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Sacred Tigers

TW: Cannibalism, murder, historical trauma, famine, dub-con

Characters: Xiang, 37

AUs: Facility lockdown au

Relationships: Xiang & 37

Loving the Slaughter

TW: Vietnam War, Imperialism, War Crimes, Massacres, r/pe and sexual assault, historical trauma

Characters: Henry, Klos

Relationships: Henry & Klos

FOR THE HUNGER

TW: obsessive behavior but you don’t see the full extent of it from Gordon, parental neglect, emotional abuse (parent), parentification of siblings

Characters: Matthew, Gordon, Kirk, Grace

Relationships: Matthew & Gordon, Matthew & Kirk, Matthew & Grace, Chen family tag

Naming What You Want

TW: ableism, racism, child abuse, emotional incest, US imperialism, PTSD, mental health issues, suicide, dub-con

Characters: Chan Hap, Lou Ga Jeun, Law Gin Ying

Relationships: Chan & Lou, Lou & Law, Law & Chan

No Before, No After

TW: R/pe, torture, emotional manipulation, gaslighting, murder, kidnapping, non-con body modification, Lorne in general

Characters: Lorne, Lau, Guerra

Relationships:

The Cain Family

TW: Sibling incest, emotional incest, child abuse, domestic abuse, parental neglect, father-son incest, suicide

Characters: Howard, Nate, Nathaniel, Esther, Sam

Relationships: Howard & Nate, Howard & Nathaniel, Nathaniel & Esther, the Cain siblings

Dragons and Eagles

Nation-verse

TW: occasional RPF lmao, imperialism, r/pe, torture, abusive relationships, dub-con/non-con, historical trauma <3

Characters: China oc, Japan oc

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the two brothers owners of a bakery in Chinatown who quit CCNY to help their parents with the business/money issues the one restaurant owner who left college at 25 when his dad unexpectedly died to take over the business who managed to return to college years later which good for him yknow but in the moment just thinking so these are your alumni your classmates the few other Chinese students at CCNY with you and you watch them fall away and you see them in the streets of Chinatown because you haven’t escaped either half shelter half bear trap they’re already talking about the next generation their kids saving up for them passing down the work and dream is it already too late for them? for you?

you don’t have children you’re not sure they’re for you anyhow but you have a little brother you practically raised yourself and you’d be lying if you said you didn’t pour all you didn’t have into him someone to pick you up from school to support your dreams to accept you, without conditions... without conditions.

Pre-canon. Matthew dances with a (girl)friend at a church social. Set sometime during high school.

Fill for Guerra <3

No one asked for this technically ajldfsa;f but it is dedicated to a friend who I know will enjoy this uwu. Just a sweet little young!Kirk(Matthew's brother) and Matthew scene.

⚠️ If this oc came with a warning sign, what would it be?

Lau: ‘generally chill but comes paired with the devil himself. Watch out.’

Guerra: ‘warning: perpetually stuck in the cycle of shame and violence. don’t get sucked in’

Alt.:

‘I’m the active legacy of imperialism and colonialism and all I got was this stupid t-shirt and a trip to the torture lodge.’

✨ - Tell something that makes this oc feel happy!

Lorne: I hate to say it but as much as Lorne loves to annoy the shit out of Lau he also. Geniunely likes doing nice things for Lau too. Enrichment. Picking up interesting pieces of drift wood or scrap for Lau to work on when he’s out on road trips. Buying bookmarks to replace the miscellaneous random bits of paper Lau uses instead. Sigh.

Lau: When he gets in the #zone hyper focusing building something. Might expand his workshop to the garage for wood working perhaps. Likes to make things that will be useful/practical like containers or utensils but also likes carving/adding little details to it after. Has thought about getting into pottery.

Guerra: god. After the hostage domestic abuse AU situation? Showering and washing his hair. Mentioned that he’s proud of his hair, idk if he got it from his mom, maybe from his dad instead, working on his overly complicated family tree… anyway he gets Lau/manages to get some proper hair products so he likes to keep it healthy especially in such a different climate. Actually prob best most intimate thing would be someone else washing his hair but idk if he would trust someone at this point. Because um. Potential water boarding

⚔️ - How does this oc handle conflict?

