My Mind = ⛈🌪

I spent over 2 hours texting out paragraphs explaining in depth my deep rooted feelings, and how such small instances can make such an impact as they pile up, to create something so much deeper and bigger than you think.

I tried every possible way I could to explain what I was feeling, and begged her to just hear me because I was hysterical and losing my mind… and I needed her so bad in that moment to give me what I needed because she’s the type that always needs space and I give it to her… and after her ignoring me for hours, she replied with “I already apologized that I didn’t tell you I did that today. I don’t want to continue this anymore but goodnight and I hope you have a better day tomorrow”

So I’m left feeling defeated and pathetic that I put that much effort into explaining myself and begging someone to care and be there for me because I couldn’t pick myself up out of it this time like I usually do and how that one situation as small as it was, caused such a huge feeling due to every other little situation that has been piled on and created this bigger feeling.

So the result, unresolved, I feel worthless, pathetic, I still have 100 unanswered questions, and I’m alone… with no support system. Crying with no one to talk to.