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but not enough people are talking about

"i thought you'd left"

"...i don't think i can."

AND THEN THE FUCKING SHOW JUST ENDS WTF

what. does. it. mean. is it just the fact that he's tied there spiritually because of the memories? or is it that he has some kind of mission? i want to understand so badly bro help

Because like really think about this they all hate themselves and they all don’t understand how to process that feeling and they all find their own flavour of self destruction to help them deal with that pain

Carrie is the eldest, the one who feels she should have been looking after Rosemary better. She hates herself for not being Harris’s daughter, for not having his chin, for not being as good as her sisters and not being worthy of Pfeffs undivided attention. She takes drugs to dull the edges. She rejects her own pain so thoroughly she makes it everyone else’s problem to deal with. Even down to what happens to Pfeff himself- she rejects the pain of his rejection so much everyone else has to deal with it. She expresses over and over that she’s miserable and gets all the attention she asks for and it never once makes her happy.

Then we get beautiful middle child Penelope Taft. She hates herself for being gay, for not being able to force herself straight, for not knowing what to do with her beauty that wouldn’t make her feel like an alien in her own skin. She sees her older sister throwing all that pain outwards and she draws her own deep, deep into herself. She starves herself and forces herself to marry a man and have a child and perform as the prettiest Sinclair girl in the family. She made her heart smaller and smaller and smaller until she was a nothing more than a shell filled with panic and barely suppressed tears. She hides her true self behind her sharp wit because it’s so much easier than being seen but she is so desperately and unendingly lonely.

Finally we come to Bess. Perfect Bess, always a little too young to join in, always running twice as fast just to barely keep up. She hates herself for never being enough for her sisters to bother with, for not being able to fill the gap left by Rosemary, for being the youngest at all. She takes all that hate and makes it perfectionistic resentment. She creates a life that belongs on the cover of a homemaking magazine and talks down to anyone else who can’t match her. She created the absolute pinnacle of what she thinks a woman should be, she makes sure she measures up in every capacity and cannot stand that they still don’t want her anyway. She tilts her strong jaw back and fills the outline she thinks was drawn for her and she is so so tired.

warned haymitch about lenore dove

was convinced katniss didn’t love peeta

Snow:

I rewatched the first movie and I cried so much harder than usual because I know this was not the first Prim. Not the first Rue. Not by a long shot. And we have no clue the depths of the cruelty.