Lorne: Is it conflict if he's having fun.. :/ throws bricks at him. Lorne is terrible but at the time time I think similar to Lau he suffers from a flat affect/lack of deep or lasting emotions. if that makes sense. strongest he gets is amusement. well now he has lau. for better or for worse. ANYWAY. regarding conflict. he is very good at being intimidating even when he isn't that invested ala this is the hill i will kill you on but i will leave after i'm bored lmfaooo. um i guess it all boils down to wht response he wants from his victim. he's fucking around. derogatory. he's always playful with lau for better or for worse even during the horrors though

Lau: he goes non-verbal. or violent. or a bit of both. overstimulated autistic starts to graphically visualize dismembering people in his head. at first glance it may seem like a freeze response but it's actually a very aggressive and chimp crazy fight response he's bursting veins holding in. like. he gets light headed holding back his andrenaline when he gets really pissed. ough. high blood pressure lau real in the future definitely

Henry and Klos: It’s a very spartan bedroom but neat. Simple wood frame and thin mattress with worn, patched-up cotton sheets. A small wooden bookshelf in the corner where Henry keeps what little books he can scrounge up and Klos displays little knick knacks she found. They have a drawer for their clothes and use the bottom drawer for possibly more illicit items.

Basically Guerra’s mom was Hiaki(Yaqui) and gave him and his siblings indigenous middle names. Well ‘middle names’ idk if they were down on legal documents. Not first names because um. Genocide within recent history regarding the Mexican government (which is actually why she moved/escaped to Texas) she didn’t want their identities revealed (hence why the Chicano movement was healing in some ways for Guerra but also ambiguous/complicated feelings about renewed ‘pride’ in indigenous origins for Mexicans while also being painfully aware of Mexico’s own governments complacency in eradication of the Hiaki anyway.

So yeah. He still has that. Something about agency and reclaiming knowledge. In terms of many indigenous groups having closed practices after obviously such a long history of exploitation etc. in some ways it’s why Guerra is so resilient even with all of. That. Because of this. Legacy if that makes sense. Even if it might be probably would be better if he and Lau idk. No winning here. Murder suicide best we can hope for chat

To give context to this— certain pains are tied to the body/soul. 37 still feels pain in his dreams even though dreams are more Xiang’s realm. (When 37 begins to feel pain again can also be a signal he’s about to wake up) Pain as something that steals those you love that chains you to your body.

It’s similar to how Xiang’s tiger charm could not cure his mother of her hunger. Although Xiang’s presence means 37 doesn’t get sick anymore he still suffers from chronic pain and flare ups. This is not surprising to Xiang actually though because even after famine his mother still had to deal with the Hunger TM🤝 trauma’s lingering presence, a ghost, specter even, in the body. Your body is not your own anymore.

Also how this iteration of the Tiger, Xiang’s, big motif is hunger because he grew up/out of famine. Parallels to how those born during famine times can still carry the scars of it after. I love disability in magical contexts.

For @stabknives …. i have a bunch of WIPs 😀 chronic can’t finisher (kills the demons saying I’m a fake writer because of that)

NWYW

HK does have Easter Monday off but idk if there would be any special events in secondary school. Will have to get my favorite primary resource to chime in (my dad). Law is the only one who goes to church for this. I think Chan Hap only learned or did Easter egg hunts when he went over seas um US military yay. He finds some of the rabbit stuff cute but it’s also very easy for him to forget or miss the holiday lmao. Lou doesn’t care at all other than it being a legal holiday in HK.

Guerra was probably raised Catholic in my mind. I don’t think he’s the church going type but he has some emotional connection to said holidays. (Lorne will probably use this against him I just know it). I’d have to look up more abt Easter in the 50s-60s <- history freak. He has a complicated relationship with Catholicism too tho LOL so mixed bag and feelings.

Lau is totally checked out. He does not know when Easter is or what people do. He didn’t go to church and when he was around more Christian’s /white suburbs he wasn’t invited anyway lmao so he didn’t go. He’d only note it if there was like. A sale or something at a store. (#commercialization)

Lorne finds it cute/fun. makes his torture Easter themed. He’s like this for major holidays in general/what he knows will resonate with the victim tho. For that matter he likes Christmas killings more :)