A Colorful Chaos

Growth II 16x20

I’m obsessed with plants 🌱 if you didn’t know then now you know 😂

All that aside the growth of plants and our own journeys I find to be very similar. I paint golden scars and open wounds with plants growing out of them to symbolize healing from past traumas. No matter what we can move forward and grow from our experiences.

I hope this painting resonates with everyone who seek to grow and heal in their own lives. Even when you feel like giving up I manifest this painting will give you hope that one day you will flourish and thrive.

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Anyone who personally knows me knows I am a huge SZA stand! Before her new album had dropped I was working on a self portrait of myself that was inspired by one of my favorite songs ‘Broken Clocks’ off of her CTRL album.

I wanted to paint something that not only went along with my themes of healing, but also something that showed self acceptance. I painted myself in all of my life phases with multiple golden scars. Scars that I healed from, and that may or may not spread overtime from my traumas. No matter what as time progresses I will always choose myself and love myself no matter how much pain I go through I accept myself.

Just call her Rose 🌹

Recently I did a brand photo shoot for A Colorful Choas something that I’ve never done before. With my showcase happening I wanted to do something for my brand that will help put my art and myself out there to the world. And honestly they look wayyy better than I could ever imagine!

Also stay tuned for my website re-launch and opening my shop for preorders on some of my new pieces! You can get a sneak peak of a few in the photos 👀👀😂. Which ones are your favorite?

Lately, I have been feeling stuck. This feeling has been haunting me for almost a year now, and I know that I’m not where I want to be, with my career and independence, as an artist. One day I was at my lowest and while browsing and my time line I saw a photo (bottom left) along with the message from an artist named @b_hunter_ . She said ‘If one does not operate as if they are in the position they dream of, they will not be ready when that opportunity comes...’, another IG I follow @yogaracheal also quoted ‘striving to surround myself with those that I looked up to. Those ahead of me moving at the speed of Grace Full of purpose + light, I’m continually being fed, but I’m always hungry.’

I felt as though both of these women were talking to me, and that it was meant for me to hear their words. I consciously knew that I wasn’t working myself the way I  needed to. I was starving, but not feeding myself with the knowledge that I needed. I wasn’t taking the opportunities that were given to me. Nor was I exposing myself to the world. I was preventing myself from growing. Since then I screenshot the original photo on my phone and it inspired me to create my own version of it (bottom right). 

Since 2016 started I decided to take more risks. Every job that has been presented to me I have taken, and every personal project I wrote down for myself I have started, with all intention of finishing. I created this painting for myself. This pieces represents my faith in god, and myself and that one day I WILL be a successful artist. I will get to where I want to be and my hard work won’t go unnoticed. If I continue to take risks and move with the grace of a higher power I will get there.

Hello Loves! It’s been a long time coming, but I finally made my first blog! I’ve always wanted to document my thoughts, ideas, and share my growth as an artist. 

Reading other blogs, from the side lines I always wanted to create my own haven where I speak up and out about my experiences.  Afraid that no one would read, or the lack of confidence in myself held me back from sharing. 

After a long period of not doing anything for myself, and a little push from my closets friends, I’ve decided to start this journey. AColorfulChaos is my journal, it is me, I am a colorful individual whose chaotic ideas keep me up at night and keep my hand flowing with beautiful artwork.