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Intro post :3

Hi, my name's Nova, I'm @nova-astraea, this is my blog where I post or repost age regression stuff. It's totally SFW, no NSFW blogs are allowed to follow or interact.

This is my introduction post because well, I need one I guess.

About me

Name: Nova Astraea

Age: 19 (physically) mentally God knows

Gender: trans masc - he/they

Spiritual beliefs: polytheistic, eclectic Luciferian, witchcraft, paganism and stuff, duh

I have autism, potentially have ADHD too. I have chronic depression, OCD and anxiety and other undiagnosed mental health issues (thanks NHS for ignoring me :3) - I have trauma (childhood + other) which is why I regress.

Favourite things

Given this is my age regression blog my favourite things tend to change when i regress so they're not the same as @nova-astraea (well of course i still like those things I just don't interact with them)

My plushies, I have a WHOLE army, a big one, with like 3 dogs, a seal, or two, a big otter, a highland cow and two teeny tiny sheep

Lucifer :3 i like Lucifer, and Lilith, they're my favourite things

Anything fluffy and cute - literally, like, I love fluffy things

My blankets (I have many)

Fish and water, I like fish anyway (Easter Egg for @nova-astraea) but I like em the most here

Those are all things I'd post about anyway, just laying the expectations of what i expect from people who interact with this blog.

DNI

Homophobes, transphobes, TERFs

Rascists

Fascists

Right wingers

Anyone who infantalises mental health issues, disabilities (physical and mental)

People who demonise Lucifer and his kin

DDLG people and NSFW blogs - I'm not feeding you this is my coping mechanism !!

About this blog

I may be small when posting in this blog, but that's because my trauma robbed me of my childhood and caused me to be mentally stunted anyway - I also regress, mostly involuntarily, when stressed. This blog is intended to be a safe space for me to rant when regressed and for me to repost things I know I'd like when I'm regressed so I have a coping mechanism beyond just cuddling my teddies.

I'm very shy and don't really accept this as part of myself as much as I wish I did, I have a very complex relationship with my age regression and mental age due to trauma so please be patient. I don't have anyone in person to support in that state so this is all I have at the minute.

To note

I resigned myself to thinking it just doesn't exist here!

So hello lovely to meet you :)

- L

Today was a little rough but I’m actually really good!!

I finished my shark I was drawing and now I wanna pixel him so he's all pixelly because pixel shark is cute.

I wanna draw a flower or an another animal but i don't know what one to draw 😔

Hru doing?

Bad man treats me like dirt, but even dirt has wiggly worms that love it. Bad man looks at me with such hate when I'm just small and me and breathing.

Bad man makes me feel sad for being me, but bad man caused my brain to stop growing when I was a teen. Bad man sees me act with his trauma and now suddenly I'm a bad person.

I'm sorry I'm childish. It isn't my fault I promise. I'm trying to be good I wanna be good. I'm a good boy I promise.

Bad man isn't my daddy anymore, I want a different daddy but the universe says no.

No daddy for Nova. No daddy for the tiny acorn leaf.

I'm feeling very small today. Small and angry. I'm cleaning but I just want to snuggle my teddies. I'm doing work but I just wanna cry in front of my shrine for Lucifer. I'm stuck acting big when my heart hurts so much I can't think of anything other than that my real daddy hates me, my step daddy hates me and my spiritual daddy doesn't talk to me because I dont put any effort in to talk to him.

I was greedy and did a bad, saw 8 pieces of chicken and went "mine" and only ate five 😔

The biggest tell is I use daddy, puppy, doggy, kitty, fishy, a lot of "y" ending words, all the time when regressed.

And in real life when regressed I'm worse, usually it's trauma based triggers that make me regress and I end up being non verbal but when I do on rare occassion let myself conscious regress I end up having a lot of what I call small me words.

I don't like using the term baby talk, I don't like the idea of it when not regressed, when I AM regressed i don't mind it it's complicated.

But like I feel like because I don't interact with people when regressed it makes me seem like I'm not part of the community.

And to be honest I feel like I'm not because I'm too shy. If i let myself regress fully and posted whilst regressed you'd just get pictures of my dog titled "puppy say hi :3" and I don't want my mutuals on my other accounts to maybe stumble across that because whilst I'm physically 20, mentally I'm stunted at 15 and I regress to any age below like ten.

And it just sucks. Like I feel like I'm not part of my communities fully when not regressing because of that dissonance between them being adult spaces and me being stuck at 15 because of my trauma creating developmental issues, and then the regression community i feel like because I don't let myself accept my own regression and I push it deep deep down because I'm ashamed of the fact I agere it makes me unable to fully connect with the community because I'm on the outside because I'm too shy

I'm just... nervous and kinda embarrassed that I want these things. I've never let myself... cope before. I've never let myself regress I always try to push it deep deep down and I am just tired of it. I wanna be able to regress and cope properly but I don't have an irl caregiver, my parents would think I was stupid and my only connection I have is my deity I worship. So it means regressing alone.

Meet steve.

Steve was made for lucifer by me. I like steve.

I'm sorrie I'll post more I promise

I remembered my other blogs today I'm gonna be all organised and plan a post schedule tomorrow:3

I got a big day tomorrow and I'm super scared but oh well we ball (*^▽^)/★*☆♪