Katrina Shepard

As mentioned on my Ashley blog, I've been working on moving things around and moving things over to new blogs for my Mass Effect muses. This was mostly prompted by a frustrating error/glitch that Tumblr was not helpful with in the slightest, as well as giving a different method of managing my blog(s) a try as I consider bring a few other older blogs back in other fandoms.

Please note the following:

I won't be deleting this blog. It'll just have the URL renamed. It'll stay up for reference and so I can retrieve or reblog things if necessary, and I'll still have access to it from the new blog (which will be a single blog by itself, which I can now follow from!

I WILL BE KEEPING ALL PREVIOUS INTERACTIONS, PLOTS, SHIPS, ETC. I don't plan on dropping any threads, they'll just pick up on the new blog once replies come in. You can reply to them freely and I will still see the notification (and will still see it in my thread tracker), and will simply reply from the new blog. No new work required on your part! If you need to update things in your tracker to remember whether I've replied from my old blogs, just add -archive to the end of the handle (ex. akuzeisms-archive) and it will fix!

I'll be keeping my old URL, so no new handle for you to memorize!

Going forward the best method/best blog to contact me through will be @xserawrites, which will still stay as a hub blog. Tumblr IMs are finicky but I notice push notifications for messages on my phone almost immediately, and that blog will be staying logged into my phone. If you don't have my Discord, you can message me from that blog! You're still free to message my RP blogs, but I may not be as prompt to respond. Most people were messaging me on that blog already, and it'll stay logged in even if I'm working on replies on the other blogs, so feel free to use it!

I'll be re-following everyone from the new blogs, so look out for that!

As mentioned on my Ashley blog, I've been working on moving things around and moving things over to new blogs for my Mass Effect muses. This was mostly prompted by a frustrating error/glitch that Tumblr was not helpful with in the slightest, as well as giving a different method of managing my blog(s) a try as I consider bring a few other older blogs back in other fandoms.

Please note the following:

I won't be deleting this blog. It'll just have the URL renamed. It'll stay up for reference and so I can retrieve or reblog things if necessary, and I'll still have access to it from the new blog (which will be a single blog by itself, which I can now follow from!

I WILL BE KEEPING ALL PREVIOUS INTERACTIONS, PLOTS, SHIPS, ETC. I don't plan on dropping any threads, they'll just pick up on the new blog once replies come in. You can reply to them freely and I will still see the notification (and will still see it in my thread tracker), and will simply reply from the new blog. No new work required on your part! If you need to update things in your tracker to remember whether I've replied from my old blogs, just add -archive to the end of the handle (ex. akuzeisms-archive) and it will fix!

I'll be keeping my old URL, so no new handle for you to memorize!

Going forward the best method/best blog to contact me through will be @xserawrites, which will still stay as a hub blog. Tumblr IMs are finicky but I notice push notifications for messages on my phone almost immediately, and that blog will be staying logged into my phone. If you don't have my Discord, you can message me from that blog! You're still free to message my RP blogs, but I may not be as prompt to respond. Most people were messaging me on that blog already, and it'll stay logged in even if I'm working on replies on the other blogs, so feel free to use it!

I'll be re-following everyone from the new blogs, so look out for that!

As mentioned on my Ashley blog, I've been working on moving things around and moving things over to new blogs for my Mass Effect muses. This was mostly prompted by a frustrating error/glitch that Tumblr was not helpful with in the slightest, as well as giving a different method of managing my blog(s) a try as I consider bring a few other older blogs back in other fandoms.

Please note the following:

I won't be deleting this blog. It'll just have the URL renamed. It'll stay up for reference and so I can retrieve or reblog things if necessary, and I'll still have access to it from the new blog (which will be a single blog by itself, which I can now follow from!

I WILL BE KEEPING ALL PREVIOUS INTERACTIONS, PLOTS, SHIPS, ETC. I don't plan on dropping any threads, they'll just pick up on the new blog once replies come in. You can reply to them freely and I will still see the notification (and will still see it in my thread tracker), and will simply reply from the new blog. No new work required on your part! If you need to update things in your tracker to remember whether I've replied from my old blogs, just add -archive to the end of the handle (ex. akuzeisms-archive) and it will fix!

