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     he supposes he should be over it by now. though he’s not sure what the expiration date to moping is and if there was one he’d broken it too many times to now begin to care. but the truth is … despite popular belief, he cares too much ; about everything, about all the small annoyances he claim to pick on for the amusement, all the digs and all the harsh words, his father’s absence and his mother’s misery, and her. most of all he cares about her. see, that’s why he’d never been good at vocalizing feelings. because once they were out there, once walls had been broken down and demolished, the person on the end could still let you down. they could take those emotions and squash them with one single word. or in this case, two. he doesn’t expect to see her ever again, and some part of him doesn’t want to, either. he doesn’t know what to say, he doesn’t know what to do … all he knows is that this is not what he wants. or how he wants it. teeth graze against his lower lip, a sharp whistle tone made for a pup to come hopping his way. leashing the shiba, he barely gives her a glance, and certainly not a word – nothing more than she’d given him – and he passes her by. there’s a growing pressure against this chest and there’s a pounding of his heart, but he doesn’t stop. he doesn’t stop and he doesn’t speak and frankly, he doesn’t feel. because if he did … all it’d be would be anger. and pain. and if a sliver of emotion is to be let through a patched up wall, it would surely cause a crack expand and for all those feelings stored away to come BURSTING through the crevices. fuck that. 

she tosses her worn-out backpack onto the back seat of her brand new car— a tricky statement, considering it’s sort of an upgrade from her last vehicle and a staggering downgrade from the last bed she slept in; definitely the type of car that will NEVER be missed from the streets of las vegas. a win, all in all, and she has to cherish those meaningless victories from wherever she finds them.

even in a town she dared call home for three years, micah feels lost; like she’s adrift, bobbing in the waves in the middle of nowhere under the blistering sun. she takes a look around and sees NOTHING of value, yet EVERYTHING’S exactly the same and it offers a sense of familiarity that’s oddly comforting. she meanders downtown without an exact destination ( more like, avoiding to the one place her feet would drag her too if they had free will ), hears a dog bark somewhere and in a blink of a second, a three-legged, tail-wagging shiba inu circles her excitedly, with more barks to spare before he lays down, belly-up and tongue out.  ‘ hi, baby! ’  the words resist against her tongue as she scratches his tummy, and micah, despite the joy that seeing carl brings, feels uneasy. carl is never out alone, and it means juli must be around too, so she tenses up when shortly after she notices another presence within proximity, anxiety bubbling underneath her skin.

micah’s mathed out the scenarios, the different outcomes that the first interaction with julian after ditching jericho would result in, calculated probability versus the unmeasurable factor that love’s supposed to be and she NEVER wins ( it’s not really what she’s after, anyway ). she had picked out the words, with caution & care, and designed a speech, a confession of love that would award her with something akin to absolution. she forgets all of it as she looks up, a tentative smile spread on her lips, bracing herself from the first blow.

so this is MICAH ( everyone, in a monotone vc: helo micah ) she’s too old to function ( twenty ) and she’s currently unemployed bc if she needs money she’ll hack someone’s bank account for a meal @ wendy’s

hasn’t had an easy life but who HAS? basically her mother ditched her and her twin sister a few months after they were both born and her dad raised them on his own he was a good lad

she didn’t ditched them for no reason but im tryna keep this SHORT

within the ~twin dynamic~ she was the brains and mia ( her twin ) was the brawls, but despite being super logical nd smart as heck she was also the most sensitive of the two, its why micah always got into fights she could never win and it was when mia stepped in nd won them for her

they were rly cute

but there’s a point in time where she learned how cold and stupid the world was and how humans are basically just like a glitch in the system when her neighbor merked her sister

they were 11 at the time and mia had been mia ( teheheh ) for like two weeks before they found out he’d buried her in his backyard

it was super hard on her obviously but it was especially hard on her dad bc it was like he’d failed at keeping them safe and p much blamed himself for it nd he was also very kind and hardworking so it took a toll on him mentally and after a little over a year since mia’s death, he k*lled himself

so it’s kind of how her Journey:tm: as a runaway begins bc micah has this innate rejection of authority and the government would have taken her hostage ( a lil much ), so fuck that!

so since she was 12/13 or so she had been p much on the run, stealing shit for survival, learning how to steal cars that would serve as homes etc

never the same car for longer than 6 months tho!!!

never in the same STATE for longer than 6 months either!!! (also went by lots of diff names back then)

she first started using the library’s computer back home and with time she could hack into those stupid ass games easily 

mia would always whack her in the head for cheating ( micah would just mock her and accuse her of being a sore loser )

public computers is how she mostly operated back in the day cos they couldn’t trace anything back to her so :p

has forged SO much shit esp regarding her education

she needn’t go to school but she was too bored not to so

SUPER smart and VERY angry all the time

acts stupid tho

SHIT THAT UR CHARACTER WILL PROB KNOW ABOUT!!

first moved to jericho about 3 years ago for no reason other than who the fuck cares about this dry ass town!!

she wasn’t planning on staying but cursed things happened

aka her ex whose name shall not be named

its juli

so she ended up staying for too long, but did upgrade from sleeping in a car and showering every day @ school before anyone showed up to sleeping in her ex’s basement and hot showers so!!! not to bad huh

micah ditched town like,,,, prob on the same night the whole the-murder-of-ariella-leave-a-like thing happened bc it SHOOK her to her core it was too much

like she didn’t know her but it hit close to home regardless

so she’s been a whole as month ( roughly a month but i’m gna say a month anwyays ) away and she only came back for carl ( her ex’s pup )