᭄᭡After Ech𓋜s

Unnecessary kpop manic thoughts pt.7 🍃✨

I honestly don’t know where to begin with this one because i feel like i have it tattooed in my heart, and since the weather is getting warmer here,it really triggered my thoughts on it,so…TXT’s Sugar Rush Ride. I can’t even begin to describe this song and MV. Usually,when i write about my feelings on a song,i use GIFs and images to describe how I feel about them detaching from the MVs,however,this was and still is one of the most beautiful,atmospheric, "can’t imagine anything else while listening to the song" MVs i have seen.It’s literally perfect..So much so that even though i sadly don’t have many TXT albums YET i made my whole shelf aesthetic based on this as much as i can through i need more fake plants. I even placed the poster in a frame. I’m THAT obsessed! If i could make my whole existence this vibe i would!💓

Anyway..about the song: it’s so magical because it gives me this overwhelming sense of freedom, not in a calm way,but a euphoric and restless way. It really feels like the title,it’s so obsessively sweet, and I love every second that it feeds me this addictive sound and visuals until i forget who i was before it and my bloodstream is now glitter. ✨The crazy part is i think this song knows it’s dangerous,it smiles while pulling you deeper and deeper until i finally spend my money,and it made me decide it will be my first,but not last,TXT album.I can talk about it for hours..It’s been driving me insane since day one,and i don’t know how to describe it other than as this subtle trap between a lullaby and an adrenaline spike. It’s like drinking soda water with glitter..I don’t know,but every time it gets warm outside, my brain plays it…I am going to shut up now because i will end up talking about the whole album, and that’s for another time. 💫

Side note: I didn’t think i would be posting my shelf because of a TXT song even though i don’t fully collect them yet,but here we are.

A pirate’s life and why "Wonderland" changed everything for me as an Ateez fan.Continuing my Ateez songs fixation, i debated whether to write about "Wonderland" now or later. However, after recently rewatching my favorite franchise,the timing feels perfect! "Wonderland" was the song that officially solidified Ateez as my favorite group. I already knew and loved their music, but not much else. After "Wonderland," i was left shook,nothing could have prepared me for the impact of this comeback and it made me dive into the universe more seriously. ⚓️

Coming back to what i said about rewatching my favorite movies, it might be obvious that it’s Pirates of the Caribbean, but to me, this has been an obsession since it came out and still is. I’ve spent years searching for books, movies, and shows that could capture the same spirit as this franchise, i never dreamed that feeling would eventually come from kpop. "Wonderland" and, later, "Answer," "Horizon," and much more expand on my love for that world so perfectly.

I still can't fully explain my obsession with pirates,maybe it’s the sense of adventure, the bravery, the fantasy, or a level of freedom i can't find anywhere else. I’m not even much of a sea person,i can’t swim or be in deep water to save my life and that’s the beauty of it all. I guess the things we fear find us in less scary ways to inspire us.Whatever the case,I’m grateful to Ateez for keeping that sense of wonder alive in my heart and "Wonderland" will always be my unofficial Pirates of the Caribbean theme song. 🖤

Alright, so i had to write about Ateez’s song Bouncy because it evokes such an important feeling to me. Setting aside the lore, MV and concept, it’s one of those rare songs that transports me back to a short carefree,energetic time.Even though it came out years and years later, it reminded me of the vibe of me hopping from pubs to clubs, coffee shops to the back of friends’cars, blasting music and ruling the night streets. Laughter filled the windows as we passed familiar faces as they already knew us and our routine by heart, gathering at wherever places were available to dance and plan our next move. Every day was chaos in the best way possible, with no far future plan but to explore and have fun. It was a very short period,but enough for me to say “Okay I experienced that life” I don’t miss it, but i do miss that energy i had. Bouncy reminds me it’s still there, just redirected. Now,instead of coffee in the morning i just play this song and it gives me the fuel to tackle the day, even when i feel like staying in bed all day and honestly that’s more than enough. What really makes me proud tho is that i was able to pay that song forward after it came out and i can only hope that the person who became a new fan because of it uses it as their own personal energy drink. I’m so happy i can listen to this song a million times to remind myself how life can look like as long as i have a little push and a little inspiration.🔥