I'll be keeping my old URL, so no new handle for you to memorize!

Going forward the best method/best blog to contact me through will be @xserawrites, which will still stay as a hub blog. Tumblr IMs are finicky but I notice push notifications for messages on my phone almost immediately, and that blog will be staying logged into my phone. If you don't have my Discord, you can message me from that blog! You're still free to message my RP blogs, but I may not be as prompt to respond. Most people were messaging me on that blog already, and it'll stay logged in even if I'm working on replies on the other blogs, so feel free to use it!

I'll be re-following everyone from the new blogs, so look out for that!

As mentioned on my Ashley blog, I've been working on moving things around and moving things over to new blogs for my Mass Effect muses. This was mostly prompted by a frustrating error/glitch that Tumblr was not helpful with in the slightest, as well as giving a different method of managing my blog(s) a try as I consider bring a few other older blogs back in other fandoms.

Please note the following:

I won't be deleting this blog. It'll just have the URL renamed. It'll stay up for reference and so I can retrieve or reblog things if necessary, and I'll still have access to it from the new blog (which will be a single blog by itself, which I can now follow from!

I WILL BE KEEPING ALL PREVIOUS INTERACTIONS, PLOTS, SHIPS, ETC. I don't plan on dropping any threads, they'll just pick up on the new blog once replies come in. You can reply to them freely and I will still see the notification (and will still see it in my thread tracker), and will simply reply from the new blog. No new work required on your part! If you need to update things in your tracker to remember whether I've replied from my old blogs, just add -archive to the end of the handle (ex. akuzeisms-archive) and it will fix!

I'll be keeping my old URL, so no new handle for you to memorize!

Going forward the best method/best blog to contact me through will be @xserawrites, which will still stay as a hub blog. Tumblr IMs are finicky but I notice push notifications for messages on my phone almost immediately, and that blog will be staying logged into my phone. If you don't have my Discord, you can message me from that blog! You're still free to message my RP blogs, but I may not be as prompt to respond. Most people were messaging me on that blog already, and it'll stay logged in even if I'm working on replies on the other blogs, so feel free to use it!

I'll be re-following everyone from the new blogs, so look out for that!

As mentioned on my Ashley blog, I've been working on moving things around and moving things over to new blogs for my Mass Effect muses. This was mostly prompted by a frustrating error/glitch that Tumblr was not helpful with in the slightest, as well as giving a different method of managing my blog(s) a try as I consider bring a few other older blogs back in other fandoms.

Please note the following:

I won't be deleting this blog. It'll just have the URL renamed. It'll stay up for reference and so I can retrieve or reblog things if necessary, and I'll still have access to it from the new blog (which will be a single blog by itself, which I can now follow from!

I WILL BE KEEPING ALL PREVIOUS INTERACTIONS, PLOTS, SHIPS, ETC. I don't plan on dropping any threads, they'll just pick up on the new blog once replies come in. You can reply to them freely and I will still see the notification (and will still see it in my thread tracker), and will simply reply from the new blog. No new work required on your part! If you need to update things in your tracker to remember whether I've replied from my old blogs, just add -archive to the end of the handle (ex. akuzeisms-archive) and it will fix!

I'll be keeping my old URL, so no new handle for you to memorize!

Going forward the best method/best blog to contact me through will be @xserawrites, which will still stay as a hub blog. Tumblr IMs are finicky but I notice push notifications for messages on my phone almost immediately, and that blog will be staying logged into my phone. If you don't have my Discord, you can message me from that blog! You're still free to message my RP blogs, but I may not be as prompt to respond. Most people were messaging me on that blog already, and it'll stay logged in even if I'm working on replies on the other blogs, so feel free to use it!

I'll be re-following everyone from the new blogs, so look out for that!

As mentioned on my Ashley blog, I've been working on moving things around and moving things over to new blogs for my Mass Effect muses. This was mostly prompted by a frustrating error/glitch that Tumblr was not helpful with in the slightest, as well as giving a different method of managing my blog(s) a try as I consider bring a few other older blogs back in other fandoms.

