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it’s me, my 15 personalities, 638 playlists and 219 unread books against the world

I should be excited about holidays starting, but I honestly feel flat and need a hug

may you get a sign this week that shows you that you’re on the right path and that things are flowing and moving in your favor. may the sign be evident, clear, and direct

I’ll do anything to avoid having a thought

I went through my darkest times alone so im sorry if i act like i dont need anyone

hahaha but like why am i such an insecure paranoid piece of shit

connection means everything and time doesn’t mean shit.

self-destruction doesn’t always look like taking too many pills or cutting your skin open. sometimes it’s drinking coffee when you know caffeine gives you panic attacks. sometimes it’s crossing the street without looking both ways. sometimes it’s showering with the water a little too hot. sometimes it’s avoiding eye contact with your reflection in the mirror or ridiculing your problems rather than addressing them. sometimes it’s walking out without sunscreen in scorching heat and not wearing enough when it’s freezing out. self destruction isn’t always physical mutilation, mostly it’s masked as little things so never assume what someone may be going through just bc they don’t show you visible signs of suffering.

me???? tired???? sleepy??? yes constantly

i hate having to ask or beg for interaction because everyone has others they’d rather talk to than me