june 30th - africâs apartment (Â @africosullivanâ )
The walk to Africâs isnât long, but he drags his feet anyway. The messenger bag thrown over his shoulder weighs him down with every step and, the farther he gets from home, the more he longs for his bed.Â
Ever since the party, since these murders started, he⌠hasnât been sleeping. Not really. He catches cat naps here and there, but every time he tries to get some real rest, heâs plagued by the same nightmare. The same distant, uneasy feeling. Heâs tried over-the-counter sleep aids. Meditation. Counting sheep. Nothingâs seemed to help. If anything, he feels worse (and heâs sure the bags under his eyes are a glaring testament to that.)
He spends his nights staring up at the ceiling, weighing his options. To stay. To go. To turn a blind eye and pretend none of this is happening - watch the Otherworld, and all itâs inhabitants, burn from afar. When itâs laid out like that, the choice seems obvious. Easy, even. But⌠nothing, nothing, about this has ever been (or ever will be) simple. The reality is, heâs already involved.Â
He may not be a Fae, but heâs as close as a human could ever possibly get. His fate and theirs is intertwined now - his and all the all the other mortals unfortunate enough to possess some tie to the Courts.
If he chose to feign ignorance, to look past the violence and the killing and the fear mongering, thereâs no guarantee he wonât be next. That Griffith or Zion or Alfric wonât be targeted right along with the Seelie and Unseelie and Solitary Fae that have already been slain. And thatâs something he just⌠canât stomach. Because unlike the faerie population, the Seers havenât done anything to deserve a fucking death sentence. None of them asked for this. They didnât chose it. Theyâre all just here, treading water, finding their own ways to try and stay afloat.Â
He doesnât care what happens to the Fae, that much is true. But he does care what happens to his friends. And if he can do anything to help them, to stop this, he will. Because his own survival depends on it. (Because itâs the right thing to do.)
By the time he makes it up the stairs to Africâs landing, heâs dead on his feet. He leans against the door jamb and knocks, resting his head against the cool wood as he waits.Â
Sheâs so tired she almost doesnât know what to do with herself, during the hours shes at home and alone with nothing to do except try and catch some fitful type of rest. Her mind is so full, thatâs the problem. When she tries to lay down and relax, it runs a mile a minute instead. Makes her fidgety, makes her antsy and half-trapped in the walls of her own home.Â
Itâs just that Afric canât stop wondering. She canât stop making plans. Sheâs high on too much coffee and working to gather too much luck from where its owed to her. Sheâs full up of pondering and half crazed plans, full up of information about The Dagda Institute that she doesnât know how to parse, yet.
Itâs the worry, as well. The fear every time someone she cares for walks out on the streets of Dublin. Sheâs scared that one of them will be next, that itâs all they deserve after sticking their noses in other peoples business.Â
Seeing them tends to calm the aching of it in her chest, set her back towards something easy and almost relaxed, unfurling some of the worst of her panic in favour of the warmth of friendship instead. She could take or leave the fair folk with whom she makes her many deals, but sheâd give her life for her true friends, her clan of misfit seers and changelings.Â
She already feels herself lightening just at the news that Oslo is on his way over, a feeling only intensifying when she hears the knock on the too-thin wood of their shitty apartment door. She moves to open it, and levels Oz with a sympathetic look when she catches a glimpse of his face. He looks as run down as she feels.Â
   âWell, look what the cat dragged in.â She inclines her head and moves aside, gives him room enough to slip through the door and in to the apartment proper. âIâve the kettle on, if you want some tea.âÂ