Please note the following:

I won't be deleting this blog. It'll just have the URL renamed. It'll stay up for reference and so I can retrieve or reblog things if necessary, and I'll still have access to it from the new blog (which will be a single blog by itself, which I can now follow from!

I WILL BE KEEPING ALL PREVIOUS INTERACTIONS, PLOTS, SHIPS, ETC. I don't plan on dropping any threads, they'll just pick up on the new blog once replies come in. You can reply to them freely and I will still see the notification (and will still see it in my thread tracker), and will simply reply from the new blog. No new work required on your part! If you need to update things in your tracker to remember whether I've replied from my old blogs, just add -archive to the end of the handle (ex. akuzeisms-archive) and it will fix!

I'll be keeping my old URL, so no new handle for you to memorize!

Going forward the best method/best blog to contact me through will be @xserawrites, which will still stay as a hub blog. Tumblr IMs are finicky but I notice push notifications for messages on my phone almost immediately, and that blog will be staying logged into my phone. If you don't have my Discord, you can message me from that blog! You're still free to message my RP blogs, but I may not be as prompt to respond. Most people were messaging me on that blog already, and it'll stay logged in even if I'm working on replies on the other blogs, so feel free to use it!

I'll be re-following everyone from the new blogs, so look out for that!

Oh, hell. That chuckle of his—it’s enough to make just how flustered she is ten times worse. She can tell he’s nervous, too; she’s glad none of the other crew members are around to witness their conversation. A lack of privacy would’ve just made it worse. But then again, she’s wondering—what is Kaidan getting at? His words, the way he looks in her direction… maybe she’s the one confusing things. Maybe she’s misunderstanding.

“I… I don’t know what would be… perhaps wrong is the—wrong word to use.” Deep breaths, she reminded herself. “More like… I don’t want to misinterpret something I’m seeing as something that isn’t what’s intended.” She didn’t want to get her hopes up. Forget the regs—they were beyond that now. Their whole ship was beyond that. As long as it was kept quiet and unassuming… Kat was sure there wouldn’t be any harm. She could separate duty and feeling. And she was sure the rest of them could, too.

“I’m sorry. I’m… not exactly a people person. Or—not good at being one. Since Akuze, I… no, not Akuze. Since… Mindoir.” She didn’t let people get too close. Just close enough to be friendly, but nothing more. But she’s been trying—and in some aspects, she feels like she’s failing, too. Saying the wrong thing, wishing she could backpedal and say something else, or situations like now, where she’s struggling to find the right words. She wanted to explain to him why she was so distant sometimes, why she struggled to find the right thing to say, or why at times she fumbled over words with the crew. She was good at being a soldier. She was good at being in command. She wasn’t so good at the rest of that.

Kaidan is feeling so AWKWARD right now. She is his Commander; he knows he shouldn’t have some kind of interest for her. He doesn’t have the right to do so, but he truly can’t do otherwise. He loves when she smiles. He loves to listen to what she has to say, no matter if it’s about the mission or about anything else. He’s just glad when they can spend time together, and he’s always glad when he follows her across the many missions they’re doing, too.

He raises an eyebrow before he chuckles again. He’s nervous. He hopes he doesn’t show it that much. “Misinterpret ?” He repeats, not sure of what she means. “I think I’m easy to read. It shouldn’t happen with me.” Or maybe she’ll notice how he feels about her, and maybe it’ll ruin everything. But Kaidan has always been bad at lying. It won’t change anytime soon.

But Mindoir... Could she talk about it? Should she talk about it? It was such a traumatic day for her. But Kaidan had talked about his time at BAaT--brain camp, as he called it--and had a very... similar story to hers. The incident with Vyrnnus she understood on a personal level; she knew what it was like to react out of self-preservation instinct, and kill someone when that wasn't your intention at all. As a teenager she'd been soft, gentle even; but Mindoir had changed that. Akuze had changed that even more. She grew harder, colder in some ways, keeping people at arm's length whenever possible to protect herself.

