I am sick

If I ever kill myself just know I tried my fucking best and please forgive me

my mind’s starting to scare me

the urge to isolate myself until I eventually d1e off

How do I juggle suicide and not hurting people I care about

i dont care anymore if nobody cares because i dont care either

I can physically feel the sadness in my body and i just want to be happy for once

im so far from being the person i want to be, and i dont know how to get closer to being that, and it makes me miserable

I need to cut so bad right now but can’t and it’s physically making me sick

I honestly shoulda just killed myself the day I first thought about it. Would have saved me a lot of trouble and mental breakdowns

I’ll say things like “oh I’m just not in a good place mentally right now” like when have I ever been in a fucking good place mentally