Avoidance

i wait for their return and attention like a cat awaiting their owner, and i just might be a cat because i’d use all my 9 lives on them

never mind you all are about to watch my downfall i’m back to being overly unidealistic and jealous for the 5th time today

im actually very happy for once lets all cheer

i’m only full of worry and exhaust. my full energy goes into them and now that i can’t talk to them as often and they have a lot more things that can happen to them i get so scared. i worry they may meet someone better than me and replace me for them. i worry about who they may interact with. hell public schools are unsanitary i even worry about them getting sick. i hate how little i know about their routine now. i don’t like this at all

it’s all fun in games until i remember i’m going to ultimately lose everyone i have and i’m going to die this way.