But this was Kaidan. It seemed no matter how hard he tried, he got under her skin, and not in a bad way; he was warm, kind, and gentle for what he'd been through. Idly wringing her hands--a normal gesture when she was nervous or uncomfortable--Kat took a deep breath, gaze turned to the floor as she spoke. "I was at a friend's house. Marina. She was--my best friend, really. I don't even remember what we were doing, because everything happened so... fast. The next thing I knew, there were batarians coming through the door, guns blazing... I watched as they shot both her parents without hesitation. They'd grabbed Marina and her brother, and... I could just hear her screaming for me, screaming for help. I ran." There was the faintest tremble in her voice, like she hated the cowardice she'd shown that day.

"I ran home, thinking I could get help, thinking my parents and my brother--my twin brother, no less--could help. I came in, saw both of my parents were dead, and they dragged my brother out of his hiding place. He tried to fight back, but they killed him, too. And just like before, I... I ran. One of them caught up to me, grabbed me by the hair." As if she could feel the tug on her hair from that day, she reached up, rubbing her scalp with her fingers.

"I tried to fight back, and that eventually just pissed him off. He let go and turned a gun on me. I panicked, and... all I saw was this... flash of blue light, and the next thing I knew, he'd hit the wall. I could hear his skull crack from the impact. And he crumpled into a dead heap on the ground." She heaved a sigh, flexing her hands in her lap.

"I... I'd never seen nor used biotics before. The doctors suspect that I'd been exposed in-utero initially, but never developed biotic potential, but when the batarians blew up one of the ships nearby during the attack, I was exposed again, and... that's how I managed it. An Alliance patrol caught the distress signal, brought me on to their ship... but all I could think about was that I'd killed someone. Even if he'd been ready to kill me, turned a gun on me... I still killed him. I still took his life. Even if there was more blood on his hands than on mine." She kept staring at her hands, like she were lost and confused. She'd never told anyone--at all--about killing that batarian. Sha'ira had come close, but Sha'ira had seen what happened. It wasn't the same as verbalizing it.

By all accounts, she shouldn’t have survived. It was barely, really; any other human would have died doing what she did. Fortunately, her body was… not normal, not by any standards. Her cybernetics were damaged, but salvageable; a certain Miranda Lawson, with resources provided from a very helpful Shadow Broker, was able to find the right personnel to stabilize Kat’s condition so she could heal. It was arguably much easier than trying to bring her back from the dead; at least this time, she was alive, she just needed time. That time became quicker, easier in a sense, as her body healed at much higher speeds thanks to all of the enhancements Cerberus had initially resurrected her with. Her skin could be repaired with nanites, just like her cybernetic fissures had been permanently healed on her face.

But she didn’t wake up. Not right away, anyway. She didn’t want to; one could say that she was taking a well-earned rest, at least for the first little bit. Kat didn’t want to wake up, not after everything she’d been through. If she woke up, she’d have to deal with guilt, consequences, the fact that she’d lost just one more person… and that was just too much. Anderson was more than just her old CO, more than just a friend. He was like a father to her–a father when she’d lost her own, years ago. He’d practically taken her under his wing, like she were a little duckling in the Alliance in her early days, and helped and supported her to the position of prestige and honour she carried now. But she was tired of it. She was tired of that voice in her head; she knew it wasn’t her being crazy, but rather, it was her guilty conscience nagging at her underneath every decision she made, every piece of crap she had lobbed at her in life… everything.

Her ears heard a different voice. One she recognized, and welcomed; it was warm and familiar, in a way. It was enough to make her groan, stirring briefly as her fingers twitched under the blankets. She was stable, and even physically healthy; after all, she recovered from injury much faster than the average human. But she was tired, and she was hurting–emotionally. The war had taken a bigger toll on her than she’d been letting on to any members of her crew, and she’d fought to mask it as much as she could. She had to smile. She had to be confident. She had to keep the morale up, even if the weight was starting to break her, little by little. Even if she no longer felt like a person, and felt more like a glorified idol to the people, if it won them the war… then what was the harm in her sacrificing her own sanity?

