lowkey feeling debilitatingly ill over aos kirk. he quite literally can never escape his fatherās impromptu captaincy on the uss kelvin. so many of his actions are defined (whether he accepts it or not) by surviving a sacrifice he doesnāt even remember. how does he carry that guilt? jimās always the first to volunteer for dangerous reconnaissance missions, breakneck retrievals into enemy territory, and targetable distractions, despite his status as captain. does he feel like he has to live up to georgeās willingness to make the sacrifice play? or does he feel like he needs to posthumously earn his right to have lived?
and how did jim feel entering combat as captain of the enterprise for the first time, knowing that a constitution class vessel like his silver lady would absolutely be able to hold her own, but what if? or when he was finally outnumbered by krall, having to order the mass evacuation of his crew. was there relief at the core of his fear, that heād finally made his fatherās sacrifice worth it by giving his own life for his crew in turn? or deep down, did he feel ashamed that his father gave everything for him and his mother to live, only for him to go and die at 30? donāt even get me started on how he must have felt post-khan resurrection thereās too much to contemplate.
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