“Yeah good night considering you can make time for everyone except me. Oh wait you can but only if its planned.”
“I feel like a piece of human garbage. Just tossed aside. I would just like to know I am wanted.”
“I just wish I could wake up from this nightmare. Baby....... I am just lonely without you.”
“Shay I do not want to move at all today. I just want to lay here and cry. I miss us so much that my heart hurts and I feel broken. Why can’t we just love each other?”
“I need you and you can’t be there and you can’t be there. I really think I’m already broken.”
“The thing that hurts the most is imagining you with someone else.”
“I know and I need you to be stronger than me. I just want to give up, but I won’t. All I ever wanted is someone special to share this life with, when I met you I knew it was you. I tried to fight cause I never wanted to feel this way. But you can’t fight the way you feel, like I can’t fight the fact I still am in love with you.”
“I really am sorry. For talking to you this late, for leaving you with dought, for making you think that I wanted to be with you.... I love you but all the hurt does not go away. I will always love you but you hurt me more then anyone in my life.”
“Shay... I am lost. I just was hoping even after we broke up that you might have given me the chance you promised me. To love each other, be there for each other. I know now that I wanted too much. I should have ended it a long time ago like I was going to, but I didn’t. I love you so much no and you ar enot there when I need you more then ever.”
“I do not want you to lose it like I have.”
“Please just do this one thing for me.”
“I don’t want to be completely abandoned here.”
“So I have something I have to do. What you going to break plans. Again.... You can wait like I did for you.”
“You do it to me. So I can wait for you but you can’t do it for me?”
“I mean that little to you that you can’t even remember”
“You shouldn’t ‘make plans’ you should just see me. I just feel bad all day, everyday. I cry myself to sleep almost every night.”
“Stop it. You always have to twist shit into the way you want to see it. I was talking about myself and my feelings. You don’t see the damage you have done to me. You built half of our relationship on a lie and then when you get sick of me you just discarded everything so you can do ‘your thing’. What about my thing? You know to love each other through thick and thin. But when times get tough you run off to find greener pastures. That is a cheap shot to someone who stood by you through everything and supported you so you didn’t have to go without. It killed me inside. You hurt me more then any other women I know. Go ahead and try and justify your actions and the way you treated me.”
“You don’t have to agree with me for it to be the truth. See right there. I’m not the only one who’s done fucked up shit. Twisting, I hope one day you realize this and figure it out. You would be much happier if you would just take some damn responsibility. I feel horrible for the things I have done. I own it and try to make it right even when I know nothing I can do to make it right. I really am trying to forgive you, but even I do I don’t think you would even give a shit.”
“Yeah so why didn’t you tell me this like say before you started school? I would have worked on myself of investing in you. You knew you didn’t want to be with me and you stayed? Thats worse, you did just use me to get to where you needed me to be.”
“I mean wtf am I supposed to think. You stopped trying two years in. So around that time you knew you didn’t want to be with me forever. Then you stay for almost two more years? Do I have that right?”
“I don’t know. You never told me this shit. You just shut me out. I really tried and it was hard. I changed things about myself and I just saw you slowly drift away. I don’t know anymore. The only thing I know is I love you and I always will, but we can never be together. I wanted to be with you forever and make you the happiest women. All that hurts me to think about.”
“I never meant for us to fall apart. I love you and I still miss you. I think we have said enough for tonight. If you want to see me on Christmas I will leave that up to you.”
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