Her grey eyes opened, scanning the room, and at first she felt fear. Deja-vu, really; it was like that first time she’d woke up on the Cerberus station, hearing nothing but a disembodied voice over the comm system urging her to wake up. No voice this time; granted, she might’ve welcomed hearing Miranda’s voice. No, this couldn’t be the same as that time–that day that she’d felt like everything had changed in an instant. Not again. She couldn’t do that again; she couldn’t return to a life where she felt like she’d lost years of her time, like everything around her–all of her friends, the people she called family–had changed in an instant. That fear, even as her gaze eventually locked at Kaidan sitting by her bedside, was visible in just her eyes, even if her face didn’t show it.

“I"m..?” Her voice is weak, but it’s there, at least. She wasn’t dead, even if she should have been. All she could do was pray things hadn’t changed drastically again; she wasn’t sure if she could handle that a second time. It’d done enough damage to her the first time. What he knows, though, is that she needs to keep her friends from seeing her crumble, Kaidan included. She felt the tears welling in her eyes, forcing her to remind herself that she can’t let them see her cry. She can’t let them see her when she’s weak. If she can’t be strong, how can she expect everyone else to hold their heads up high?

“Please don’t tell me you’ve been waiting here for ages,” she practically begged. She’s curious how long it’s been, yet at the same time… she’s not sure she wants to know. A few months would be understandable; if she was in critical condition, that’d make perfect sense. She just doesn’t want to feel that same disconnect again; she doesn’t want to go back into the world and have to readjust to missing years of her life, seeing her friends change drastically in her absence while she’s left feeling like things changed overnight.

Of course, this situation is SIMILAR to what first happened a few months after they defeated Saren. Kaidan just can’t forget the attack of the Collectors, on the first Normandy. He argued with Kat back then, because he didn’t want to give up on her and she wanted to protect everyone, as usual. And she died that day, but Cerberus brought her back. It messed many things. Kaidan wasn’t even sure he could trust her anymore; he was scared she had some kind of chip inside her brain, just so Cerberus could use her for their own needs. That’s why he refused to accompany her, when they met on Horizon. A part of her had been so happy to see her, but on the other hand, he also felt like it couldn’t truly be her, that it was just another trap.

He eventually realized it wasn’t the case, of course, but it was too late. For a moment, he was very scared that she wouldn’t want him around anymore. When they first worked together on Mars, Kaidan found Kat again; it was truly her, and he shouldn’t have stayed away from her. Maybe she would have even needed him against the Collectors. Garrus, Tali and Joker hadn’t left her side, after all. But at least, Kaidan was welcomed back to the team. They FOUND each other again. And he was there for the war against the Reapers, which was probably the most important part of all of it.

He can’t forget the moment he was injured. Kat had pretty much FORCED him to leave, and Garrus had accompanied him. They had remained silent for so long because no one knew what was happening. A lot of people thought Shepard had died. They even made a small ceremony for her on the Normandy, but at the last second, Kaidan decided to not put her name on the wall, with all the other people they lost because of that war. Something told him Kat was still alive, somewhere. He’ll never know why he was convinced of that fact, but he just knew it was the case.

It took a while to find her, though, and even longer for her to wake up, which wasn’t entirely surprising either. However, this time, Kaidan just refused to leave her side. Of course, he needs to take care of himself, but Kat was more IMPORTANT. He let her on her own once, but he will never do it again. And now, the war is over. They are at peace. There’s nothing more important than that, nothing more meaningful than that. A lot of people died because of the Reapers, even innocent ones. But they’re still there, and they can start thinking of rebuilding everything; they can start thinking of what will come next.

"I'm... I don't really know." She couldn't answer his question. Even as she thought about it, she didn't know what she felt. There was the lingering fear that maybe this was another of those crazy dreams of hers, that it was just a nightmare she'd wake up from. Or maybe the Reapers hadn't come yet, and she'd just been in some strange coma since the Collectors attacked. Her head was a mess. She felt like she'd gone back to that strange disconnect from reality she'd experienced the first time she woke up.

