Nakaka 8 hrs of sleep na ko lagi simula nung nag 12pm yung shift ko. Kailangan ko lang siguro talaga ng tamang tulog. Imagine for a year 2am out ko then magigising ako ng 7am. Sobrang sleep deprived ako simula 18 yrs old kakatrabaho+mag aaral pa. Siguro my body is paying for neglecting my health. Pero wala din naman akong choice that time. Sa totoo lang eto na yung pinaka convenient na set up sa buong buhay ko. Kaya hindi na ko magrereklamo. HAHHA.

Yang deep sleep na yan, napanaginipan ko pa yung crush ko. eme. Teenager ka ghorl? Bumili na ko ng cake para di na ko kulitin ni ally. Siya din pinag blow ko kase gustong gusto nya yan haha. Then we ended the day happy naman. Delayed gratification malala. Gusto ko makaipon ng madami this year. Lord i want moreeee blessings huhu.

Sa work i’m still killing it. Sabi nga ng clinical team sobrang thankful sila sa existence ko and binabakla ko na lang sila minsan kase bakit naman sobrang seryoso ng mga yan. Happy naman ako na gumagana yung pagiging assertive ko minsan. Dahil di tayo magpapa api sa mga dayuhan. Eme. Third world country lang tayo pero when it comes to work ethics top tier ang Pinoy. Makapag sl nga bukas HAHHA.

I romanticize my life soo much when i was poor. Well, not the poorest kind of. But i had a room full of dreams, vision boards, pictures from kinder to college, a good piece of a blanket, banig and pillow. Then a stack of notebooks(devotional) with tatay’s 10 year old bible cause i can’t afford one. A big bear given by my ex, some clothes I deeply cherished cause we only get new clothes during Christmas then lots of books i just got from BookSale. While imagining my old room, i definitely missed that version of me full of hope. With all the silly diaries i have to make and keep under just so the family won’t read it, and all the arts and letters from my close friends. Love letters in my old pocket full of promises. It’s like a museum of everything i love.

Because i missed you a little bit more today Inay. 🤍

Sobrang ganda ng sunset kanina kase sobrang lakas ng alon for me, or oa na naman ako. Pero ang sarap sa ears ng tunog nakaka relax and comforting siya after a stressful week. Ang sayaaaa huminga today ganun. Then we just play outside the church and kulitan lang answering her why’s na sobrang walang tigil haha. Then went to a vietnamese kinda resto and tried their pho and stir fried noodles and grabe authentic siya dahil vietnamese talaga yung chef nila kaso natapon ko yung konting sabaw. Then the stir fried was so-so feel ko kaya ko siyang lutuin eme. This day felt like a reset for me. And soooo grateful for this rest dahil i deserve it. Bukas kase mag gegeneral cleaning na naman ako and mag dedeclutter.

Asked her to take a picture of everything she loves kase may meeting ako yesterday and tho quiet and behave na siya pag may meeting ako kase very considerate na siya, she still listened to me. And here we go, all the cherished plushies na sobrang mahal na mahal niya. I know these are just pictures but this is how she view it. This is her childhood. 🤍