justanotherperson

But you don't care, do you?

Your life is not as miserable as mine, isn't it?

Someone will hold you, kiss you, love you and take care of you, but it'll not be me.

All the ways I wanted to caress you, cherish you, will be done by someone else, not me.

And the first person you will think of before going to sleep or after waking up, will not anymore be me.

Even though my gut is cutting out my skin to make me understand that you're here for not forever.

I'm a very weird person I guess as I don't really know for sure what makes me happy. But I'll try to list them anyway:

Time with family. Making hilarious comments, pulling each others legs, reminiscing past and having fun.

Making something, either craft or painting. I rarely get the feeling of satisfaction when I make a diy craft or painting.

Food. Idk if I'm a foodie or a gluttonous freak.

When I get the coding right at one go, or get the logic of a coding. Different satisfaction.

"I carried you, till I buried you

Now the memories all I have, as our story fades to black."

BL World or Xianxia/wuxia World. 

"It's been a year now. I'll play the Song Of Inquiry soon, like I did yesterday, or the day before yesterday, every day. I even bought Emperor's Smile today. It's your favorite wine. So please Wei Ying, give me some sign. Every time I play the Song Of Inquiry and no soul answers it breaks me a little inside. I'll never tell you to not play Chenqing. I'll let you sneak out in the night. I'll do everything right this time. So Wei Ying, come back for the last time."

"Although all of you may lose your appearances, you'll always live inside me

Even though i couldn't say goodbye, I'll try to move on.

You'll always live inside me."

fuyu no hanashi//Given ost

"I'm ready to fall, I'm ready to crawl on my knees to know it all

I'm ready to heal, I'm ready to feel

Take me there"

world behind my walls//Tokio Hotel

Flower Of Evil was such a beautiful drama. Do Hyun Soo was devoid of feelings, he never felt pain or happiness or sadness. He always mirrored the expression the other was showing.

But after Ji Won showed up, he started feeling things. He smiled, laughed and made others feel love. He loved his daughter and his wife without him knowing it for himself. He cried when Ji Won was on the verge of leaving his life, he lost his every sanity when he heard Ji Won is dead. And what makes it even more beautiful is that he was unaware that he has started to feel emotions.

“You know the greatest loves of all time are over now. In my defense, I have none For digging up the grave another time But it would’ve been fun If you would’ve been the one”

the 1//Taylor Swift

To every one who keeps saying that Shizun x Binghe shouldn't have happened and they should've just maintained the teacher-student relationship, let me tell you something.

Firstly: The "Shizun" of the story and "Shen Jiu" are different person. Shen Jiu is way older than Binghe since he is a Peak lord so he must have been cultivating for a long time.. So he's basically old. But the "Shizun" that Binghe loves is actually the reader who transmigrated. So he's maybe in his youth. So not much of an age difference from Binghe.

Secondly: Transmigrated "Shizun" was a Binghe fan from the beginning. When he came into the world of novel he spent every hour of the day with Binghe. They looked after themselves. So it's normal for him to develop feeling for Binghe, but he was unaware as he was too much focused on the harem.For Binghe, Shizun was the first person who treated him like a human, so it's obvious for him to develop feelings.