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i feel like no matter where I go or how I move I'm never going to be able to be somewhere I feel safe and secure and permanent. I have felt like a visitor my whole life, I've not ever felt security and happiness to a location at the same time. I don't want to be an alien anymore and I really hate that feeling. i don't want to feel it anymore

before I took selfies all day I used to write and I'm starting to do it more again. Requilibrilizing to how much I love spending time alone. #transexperience #transwriting #transart

i was thinking abt a post where I'd be like wat wah wah s/o 2 all the femmes who will only pass in low lighting but then I took this absolute fucking corker of a sefie, cranked the structure, added a yellow wash and remembered it don't matter what u look like just what u FEEL LIKE ✨✨✨✨🤢 I encourage everyone to post some gross pics to like remind urself n others that trans people r j people we ugly sometimes too stop holding up that beauty standard lol edit: I'm so fucking corny I hate myself hhahHahahHah

ive been dreaming abt this i can't wait to be seen, the most memorable moment of 2017 was when a trans woman told me "I see you". at that point I felt so lost and it manifested itself in really awful ways. being seen, being told I was valid and powerful with her eyes, I could and can be who I want to be even after being shamed over the course of my life. im still gawked at and invalidated, and im not there yet, I'm not right I'm still growing and figuring out what I can be and who I can be and I feel so so behind everyone else and I keep reminding myself of that. but I know I've been seen, someone has seen me, and now I see myself a bit clearer. i really really can't wait to not feel really mentally ill all the time and the main advice i give to everyone else is be patient w urself, but i'm so ready to not feel like this anymore, i want feel seen, actually tho.

yo i started an etsy shop w some sick shit on it

thanks who dis

here is a picture of me here is a picture of me alone and by myself as I am really internally and I have so much to be grateful for and I have such intense privilege today I can’t get out of bed I don’t want to get out of bed I only want to leave if I can go outside and not be myself I’m a milimeter away from shaving my head and throwing away all of my clothes and trying for a total rebirth I have been wearing this t-shirt since wednesday and I don’t see any change coming