"I'm sorry. I can't... I don't know how to answer that." She shook her head, wishing it didn't hurt so damn much to piece everything together. Kaidan was here this time; he hadn't been there the last time. Or was it last time? It took her a moment, but she finally found the right words to ask what she wanted, hesitantly turning her gaze back at Kaidan.

"The Reapers?" She asked, her tone uncertain. "And... Anderson?" Her voice choked on Anderson's name. Her last memory of him was his dying breaths, seeing him held at gunpoint by the Illusive Man. The man who'd been like a father to her, for so many years. Hackett wasn't much further off, but Anderson? She had a more personal connection with Anderson. He'd been one of the first people to believe in her. He'd been one of the first people to stand up for her when she said they were coming. And he'd fought harder than anyone else she knew of in this war.

𝙾𝚄𝚁 𝙷𝙸𝚂𝚃𝙾𝚁𝚈 𝙸𝚂 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰’𝚂 𝙷𝙸𝚂𝚃𝙾𝚁𝚈. 𝙻𝙾𝙽𝙶, 𝙱𝙻𝙾𝙾𝙳𝚈, 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙰𝙻𝚆𝙰𝚈𝚂 𝙴𝙽𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙸𝙽 𝙼𝚈 𝙵𝙰𝚅𝙾𝚁. 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙳𝙴𝚃𝙰𝙸𝙻𝚂…𝙰𝚁𝙴 𝙲𝙾𝙼𝙿𝙻𝙸𝙲𝙰𝚃𝙴𝙳. 𝚆𝙷𝙴𝙽 𝙸 𝙰𝚁𝚁𝙸𝚅𝙴𝙳, 𝙾𝙼𝙴𝙶𝙰 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙻𝙰𝚆𝙻𝙴𝚂𝚂. 𝙰 𝙻𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙾𝙵…𝙾𝙿𝙿𝙾𝚁𝚃𝚄𝙽𝙸𝚃𝚈. 𝙸 𝙱𝚄𝙸𝙻𝚃 𝙰𝙻𝙻𝙸𝙰𝙽𝙲𝙴𝚂, 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙳𝙴𝚂𝚃𝚁𝙾𝚈𝙴𝙳 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙵𝙾𝙾𝙻𝚂 𝚆𝙷𝙾 𝚆𝙾𝚄𝙻𝙳𝙽’𝚃 𝙶𝙴𝚃 𝙸𝙽 𝙻𝙸𝙽𝙴. 𝚆𝙷𝙸𝙲𝙷 𝚆𝙰𝚂 𝙼𝙾𝚂𝚃 𝙾𝙵 𝚃𝙷𝙴𝙼.

continuing from this list i made earlier!

“ i miss you. ”

“ i don’t think i can do this anymore. ”

“ were you really about to leave without saying goodbye? ”

“ please don’t make me say it. ”

“ i need you. ”

“ please don’t go… ”

“ you know i’m never going to let anything happen to you. don’t you? ”

“ are you… are you afraid of me? ”

“ you’re a good person. ”

“ don’t worry. i’ll stay. i’m not going anywhere. ”

“ …is what they’re saying true? ”

“ i don’t care about any of that. i only care about you! ”

“ i’m here. ”

“ you have no idea how glad i am to see you. ”

“ just… tell me how to fix this. ”

“ please. now is not the time for lies. please, just… tell me the truth. ”

“ you know you can tell me anything… right? ”

“ hey… there is nothing in this world that you can tell me, that’ll ever make me hate, fear, or leave you. please, rest easy in that knowledge. ”

“ i never thought i’d see you again. ”

“ please… you have to understand why i did what i did… ”

“ why didn’t you tell me? ”

“ everyone has secrets, don’t they? i’m sure you’ll tell me yours when you’re ready. ”

“ you’re not alone. ”

“ you can trust me. ”

“ i can’t believe i ever trusted you… ”

“ it’s okay… everything’s going to be alright. ”

“ i…  i  don’t know how to fix this. ”

“ there’s no other way, is there? ”

“ no. absolutely not. no way. i’m not letting you do this. ”

