Words Have Power

I sort of already have the lunatic thing down, for most days of the week, so I don’t really need to start doing that. Although, I guess I could up it a little bit more, try to make it really noticeable. Everything else sounds, undesirable, to me, personally.

Well yeah...if being smelly sounded desirable to you I'd judge you hardcore I was just being overdramatic for purposes of sarcasm.

I’d like to be the type of person that someone else looks at and goes, ‘Wow, I never want to interact or speak with that person ever, I’m going to stay far away from them for the rest of my life.’ I think that’d be a good look.

Well in that case you're going all wrong focusing on the hair. You need a nasty looking scar or a tattoo. That shit tends to scare people. Or if anyone approaches you just start talking like you're a lunatic. Or you could take clothes from a homeless person...bad scent usually creates distance between you and other people.

Have you ever stopped to ponder that maybe I don’t want to be endearingly sweet?

Well sure...the majority of humanity has an aspect of themselves they'd love to erase and rewrite. But you do know changing your hair won't turn you into a different person, right? Endearingly sweet is in your body language, the way you talk, your facial features, etc. What is it that you'd like to be, exactly? Leather jacket wearing bad boy that gets all the girls?

I get the feeling you have conflicting feelings about the joy of nurturing new life. I don't know shit about it, but I remember enough from health class to know that if you don't want to be pregnant, you've got a limited window of time to work with.

It doesn’t take up enough time. There’s no use for making something that won’t take long. I need things that take up time and make it go faster. Like pie. Which I’ve already baked two of. Trust me, it’s not a shame in the slightest. I don’t dance and I can’t dance.

What do you do with all the baked goods you make every night? I mean...I know grown men can pack in a lot of food but how much baked food product can you eat by yourself? I guess what I'm saying is...if you need help eating any of the pies...I am your girl. Just because it's ya know...morally wrong to let food go to waste.

I think I need a new kind of style. Maybe something a little bit cooler, like a man bun.

A man bun? Is that a real thing...is that the technical turn for it? Personal opinion here...but I think you'd be fine with just a trim...your hair kind of supports this endearingly sweet look you got going on.

I’ll probably just end up doing more research and attempt to write a research paper or something. Tends to keep me going when I can’t sleep. Either that or I’ll go for a walk downtown. Or bake some more. I’m not really a dancing kind of guy.

You should make a cookie in a mug. That's my favorite thing to bake when it's late. Mostly cause if I try anything more complicated at that time of night, I'd probably injure myself. Not a dancing kind of guy? Well that's a shame.

Well- yes that was kind of what I’ve been complaining and ranting about. Like the ginormous baby I am. But I can’t just fall asleep because I’m bored. That’s like the opposite of what I want to do when I’m bored. I’ve already done my documentary marathons, and I’ve read all my books and I can’t clean up the house more than it already is because it’s exactly the way it’s meant to be and I don’t want to change that by “cleaning”. 

I don't know, I think I'd be complaining in your position too. I mean that sounds intense...and when you've got all this energy and nothing to do with it. Man I have a few dance party games...or like those wii games where you move around a lot. You're welcome to them if you need something to vent all your energy into.

I have actually. I have been trying to sleep for a few hours but I can’t keep my eyes shut for more than a minute at a time. That’s not sleep. That’s not even rest. I’ve never actually be overtired. I don’t get overtired. I just can’t sleep sometimes. My brain’s a little over-active. It happens occasionally, but not enough for me to be worried about it. Oh no, there’s absolutely no need to a doctor. It’s really not that big of a deal, I’m just going to be up for a while is all.

Don't you get bored eventually? I mean...I'd run out of things to do at 1am and just end up falling asleep out of sheer boredom. Do you do a lot of late night tv marathons...or cleaning? My dad used to be a nighttime cleaner...you'd wake up at zero dark thirty to use the bathroom and he'd be putting around downstairs with the duster. More than once I thought there was a burgler in the house.

Yeah, I really don’t, but I can’t strip right now since I’m knocked up so waitressing is all I can do at the moment.

You're...holy shit...congrats...I mean that's what people usually say to pregnant people right? 

I’m a waitress at Saints and Sinners and a burlesque dancer for Fleur de Tease. Well, I’ve done the exploding part, but never the angry sex part, don’t like giving them the satisfaction of saying they had me. Ah, well, hopefully you don’t have a problem finding some - the city has some definite cultural things happening that can lend inspiration. 

Oh hey, that sounds like a hella cool line of work. Burlesque is such an under-appreciated art form. I'm going to have to come and see you in action. I suppose it depends on how you look at it. I don't see it as them having me, I see it as me having them. I wanted a release, I got one, badda bing badda boom. Yeah that's why I'm here, this city is such a cultural hotspot I figured if I can't get inspired here then it won't happen anywhere.

There definitely are. I run into the nightly at work. Oh, he’s more than a grump from what I hear. Ah, no this guy’s name is just August, his last name is Italian I think. Well New Orleans gives inspiration in the weirdest places, so I hope you find some

What sort of work is it that you do? Ah well, I'm not afraid of grumps. In fact some days when you need to release tension you actually want to run into a grumpy asshole, cause then you have an excuse to just go to town and explode. Or have really hot angry sex. Every sort of personality has their uses. Well thank you. If I end up not finding inspiration, it's probably my fault and not the city's. 

Yup and he was balding right in the middle of his head.

I swear to god you don't get paid enough to deal with that kind of shit.

That sounds hot. Shame the love bug bit him, I guess Leo probably feels kind of cheated out of a best friend because Gus sort of takes up all my attention. I mean Leo was my best friend, hands down… But like… Now I have two… Possibly three, if you warm me up to the idea with scotch tonight.

It's a crying shame, but he seems happy and I suppose that's the point. Aww, jealousy happens in small quantities but I'm sure Leo knows that he's special to you. I mean...you may not be all hearts and cuddles and bouts of affection, but when you can stand someone more than most of humanity, you make it known. Now now, Liz, we both know I don't need scotch to make  you admit that we're friends. But I will buy you all the scotch you want just because that happens to be my favorite drink.

No, it’s pulling drunken sots or people who get in fights out of a bar. 

Well, that line of work will certainly give you a daily dose of cardio. I couldn't do it. Most drunks are belligerent and it would just make me want to punch them in the face. So kudos to you. What happens if they're unconscious? Do you just drag them out and leave them on the street?

Not…that I know of? I don’t know any energizer bunnies… No, I don’t drink coffee at night and red bull is absolutely terrible for you, ten out of ten would never recommend to another human being. Pfffft, that’s a terrible idea. I wouldn’t be able to write a book even if I tried. That requires way too much creativity I think. And there’s no way I’m that kind of creative. Not in the slightest. I don’t actually know if I’m creative at all. I wonder… Hmm, it probably is a bad thing but I really can’t sleep. Not even nap. My brain is so alive and awake and wired. Sleep isn’t even possible.

Geeze...have you even tried to sleep? It's totally possible, I mean at this rate you might have to be injected with a horse tranquilizer to get there...but technically it could happen. Sometimes when you've pushed yourself too far you get so overtired that you feel awake even though your biology is screaming for rest. Does this happen often...the not sleeping thing? If it does  you might want to go see a doctor. I know I used to get super stressed out at my old job, and I'd have trouble sleeping. Pop a little pill prescribed by my doctor and I was snoozing for a solid eight hours.