There are so many beautiful visions i get in my head when it comes to Seventeen songs. While they are all different, there’s a handful of them that i can easily put into one category and blend together. So, instead of repeating myself, i will just name them all: Darl+ing, World, Fallin’ Flower, Heaven’s Cloud, Ready to Love, Don Quixote, Dust, and April Shower. I can probably name more, but they all remind me of spring. When someone mentions Seventeen in general, that’s all i can feel and think about. It just takes you to such a pretty and carefree place. ☀️There were a lot of times i found myself walking in nature, be it local parks, countryside, or even places in town with lots of trees, flowers, and grass, skimming through my playlist trying to find the perfect song so my mood is complete, and they always fit perfectly. Even on days where it’s dull, cloudy, and cold, they still serve as like a filter that enchants everything in high saturation. The grass becomes more green, the crowds are less annoying, and i can suddenly smell the flowers coming from the gardens of my neighbours. Life just becomes like a musical festival from a cheesy movie where everything is all well in the world. When i’m at home and can’t go out for one reason or another, i keep thinking how fun it would be to put them on blast and blow soap bubbles out my window, and as weird as it will look, it's a blessing to have songs that make me want to do that. 🫧There’s also a lot of them with the opposite vibe, but that’s for another manic thoughts day. All in all, i just want to feel this vibe as much as possible.💐

I can’t even begin to explain Aespa’s “Welcome To MY World.” It’s one of the most hauntingly beautiful songs I’ve heard,if it were the first kpop song i ever heard,i would have sworn it was part of some fantasy movie or series. It builds a whole universe by itself,and i feel like picking up a fantasy book and reading it with the song playing on loop in the background. Aespa has amazing transmedia storytelling, but even if you don’t understand or didn’t go too deep into the universe,the song itself takes you somewhere as if to make a statement that, “This is not just a song,and we are not in Kansas anymore.” I’m in love with it, and it’s my maladaptive brain’s go-to.🏞️

So...TXT Yeonjun’s Ghost. For the longest time, i couldn't explain why it feels like I’ve heard this before, when in reality, i never have.It’s like it existed in a time and place i wasn't even alive for yet, but strangely, i know it so well…

And finally after listening to it 1000 times i realized it feels exactly like an old black and white film with a story that’s never been told or maybe it was,and i just don't remember..It literally haunts me. The more i listen,the more i yearn for a place I’ve never been,the melody and his voice just take me there before I even realize what the song is about. Anyway…someone needs to make an old movie with this as the background music before i torture everyone around me by playing it 24/7. 📽️

Let’s talk about Enhypen’s Drunk-Dazed..actually, let me reframe that: let ME talk about Drunk-Dazed. It’s been a minute since it came out, but I’ve noticed I’m not the only one who wants to tattoo the last 17 seconds of this song on my forehead. Better yet, if it were possible to hear tattoos, someone needs to invent it so i can play this every time someone asks me about it. The whole song is honestly a feeling that’s hard to put into words or imagery..some things you can only feel,but if I were to put my hallucinations into words, i imagine this playing at a house party I’d never want to leave. You don’t even need drinks or anything else to feel like you’re having an out of body experience when this is playing. You don’t need to understand what is it even about until you dive in so deep you can no longer escape. It’s just that type of song to wake you from the deepest of sleep and it physically hurts me to listen to it on low volume. It doesn’t make sense on all the feelings i get at once when i play it just how my words can’t make sense when i write them. I can probably write a whole essay on the chemicals changing in my brain while i experience it for the millionth time..In the end, nothing can really explain it, but in an ideal world,I’m never leaving the house party in my head. Fangirl toughs are the weirdest thing sometimes…………always..🎈✨🪩

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More manic thoughts about songs soon bc this is my diary now.