ADHD || Anxiety

But instead of being disappointed, I decided to look at it as “my mental illnesses could only hold me back for 26 days this time. I was too strong for it to top me past that”

Hello lovely!

This could be a hyperfixation on said character. Hyperfixations switch tons, and can always be the same thing every now and then.

•caring about your grades but not enough to do anything about them

•thinking about suicide more than graduating

•considering suicide whenever any problem arises

•tired

•no motivation

•no energy

•walking is so hard

•sometimes even talking is too much work because you’re so god damn tired

•laying in bed for hours because you’re too tired to move

•feeling nothing but sometimes everything

•knowing you’re not alone but still feeling alone

•that constant mindset of, “Who cares? I wont be around much longer anyways.”

•wishing to be left alone, while also wishing for people to stay

•never believing you’re good enough

•always putting yourself down

•never planning to far ahead in time

•fake smiles, fake laughs

1. Feeling like you want to do something but you don’t know what it is you want to do so you do a bunch of stuff and you can’t find the purpose still

2. Getting so drowned in a thought that you can’t hear sound around you and when you come back it feels like someone pressed unmute on your brain

3. Sweater sleeves! When there too long so when you handclap they swing around and make a wonderful sound!! Its AMAZING!!

4. Having caffeine and the brain fog goes away and you feel like you exist again

5. Where is the important thing I put down 0.5 seconds ago???

6. When you have sensory issues and your entire body makes you feel uncomfortable…

7. Did I (Insert) today or am I just remembering last time I did it??

8. Hyperfocusing. You’ll be on your phone then you suddenly see that its been 7 hours and you haven’t eaten 

9. Bouncing your leg is the only exercise you get 

10. You hyperfixiate on emotionally compromising thing because your brain latches onto the pain and wants to keep feeling it

11. Having to repeat things out loud before your brain recognizes them as words (every day for me..)

12. .. The stigma. *long sigh* Yep. 

13. SLEEEEEP.

14. Finally getting the right amount of sleep only to zone out most of the day