People who are younger than me who always regard myself as having lived a lifetime even passed when I'm dead and yet those who are older than me will always regard my life as unfinished up until time that I reach maybe middle-aged or old age and yet to myself I will always regard myself as never having been alive for long enough this I feel is the ultimate joke to god or gods depending on to what belief system you might subscribe here in lies what I believe to be a truth a truth that while many would disregard or regarded as being childish I myself believed to be ultimate it's not entirely unfounded either at 20 people don't believe they've lived long enough and yet eight-year-olds will look at these monoliths of experience and believe them to be by so profoundly large that they don't comprehend that this is 2 most people but a fraction of what we told that were able to complete by myself look at my current age of I'll be at 19 years and see in the past unused time I'm 14 years of that time we spent in school studying and yet I'm to believe that those were my glory days until I laughed and then I was told that University was going to be my glory days and then when I decided to leave University and pursue a career in hospitality I was told no don't worry you haven't lost your glory days they're at middle age and yet when I speak to middle-aged people or older people and ask them what they think my glory days might be they say we'll have yet to experience mine or or I'm hoping they're round the bend and it is at this point that I realise all those facetious or quote profound quotes of needing to seek out your own glory in your own time I'm are very much true life will not hand you anything it won't hand you lemons with which to make lemonade it won't hand you Diamonds with which 2forge beautiful rings instead deals you and credibly randomised hand whether you're born to to lower class poor suffering families middle class weather indulgent families or the ultra-rich billionaire families and this has made me realise Dakar nature the world were born to it is not ours it's not for humans it is instead forward self exists purely because it does our perceived sentence our ability to create only comes alongside our profound unintelligence this incredible dumbness a want for Destruction pathological need to disassemble in order to 2 to create product our ancestors and when I say h I use that in it's entirety I mean human ancestors down to the first bipedal monkey that we arose from would look at what we did and what do do with absolute envy our capacity to destroy and recreate is God like and yet we use it it for such a feeble fickle greedy disgusting system such as capitalism consumerism and I feel like those two words capital and consume very actually and succinctly describe and and shorten the name of of modern-day humans all we live for right now because there is nothing else that we can live for because life does not have purpose besides what is thrust upon us is capital and consumption
Idiot it is with this heavy and this tastes full realisation that I come to such a fantastic conclusion it is the with the current state of things all this hate and bigotry and the test that humans exude people realise or rather don't realise that we are heading towards a self destruction there's a new oil Project attempting to be funded and founded and if it it does become funded and founded it will ensure the death and destruction and finalization on the human race and whatever civilization comes next will find out ruins our HR2 temples to Creed and most likely if anything like us see them less as a warning and more as something to awe and so the cycle would continue