“ you don’t know what it was like. ”

“ for gods sake, don’t do this! don’t you dare make me lose anyone else! not today! ”

“ i can’t lose you… ”

“ haven’t we suffered enough? can’t we have this one good thing? ”

“ you know, i think this might be the first time i’ve ever seen you frightened… ”

“ goodbye, my love/old friend. ”

“ you didn’t honestly expect me to let you do this alone, did you? ”

“ you lied to me. ”

“ you abandoned me. ”

“ promise me. ”

“ you promised! ”

“ please don’t do this… ”

“ we were one hell of a pair, weren’t we? ”

“ perhaps i am a little frightened… ”

“ we’re a team. remember? so let’s face this one together. ”

“ sorry. you’re stuck with me, i’m afraid. it’s part of the whole friendship/relationship thing. wherever you go, i go. ”

“ you… you must know, before anything else happens tonight… you must know that you were the greatest thing that ever happened to me. ”

idk my dudes i started listening to the etern.als theme music and now i have these things. bon appetit!

“ i’d follow you to the ends of the universe, if you asked me to. ”

“ how bad is it this time? ”

“ we’re the only thing standing between this world and its destruction. ”

“ we could stop all of this… with just a thought/flick of my wrist. “

“ fair?! how is any of this fair?! “

“ do you truly believe that anything so little as a rule, or a law, might have stopped me from protecting you? “

“ we have to fight. ”

“ we’re not giving up. ”

“ you. i’ll always and endlessly fight for you. “

“ i can wait a thousand lifetimes for you. “

“ we’ve had a pretty good life. but maybe normalcy is a thing we’re meant to protect, rather than enjoy. ”

“ i don’t know if i can protect you any longer. “

“ we’ve seen what they’re capable of. now we need to retaliate. “

“ if only the world knew what we do for them… ”

“ i’m sick and tired of being the one who has to make the sacrifices! ”

“ haven’t we lost enough? ”

“ i’m tired. beyond tired… i am exhausted from the endless fighting. ”

“ things must be catastrophic if you’re calling me at this hour. ”

“ this is what we’ve been waiting for. ”

“ i’d follow you to the bitter end; as i always have. ”

“ the time has come. ”

“ this is what we’ve been waiting for. ”

“ i thought we had more time.  i regret to confess… it appears that i was wrong. ”

“ don’t let them control you, eh? ”

“ you’re better than this. ”

“ everything’s about to change… ”

“ do you truly think so little of me? ”

“ careful… you’ve never had to fight me before. ”

“ we need to leave. ”

“ we’re a good team, you know. “

“ look around you. do you still truly see no reason for us to fight? “

“ we’re family. we don’t turn our backs on each other. “

“ it’s too late! let’s go! ”

“ it wasn’t your fault… ”

“ why are you doing this?! ”

“ i’m sorry… “

“ perhaps i don’t say it enough, but… i’d like you to know that i’m always here, if you ever wanted to talk. ”

“ you/they will always be worth fighting for. ”

“ don’t pretend like you understand. “

“ tell me how i can fix this… ”

“ don’t say it. ”

“ they’re not worth saving. ”

“ i am a god. you… you’re nothing. “

❛  are you okay ?  ❜ ❛  believe in yourself.  ❜ ❛  care to explain ?  ❜ ❛  close your eyes.  ❜ ❛  don’t be afraid.  ❜ ❛  don’t overthink it.  ❜ ❛  don’t underestimate me.  ❜ ❛  forget i asked.  ❜ ❛  how are you ?  ❜ ❛  i don’t care.  ❜ ❛  i don’t remember.  ❜ ❛  i hate you.  ❜ ❛  i love you.  ❜ ❛  i need you.  ❜ ❛  i’ll be there.  ❜ ❛  i’m so sorry.  ❜ ❛  it’s over now.  ❜ ❛  i’ve missed you.  ❜ ❛  just be honest.  ❜ ❛  just trust me.  ❜ ❛  leave me alone.  ❜ ❛  let me in.  ❜ ❛  maybe you’re right.  ❜ ❛  never give up.  ❜ ❛  no , stop it !  ❜ ❛  please be careful.  ❜ ❛  please believe me.  ❜ ❛  please don’t cry.  ❜ ❛  please forgive me.  ❜ ❛  so … that’s it ?  ❜ ❛  speak the truth.  ❜ ❛  talk to me.  ❜ ❛  that’s fucked up.  ❜ ❛  this isn’t working.  ❜ ❛  we can’t stay.  ❜ ❛  what about me ?  ❜ ❛  what’s going on ?  ❜ ❛  what’s your problem ?  ❜ ❛  where are we ?  ❜ ❛  who are you ?  ❜ ❛  you did it !  ❜ ❛  you don’t understand.  ❜ ❛  you need help.  ❜ ❛  you’re kidding me.  ❜ ❛  you’re safe now.  ❜

