused you to gain weight that just wouldn’t come off

New medication caused you to gain weight

A Doctor, family, teacher, or friend has ever called you fat

You feel this is the only way you’ll truly be comfortable in your own skin

You’re lying to family & friends

You feel a little bittersweet when they comment on your weight loss

It started as a ‘diet’ that spiraled out of control

You know recovery is an option, but you don’t want to

You used to deny your eating disorder