Adele Wallis

“There’s a huge amount of freedom that comes to you when you take nothing personally.”

i think we fall out of love little by little. its not sudden. we see it coming but choose to ignore it; pretending it’ll be okay until the only thing that feels worse than leaving, is staying. looking back, we can’t pin-point at the exact cause for all the heart-ache. maybe there was no single reason. the threads that tied us together had come undone and neither of us knew how to sew. -SM || falling out of love with each passing day

Heartbreak is an odd experience. At 7am you wish you could snooze your alarm and hide from the sunlight. At 10 you feel unstoppable and like maybe today is the day the heartbreak will ease. At 1pm you’re crying at your desk silently, hoping no one will notice and at 2 you’re running to the bathroom because you feel nauseous. At 3 you feel like you can manage. At 5 you’re exhausted from your heart leading you on this emotional roller coaster and your brain unsuccessfully trying to take back control. Come 8 o’clock and you’re squeezing your pillow, howling out to the moon wishing you could feel anything, anything but this.

I needed your scent. I needed to fall asleep thinking I was in your arms. In your presence. So I wrapped my face in the last shirt you wore.

I have one of these!

I’m not used to being loved. I wouldn’t know what to do.

1. Don’t rush. If there’s something you’ll miss, it will be the time you have now. 2. Stop wasting time blaming yourself and blaming others–things happen for a reason, even if the reason will make sense ten years down the road. 3. Don’t stay around toxic people just because you’re afraid of being alone. Being your own best friend has its perks, and there’s no one else you’ll spend more time with than yourself. 4. Be yourself, unapologetically. It may be embarrassing now, but you will learn that there’s nothing more interesting than someone true to themselves. 5. Don’t be afraid of voicing your thoughts, don’t be afraid of calling out people that hurt you. 6. Write. Write. Write. It will help you clear your mind and also distract yourself when you’re anxious. Writing will be your best friend. 7. Learn all you can, and enjoy it all you want. Knowledge is the only thing truly yours. 8. Be the friend you need, the friend you want. 9. Read all you can. You’ll find the words you can’t say in the lips of others, you’ll find shelter. 10. Love yourself. That’s the only love you will have, constantly, and the only one that will stick with you even if you fail.

You can love someone so much. But if they don’t want to be saved, nothing will save them. Not even love.