li jie and yuan wuhuo being two split halves of old yuan wuhuo's soul MMMHMHMGMGFM now thats a theory that speaks to me

I THOUGHT IT WAS A JOKE BUT THEN Veil Of Shadows truly aired LMAO

Shane ‘I can’t always understand the most basic of social cues and subtext’ Hollander meets Ilya ‘I can’t talk about emotions earnestly or plainly without being obtuse because it’s never been safe for me’ Rozanov and we wonder why they were in the most heartbreaking situationship for like nearly a decade

i know we all know this but the tuna melts scene is so devastating in its entirety because here we have ilya who has been planning for days not only to maybe hopefully have shane spend the night at his place but also (equally if not more) hopefully try to tell or at least show shane what he feels for him and it's working because shane says okay when ilya asks him to stay and shane eats the food ilya makes for him and shane goes willingly when ilya pulls him back into his arms and onto his chest and when ilya slips and says shane's first name shane says ilya's right back and it must've been such a relief for a myriad of different reasons and in a myriad of different ways and suddenly shane pulls away and creates a distance and all but refuses to even look at ilya and you can see the absolute confusion and panic and fear in ilya's eyes because he thinks he fucked it all up and he tries to fix it by calling shane by his last name again because that's familiar ground and when it doesn't work he says it again but it's comes out as more of a pleading than anything else because he can feel everything he has and wants with shane slip between his fingers and then shane leaves and ilya's alone again and it breaks my heart over and over again

ilya likes to call shane boring while also finding him endlessly interesting & wanting to know everything about him. Look at that simp!!!

listening to all the things she said whilst thinking about hollanov because i love suffering