Aelianas

Meet the girl behind the VTuber (since I'm not sure if I'll ever come back to vtubing).

Hi! I'm Aeli!♡ I'm 33! My pronouns are she/her!♡🏳️‍⚧️

I enjoy playing MMORPGs and long walks on the beach! I occasionally do art and make music!

Nearly three years together, and I'm still finding out ways you've broken me and lied to me. I gave you my all, carried our relationship, and you made me feel so small.

Nearly three years, and I still can't get over the way you treated me. The emotional and mental abuse, making me feel like my concerns were overreactions, and making me feel small. Therapy has made me realize just how abusive you were to me. Threatening to hurt yourself when I needed space to clear my head. Being jealous of any new friend I made and passively trying to make me cut them off. Some of which I did lose because I didn't want to upset you.

Nearly three years, and even after we broke up, you found ways to control me. You found more ways to manipulate me.

Nearly three years, and you gave me shit for deciding to date again, after telling me months beforehand that we weren't getting back together. You made me cry so much, for days. You told me you wanted to rebuild, but months before, you said it wouldn't happen. You told me last week, "I wanted it to be you. I wanted so much," while you had a new girlfriend.

Nearly three years, and I'm still finding out how much you lied to me and how hypocritical you were.

Nearly three years, and you took my dreams of a happy future with you, crushed them like glass, and blew them into my eyes.

Nearly three years, and I've become so codependent that I can't feel anything unless I have other people around me.

My mom fucking blursed me with the big titty gene. Fucking wonderful. 🙃