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aka i really love the energy of this dynamic, but unfortunately this whole effort turned into me typing down actual dialogue that happened in my car while my poor father tried to teach me how to drive. but they make for fun threads! bon appetit!

from the mentor.

“ you’re doing it wrong. ”

“ would you like me to show you how to do it? ”

“ that… that’s not how you do it. ”

“ maybe this mentoring stuff requires patience that i don’t have. ”

“ keep doing it like that, and you’ll end up hurting yourself. ”

“ correct me if i’m wrong, but that’s not how i showed you to do it, is it? ”

“ okay, alright, look at me. you looking? do it exactly like i’m doing it. ”

“ move your feet, come on, you’ve got to move if you don’t want to end up flat on your ass again! ”

“ look… it’s progress, yeah? you’re better than you were before. ”

“ don’t beat yourself up; it’s a tricky move, nobody gets it right the first time. ”

“ okay, let’s… let’s try a different tactic. ”

“ you’re overthinking it. don’t think; just be in the moment. ”

“ stop, stop… alright. looking back on what you’ve just done, what do you think i’m going to say? ”

“ there’s definitely plenty of room for improvement. ”

“ ah… god, okay, don’t cry… it’s not as bad as it looks, you’re really not as bad at this as you think! ”

“ we’ll get there together. ”

“ okay. time for a break, yeah? let’s stop for now, catch a breath, we can come back to it later. ”

“ you obviously don’t enjoy any of this; why do you want me to teach you so badly? ”

“ i could teach you, if you’d like? ”

“ come on, like i showed you, remember? ”

“ feet apart, hands up; anticipate your opponent’s movements! ”

“ alright… don’t think about getting hit. this isn’t a fight. it’s a dance. you move in response and in anticipation of your opponent. ”

“ who the hell taught you to do that?! ”

“ that wasn’t terrible! you didn’t butcher it this time! ”

“ wake up. wake up, come on, up and at ‘em. you said you wanted to learn, so come on. up you get! ”

“ that was good! hell, that was brilliant! you knocked me off my feet! good job! ”

“ you need to stop worrying about hurting me. you gonna apologize and pay the hospital bills of whatever bad guy you go against next time? ”

“ i’m proud of you. ”

“ you’re doing great! “

from the mentee

“ can you teach me how to do that? “

“ i did it! “

“ okay, there’s no need to be dramatic, i wasn’t that bad! “

“ i AM trying. “

“ oh god, oh, i’m so sorry! did i hurt you? “

“ i need your help with this. okay? i can’t do this alone. “

“ you’re the expert, right? “

“ i’ve seen you fight; i wanna be as good as you! “

“ people’s lives are at stake if i lose. their blood’s gonna be on my hands, and it’ll be on yours, too, if you don’t help me. “

“ quit yelling at me, i’m trying my best! “

“ i’m doing it exactly like you told me to, and i’m still not getting it right. “

“ i don’t need a break! i need to keep going until i get this right! “

“ show me how you did it. “

“ i don’t know how. and you do. all i’m asking is for a few hours of training… please? “

“ that’s it. i quit! “

“ you’re a terrible teacher, you know that? “

“ you said you’d teach me. and i’m here to learn. so let’s go already. “

“ what’s the point?! i’m useless at this! “