"It's alright to be that way."

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NGTqp1u5PTk&feature=youtu.be

One's own mind, the thinker of thoughts, is the greatest enemy of all. -Ace Zero

The challenge will take body, mind, soul, heart, feeling, strength, courage, and wisdom, but each work together in order to make and understand the problem which can only be overcome by you. -Ace Zero

My life now is getting harder and it's going to be the biggest obstacle yet with many branches. This is the only song that can describe the freedom and hope for understanding that I want to feel, but with each passing day, I'll always be on the run, just wishing to rest up and feel alive once more, free from the weight and burden this life will be on my shoulders--the college life and the decisions I make. Things could be so easy but I'm always on the run...and always will be.

I thought that you'd might like to know.

The one thing that defines intelligence is one's own ability to do work. That is, constructing the confines of every atom, molecule, nanobyte, and so on and so forth through rigorous categorizing and theoretical findings to gain a form of meaning to which is understandable to our own human creation. To matter, we are matter. To matter, it is the building blocks of which our education can mount that can allow the human being, or living being to be more precise to achieve the unimaginable, through equations and terms that only make sense in the so few languages that make sense to the quantum mechanics and physics of this outer world. So to speak, the matter of matter isn't a big matter, but a matter that should not be overlooked. 

Words flow through my mind in a never ending stream of complication and wisdom, stemming from big words such as what was written before this in this here line, and what might be eluded after such thought is then typed onto cyberspace for all to witness. My mind is overly complicated, reaching branch by branch and door by door into the macro and micro cosmos of what the brain can ever achieve. The fascination is about as peculiar as the brain knowing and learning about itself, much in the same peculiar fashion humans think about themselves, and for which I begin to think and reflect upon myself, through the invisible mirror constantly following myself like a giant over me, watching me and relentlessly taking over the shadow of my own in a silhouette of astonishment. I can't establish a common ground for which all can relate, however, my progression of human self over these months this year has been a correction to my own child-like matter, though ever-present due to the unsustainable nature of myself. Acts I've committed get reflected in the tunes that I listen to that accompany me at every moment of every day. I look back at myself and often ponder my own morality and decision making, combated by the society that does not care to know, or does not question it and remains intact with the flow of nature. I, however, embrace entropy at the sake of own benefit towards knowledge, which with deep questions and need for understanding have corrupted my very mind and soul, much to my own dismay. It's quite ironic that I would know this yet not be able to correct it being self-aware, but that remains the problem in this progression. As governments and high standing powers would fear, I know too much. And I fear it myself. I know too much and have a deeper need for complicated questionable insight that it plagues the values and morals that I take upon myself, resulting in a lack of imagination and awe towards simple matters.  Knowing too much allows for less enjoyment, whether it be a hobby or forced action. The quest for knowledge is a dangerous one, because throughout my journey of understanding, from human to book, to analysis of human nature and qualified examples from literature and experience, I've managed to conceive this overly analyzed bit of words for human comprehension to convey that joy is found through action than wondering the existence of possibility of it all, and how it relates and sustains itself properly to the equilibrium that is seemingly displayed in this society. A word of caution, to wisest and to the seekers--this is the cautioned halt, never know too much. Misunderstanding of understanding can lead to confusion and corruption, unless all areas of mindful evaluation have been taken upon thyself. You're not alone, this warning applies to me as well, who is continually facing this struggle like a hamster in a cage, remotely contained in the world of its own, finding a way out without coming back and facing desolation within itself. As a diligent reminder, this comes from an individual with a child-like nature who is able to exert the entire spectrum of wonder into one regarding piece. Seek carefully and may you be blessed with final interpretation. 

-Ace Zero

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The more knowledge known, the more possible on self-destruction. -Ace Zero

...I'd like a one time reunion or something, back down in a place called Raidcall. Though utterly desecrated, it would be a good time to piece back something of the past, only to feel nostalgia of days come and gone. A year eh? I don't know if I've learned yet, nothing has changed from my state of being, but will I learn for people as my giving, regardless of place? Days have shown that I'm not there yet, and time will tell.