alchemy

Moving on feels like the years spent together got erased

As if the love never existed

As if it was never real

As if I was so easily forgotten

Confused & angry

I guess I feel those things too

It’s funny how when we miss someone we romanticize all the ways returning to them will be

Like

if I could have you look at me again for the first time in a long time;

how I’d run and do a little twirl

and melt in your arms

and wait for you to brush my hair from my face

and whisper in my ear; all your favorite lyrics

and tell me it will all be okay

but those days are long gone

and the thought of us

is only a lost memory

and our little family was only for a moment

But oh, do i

Ache for home to look like ours again

and I hate the way I can’t talk about how much I miss

the sound of your voice

Sweet and soft it will always be my favorite song

and how I’m tired of grieving losing you over and over again