aiyh

So I need you to know, I absolutely need you to know, that as Aziraphale watches Crowley walk away, after he (Aziraphale) declares that it’s over between them

there is the slightest little lip wobble. did you see it??? HERE, LEMME GIVE YOU A CLOSE-UP

kill me now

JUST LOOK AT THE HEARTBREAK ON HIS FACE. Because he knows–he just knows–that this is it. Six thousand years and this is the last time he’ll ever see Crowley.

Even if he manages to stop Armaggedon, this is it. It’s over. He said it was over. Why did he do that? He doesn’t WANT it to be over. Six thousand years wasn’t enough, how is he gonna manage six thousand more without him?

the OTHER THING that I absolutely need you to see again is Crowley’s reaction to being told it’s over

he just stands there and stares. He just stands there for so long that I can’t gif it because it’s too big of a file. That’s how thrown Crowley is

play it cool, play it cool, he doesn’t know he just smashed my heart into the finest dust. 

And the fact that Aziraphale only lasts a few seconds watching him leave?? before he has to look away??? It just fucking kills me. 

Not only is it too painful for him, but he knows that he’s hurt Crowley, even though Crowley will never admit it, he’ll just internalize it just like he’s internalized everything that’s hurt him since the Falling. Just like he’s internalized the hurt from the Falling.

He’s connecting with so many people regarding depression, gender identity and sexuality and letting them know it’s ok.

Also he just straight up has accepted his life is no longer his own and is Aziraphale’s life instead. Look! He said “my” in relation to this fan art of Az.

Aziraphale stays pretty much the same through the years. He keeps basically the same style of hair, the same clothes for far beyond when they were at the height of fashion, and was severely disappointed when his favorite dance went out of style. 

Aziraphale + getting the chance to talk about Crowley and immediately getting excited and going on, unprompted, about his wiles

+the tired bf

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