sideblog so i can pretend this isn't my whole life

I will never get over Neil telling Andrew he wanted to see him lose control because 1. It's hot as hell and 2. Everyone else thinks Andrew is already out of control and Neil is the only one who knows how much he holds back everyday. How hard he works to try not to feel anything at all and all Neil wants is for Andrew to let it all out

I can imagine Neil and Aaron sitting down and watching some medical show that is so painfully inaccurate and them both agreeing on something like: “No your femoral artery is more to the left, he basically just stabbed him in the kneecap.” And the other nodding along. Or “He would have bled out before they got him to the hospital if he was shot there.” Maybe even Neil going as far as: “When I was stabbed there I was fine, they’re just being a baby.” And Aaron responding, “That’s what I’m saying.” And during the whole situation Andrew is sitting in the corner very concerned but sits back and quietly drinks his tea just glad they’re not trying to kill each other for once.

OH MY GOD I JUST NOTICED JEAN SITTING IN THE BACKGROUND AND THE 04 JERSEY WITH THE FACE COVERED SKSBIWNWKZBSBSISNAJKSBDH i'm unwell

happy birth Neil, congrats on your very secret life being published in Spanish today